Life's Fortunes

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trefilov

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      How did it come to this?  This is the wake-up call I   needed. The absolute proof, that I am in a depression.  It's time to   find motivation, somehow, somewhere & pick myself up & get out there   again.  When I see images of me, 5 - 10 years down the road, possibly on   Longterm Disability, watching Springer, I cringe.  My life is worth   more, much more than that. Christ, I can't let that happen. I WON'T let that   happen!  I mean today, Springer. Tomorrow, who knows?  I could sink   so deep as to being a rabid fan of: Days Of Our Wives. Oh, GOD no!    That's not gonna happen. I've since turned off the T.V., allowing my own   thoughts to filter back in. I can see why they call it the Idiot Box, it   really sucks all the life right out of you.  Just like the   Internet.  Problem is:  I have BOTH at my disposal & between   these 2 distractions, it's so EASY to burn off a day. Before you know it, a   week's past, a month, a YEAR. I mean, it's already been 20 days, since I lost   my job. Nearly a whole month! & it just flew by like a day.  f*ck,   I've got to put the brakes to this cycle & start a new cycle - FAST!   'cause I don't like where I'm headed.[o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [/td]  [/tr] [/tbody][/table]  [/td][/tr] [/tbody][/table]    

trefilov

  [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"]  [/p][p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"]02/20/2007 [o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]  [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"] [o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]  [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"]   I've always known that I was a morning person & I've never questioned it. It's just the way I am.  What I DO question however, is why I seem to just close down after noon.  [o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]  [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"]    Witness today. I was able to get up at a reasonable hour & get to Blenz just after 8:10 A.M.  It's just so damn HARD to motivate yourself, when you have no deadline. Oh, & here's the kicker – I have plenty of cash in my pocket from my severance pay, but I'm SO afraid of blowing it before my E.I. kicks in, that I have been extremely Miserly.  I know this is wise, but I'm SO thrifty, I'm lucky if I'm spending like $20.00 a week on everything. So the irony, of course is; YES, I have plenty of money in my pocket, with all kinds of time & opportunity to spend it, but – as I said I'm so afraid of blowing it all before E.I. kicks in, that I can't enjoy any of it. I know I'll be thankful I DID hold on to it, in the long term, but you'd think I'd cut myself a LITTLE slack at least! Maybe, order a Pizza – or – have a nice dinner out. You see, with me I'm an all-or-nothing person & I can very easily see myself saying f*ck it, & ordering a pizza one night, promising myself this will be a one time only thing, but then I'll start making more & more allowances, then the dam will burst & before I know it, I'll be broke.  [o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]  [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"]   No, this is the correct course. I may be depressed & sitting at home all day, but I'm saving money that way. I just have to practice self control. So far, I'm doing it & the reward will be when I make it to my 1st E.I. payout.  Who knows?  Maybe even have a little extra to spend by then. If it's a trade-off, I'd much rather walk around the streets knowing I HAVE money, as opposed to all those times I've wondered around broke, WISHING I had money.[o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]  [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"]    Two things a man's ego seem to be attached to, are his hair – inapplicable in my case & his wallet & having as little ego as I do, I sure depend on the money.[o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]  [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"]    As I said, I did make something of the morning & after my morning Blenz coffee, I went down to Sinclair Center & got the extra forms for my CPP Longterm. In light of the Province opening up the purse strings yesterday, now seems a good time to try to reap some of those benefits.[o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]    

trefilov

  [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 10pt;"]Not mine (I WISH!) – But I had to share with everyone. It's brilliant.[o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]  [h3][a href="vny!://www.4guysfromviewpoint.com/?p=76" title="Permanent Link to If WWII was an MMORPG"]If WWII was an MMORPG[/a][/h3]  [p class="MsoNormal"]by [span class="storyauthor"]Rick [/span]@ 10:52 am. Filed under [a href="vny!://www.4guysfromviewpoint.com/index.php?cat=1" title="View all posts in General"]General[/a], [a href="vny!://www.4guysfromviewpoint.com/index.php?cat=5" title="View all posts in Funny"]Funny[/a], [a href="vny!://www.4guysfromviewpoint.com/index.php?cat=8" title="View all posts in Gaming"]Gaming[/a] [o:p][/o:p][/p]  [!-- meta --]  [span style="color: darkgrey;"]*[/span][span style="color: red;"]Hitler[AoE][/span][span style="color: darkgrey;"] has joined the game.*[/span]
 [span style="color: darkgrey;"]*[/span][span style="color: blue;"]Eisenhower[/span][span style="color: darkgrey;"] has joined the game.*[/span]
 [span style="color: darkgrey;"]*[/span][span style="color: green;"]paTTon[/span][span style="color: darkgrey;"] has joined the game.*[/span]
 [span style="color: darkgrey;"]*[/span][span style="color: orange;"]Churchill[/span][span style="color: darkgrey;"] has joined the game.*[/span]
 [span style="color: darkgrey;"]*[/span][span style="color: lightgreen;"]benny-tow[/span][span style="color: darkgrey;"] has joined the game.*[/span]
 [span style="color: darkgrey;"]*[/span][span style="color: fuchsia;"]T0J0[/span][span style="color: darkgrey;"] has joined the game.*[/span]
 [span style="color: darkgrey;"]*[/span][span style="color: brown;"]Roosevelt[/span][span style="color: darkgrey;"] has joined the game.*[/span]
 [span style="color: darkgrey;"]*[/span][span style="color: aqua;"]Stalin[/span][span style="color: darkgrey;"] has joined the game.*[/span]
 [span style="color: darkgrey;"]*[/span][span style="color: darkblue;"]deGaulle[/span][span style="color: darkgrey;"] has joined the game.*[/span]
 [span style="color: brown;"]Roosevelt[/span]: hey sup
 [span style="color: fuchsia;"]T0J0[/span]: y0
 [span style="color: aqua;"]Stalin[/span]: hi
 [span style="color: orange;"]Churchill[/span]: hi
 [span style="color: red;"]Hitler[AoE][/span]: cool, i start with panzer tanks!
 [span style="color: green;"]paTTon[/span]: lol more like panzy tanks
 [span style="color: fuchsia;"]T0J0[/span]: lol
 [span style="color: brown;"]Roosevelt[/span]: o this fockin sucks i got a depression!
 [span style="color: lightgreen;"]benny-tow[/span]: haha america sux
 [span style="color: aqua;"]Stalin[/span]: hey hitler you dont fight me i dont fight u, cool?
 [span style="color: red;"]Hitler[AoE][/span]: sure whatever
 [span style="color: aqua;"]Stalin[/span]: cool
 [span style="color: darkblue;"]deGaulle[/span]: **** Hitler rushed some1 help
 [span style="color: red;"]Hitler[AoE][/span]: lol byebye frenchy
 [span style="color: brown;"]Roosevelt[/span]: i dont got crap to help, sry
 [span style="color: orange;"]Churchill[/span]: wtf the luftwaffle is attacking me
 [span style="color: brown;"]Roosevelt[/span]: get antiair guns
 [span style="color: orange;"]Churchill[/span]: i cant afford them
 [span style="color: lightgreen;"]benny-tow[/span]: u n00bs know what team talk is?
 [span style="color: green;"]paTTon[/span]: stfu
 [span style="color: brown;"]Roosevelt[/span]: o yah hit the navajo button guys
 [span style="color: darkblue;"]deGaulle[/span]: Eisenhower ur worthless come help me quick
 [span style="color: blue;"]Eisenhower[/span]: i cant do **** til rosevelt gives me an army
 [span style="color: green;"]paTTon[/span]: yah hurry the fock up
 [span style="color: orange;"]Churchill[/span]: d00d im gettin pounded
 [span style="color: darkblue;"]deGaulle[/span]: this is fockin weak u guys suck
 [span style="color: darkgrey;"]*[/span][span style="color: darkblue;"]deGaulle[/span][span style="color: darkgrey;"] has left the game.*[/span]
 [span style="color: brown;"]Roosevelt[/span]: im gonna attack the axis k?
 [span style="color: lightgreen;"]benny-tow[/span]: with what? ur wheelchair?
 [span style="color: lightgreen;"]benny-tow[/span]: lol did u mess up ur legs AND ur head?
 [span style="color: red;"]Hitler[AoE][/span]: ROFLMAO
 [span style="color: fuchsia;"]T0J0[/span]: lol o no america im comin 4 u
 [span style="color: brown;"]Roosevelt[/span]: wtf! thats bullsh1t u fags im gunna kick ur asses
 [span style="color: fuchsia;"]T0J0[/span]: not without ur harbors u wont! lol
 [span style="color: brown;"]Roosevelt[/span]: u little biotch ill get u
 [span style="color: red;"]Hitler[AoE][/span]: wtf
 [span style="color: red;"]Hitler[AoE][/span]: america hax, u had depression and now u got a huge fockin army
 [span style="color: red;"]Hitler[AoE][/span]: thats bullsh1t u hacker
 [span style="color: orange;"]Churchill[/span]: lol no more france for u hitler
 [span style="color: red;"]Hitler[AoE][/span]: tojo help me!
 [span style="color: fuchsia;"]T0J0[/span]: wtf u want me to do, im on the other side of the world retard
 [span style="color: red;"]Hitler[AoE][/span]: fine ill clear you a path
 [span style="color: aqua;"]Stalin[/span]: WTF u arsshoel! WE HAD A FoCKIN TRUCE
 [span style="color: red;"]Hitler[AoE][/span]: i changed my mind lol
 [span style="color: lightgreen;"]benny-tow[/span]: haha
 [span style="color: lightgreen;"]benny-tow[/span]: hey ur losing ur guys in africa im gonna need help in italy soon sum1
 [span style="color: fuchsia;"]T0J0[/span]: o **** i cant help u i got my hands full
 [span style="color: red;"]Hitler[AoE][/span]: im 2 busy 2 help
 [span style="color: brown;"]Roosevelt[/span]: yah thats right biznitch im comin for ya
 [span style="color: aqua;"]Stalin[/span]: church help me
 [span style="color: orange;"]Churchill[/span]: like u helped me before? sure ill just sit here
 [span style="color: aqua;"]Stalin[/span]: dont be an arss
 [span style="color: orange;"]Churchill[/span]: dont be a commie. oops too late
 [span style="color: blue;"]Eisenhower[/span]: LOL
 [span style="color: lightgreen;"]benny-tow[/span]: hahahh oh sh1t help
 [span style="color: red;"]Hitler[AoE][/span]: o man ur focked
 [span style="color: green;"]paTTon[/span]: oh what now biotch
 [span style="color: brown;"]Roosevelt[/span]: whos the cripple now lol
 [span style="color: darkgrey;"]*[/span][span style="color: lightgreen;"]benny-tow[/span][span style="color: darkgrey;"] has been eliminated.*[/span]
 [span style="color: lightgreen;"]benny-tow[/span]: lame
 [span style="color: brown;"]Roosevelt[/span]: gj paTTon
 [span style="color: green;"]paTTon[/span]: thnx
 [span style="color: red;"]Hitler[AoE][/span]: WTF Eisenhower hax hes killing all my sh1t
 [span style="color: red;"]Hitler[AoE][/span]: quit u hacker so u dont ruin my record
 [span style="color: blue;"]Eisenhower[/span]: Nuts!
 [span style="color: lightgreen;"]benny-tow[/span]: wtf that mean?
 [span style="color: blue;"]Eisenhower[/span]: meant to say nutsack lol finger slipped
 [span style="color: green;"]paTTon[/span]: coming to get u hitler u paper hanging hun cocksocker
 [span style="color: aqua;"]Stalin[/span]: rofl
 [span style="color: fuchsia;"]T0J0[/span]: HAHAHHAA
 [span style="color: red;"]Hitler[AoE][/span]: u guys are fockin gay
 [span style="color: red;"]Hitler[AoE][/span]: ur never getting in my city
 [span style="color: darkgrey;"]*[/span][span style="color: red;"]Hitler[AoE][/span][span style="color: darkgrey;"] has been eliminated.*[/span]
 [span style="color: lightgreen;"]benny-tow[/span]: OMG u noob you killed yourself
 [span style="color: blue;"]Eisenhower[/span]: ROFLOLOLOL
 [span style="color: aqua;"]Stalin[/span]: OMG LMAO!
 [span style="color: red;"]Hitler[AoE][/span]: WTF i didnt click there omg this game blows
 [span style="color: darkgrey;"]*[/span][span style="color: red;"]Hitler[AoE][/span][span style="color: darkgrey;"] has left the game*
 [span style="color: green;"][/span]paTTon[/span]: hahahhah
 [span style="color: fuchsia;"]T0J0[/span]: WTF my teammates are n00bs
 [span style="color: lightgreen;"]benny-tow[/span]: shut up noob
 [span style="color: brown;"]Roosevelt[/span]: haha wut a moron
 [span style="color: green;"]paTTon[/span]: wtf am i gunna do now?
 [span style="color: blue;"]Eisenhower[/span]: yah me too
 [span style="color: fuchsia;"]T0J0[/span]: why dont u attack me o thats right u dont got no ships lololol
 [span style="color: blue;"]Eisenhower[/span]: fock u
 [span style="color: green;"]paTTon[/span]: lemme go thru ur base commie
 [span style="color: aqua;"]Stalin[/span]: go to hell lol
 [span style="color: green;"]paTTon[/span]: fock this sh1t im goin afk
 [span style="color: blue;"]Eisenhower[/span]: yah this is gay
 [span style="color: darkgrey;"]*[/span][span style="color: brown;"]Roosevelt[/span][span style="color: darkgrey;"] has left the game.*[/span]
 [span style="color: red;"]Hitler[AoE][/span]: wtf?
 [span style="color: blue;"]Eisenhower[/span]: sh1t now we need some1 to join
 [span style="color: darkgrey;"]*[/span][span style="color: pink;"]tru_m4n[/span][span style="color: darkgrey;"] has joined the game.*[/span]
 [span style="color: pink;"]tru_m4n[/span]: hi all
 [span style="color: fuchsia;"]T0J0[/span]: hey
 [span style="color: aqua;"]Stalin[/span]: sup
 [span style="color: orange;"]Churchill[/span]: hi
 [span style="color: pink;"]tru_m4n[/span]: OMG OMG OMG i got all his stuff!
 [span style="color: pink;"]tru_m4n[/span]: NUKES! HOLY **** I GOT NUKES
 [span style="color: aqua;"]Stalin[/span]: d00d gimmie some plz
 [span style="color: pink;"]tru_m4n[/span]: no way i only got like a couple
 [span style="color: aqua;"]Stalin[/span]: omg dont be gay gimmie nuculer secrets
 [span style="color: fuchsia;"]T0J0[/span]: wtf is nukes?
 [span style="color: fuchsia;"]T0J0[/span]: holy sh*tholysh*thoylshti!!!111
 [span style="color: darkgrey;"]*[/span][span style="color: fuchsia;"]T0J0[/span][span style="color: darkgrey;"] has been eliminated.*[/span]
 *The Allied team has won the game!*
 [span style="color: blue;"]Eisenhower[/span]: awesome!
 [span style="color: orange;"]Churchill[/span]: gg noobs no re
 [span style="color: fuchsia;"]T0J0[/span]: thats bullsh*t u fockin suck
 [span style="color: darkgrey;"]*[/span][span style="color: fuchsia;"]T0J0[/span][span style="color: darkgrey;"] has left the game.*[/span]
 [span style="color: darkgrey;"]*[/span][span style="color: blue;"]Eisenhower[/span][span style="color: darkgrey;"] has left the game.*[/span]
 [span style="color: aqua;"]Stalin[/span]: next game im not going to be on ur team, u guys didnt help me for ****
 [span style="color: orange;"]Churchill[/span]: wutever, we didnt need ur help neway dumbarss
 [span style="color: pink;"]tru_m4n[/span]: l8r all
 [span style="color: lightgreen;"]benny-tow[/span]: bye
 [span style="color: orange;"]Churchill[/span]: l8r
 [span style="color: aqua;"]Stalin[/span]: fock u all
 [span style="color: pink;"]tru_m4n[/span]: shut up commie lol
 [span style="color: darkgrey;"]*[/span][span style="color: pink;"]tru_m4n[/span][span style="color: darkgrey;"] has left the game.*[/span]
 [span style="color: lightgreen;"]benny-tow[/span]: lololol u commie
 [span style="color: orange;"]Churchill[/span]: ROFL
 [span style="color: orange;"]Churchill[/span]: bye commie
 [span style="color: darkgrey;"]*[/span][span style="color: orange;"]Churchill[/span][span style="color: darkgrey;"] has left the game.*[/span]
 [span style="color: darkgrey;"]*[/span][span style="color: lightgreen;"]benny-tow[/span][span style="color: darkgrey;"] has left the game.*[/span]
 [span style="color: aqua;"]Stalin[/span]: i hate u all fags
 [span style="color: darkgrey;"]*[/span][span style="color: aqua;"]Stalin[/span][span style="color: darkgrey;"] has left the game.*[/span]
 [span style="color: green;"]paTTon[/span]: lol no1 is left
 [span style="color: green;"]paTTon[/span]: weeeee i got a jeep
 [span style="color: darkgrey;"]*[/span][span style="color: green;"]paTTon[/span][span style="color: darkgrey;"] has been eliminated.*[/span]
 [span style="color: green;"]paTTon[/span]: o sh1t!
 [span style="color: darkgrey;"]*[/span][span style="color: green;"]paTTon[/span][span style="color: darkgrey;"] has left the game.*[/span] [/p]    

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  [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"]02/21/2007 [o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]  [table class="MsoNormalTable" style="width: 100%;" border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" width="100%"]  [tbody][tr style=""]   [td style="padding: 0in; width: 22.5pt;" width="30"]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"][v:shapetype id="_x0000_t75" coordsize="21600,21600" o:spt="75" o:preferrelative="t" path="m@4@5l@4@11@9@11@9@5xe" filled="f" stroked="f"]    [v:stroke joinstyle="miter"]    [v:formulas]     [v:f eqn="if lineDrawn pixelLineWidth 0"]     [v:f eqn="sum @0 1 0"]     [v:f eqn="sum 0 0 @1"]     [v:f eqn="prod @2 1 2"]     [v:f eqn="prod @3 21600 pixelWidth"]     [v:f eqn="prod @3 21600 pixelHeight"]     [v:f eqn="sum @0 0 1"]     [v:f eqn="prod @6 1 2"]     [v:f eqn="prod @7 21600 pixelWidth"]     [v:f eqn="sum @8 21600 0"]     [v:f eqn="prod @7 21600 pixelHeight"]     [v:f eqn="sum @10 21600 0"]    [/v:f]    [v:path o:extrusionok="f" gradientshapeok="t" o:connecttype="rect"]    [o:lock v:ext="edit" aspectratio="t"]   [/o:lock][v:shape id="Picture_x0020_51" o:spid="_x0000_i1025" type="#_x0000_t75" alt="vny!://x.myspace.com/images/spacer.gif" style="width: 22.5pt; height: 0.75pt; visibility: visible;"]    [v:imagedata src="file:///C:%5CDOCUME%7E1%5CBIFF%21%5CLOCALS%7E1%5CTemp%5Cmsohtmlclip1%5C01%5Cclip_image001.gif" o:title="spacer"]   [/v:imagedata][/v:shape][/v:path][/v:f][/v:f][/v:f][/v:f][/v:f][/v:f][/v:f][/v:f][/v:f][/v:f][/v:f][/v:formulas][/v:stroke][/v:shapetype][/span][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"][o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]  
[/td]   [td style="padding: 0in;"]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"] [o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"]Captain's log: Supplemental.    I have just finished watching the movie Castaway for the 2nd   time.  The 1st time I saw it, was around 2000 & I don't   remember being as moved back then & inspired as I am now. The only thing   stopping my from crying is the dope. [o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"]    It truly is a   beautifully written movie & it's got me thinking a lot about my own life   & where I am right now. Here's a movie, a message I take it as – about a   guy, whom loses everything & finds his own source of inspiration to carry   on & survive. I know it's only a movie, but to me, THAT'S what MOVIE   means. A show that MOVES you & I was moved.[o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"]   It really helps put   in perspective my current situation. I spend so much time feeling sorry for   myself & wishing I had things & lamenting that, which I have lost,   but here is a story about a guy who loses MORE, including his wife – whom not   only has the strength & the courage to come back – not only that, but is   strong enough to let his wife go, because he HAD to, the way she had to when   she thought he was dead. Here is a true message of triumph of spirit!    How DO you let someone go, who was your whole life.  I think that may be   part of the reason I never got into a serious relationship, because I don't   know if I am that strong. [o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"]   Again, acknowledging   that it was only a movie, if it's enough to at least get you thinking, let   alone re-evaluating your whole life, then it must count for something, right?[o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"]   I draw the greatest   inspiration from the blatantly symbolic last scene, where he literally is   standing at the crossroads & you are given the impression that the   options are HIS & that HE is in control of his own destiny & the sense   of optimism in that knowledge. That he has a brand new life path before him   & because of what he's come through, he's not afraid of what lies before   him.[o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"]Sound familiar Alec? (Looks in   mirror)[o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][a href="vny!://blog.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendID=157088588&blogID=233197827&Mytoken=9CB4EC37-D0F0-4663-B36E2CF4DFE065AA77462289"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; color: blue;"]
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  [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"]02/22/2007 [/span][/p]  [table class="MsoNormalTable" style="width: 100%;" border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" width="100%"]  [tbody][tr style=""]   [td style="padding: 0in; width: 22.5pt;" width="30"]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"][v:shapetype id="_x0000_t75" coordsize="21600,21600" o:spt="75" o:preferrelative="t" path="m@4@5l@4@11@9@11@9@5xe" filled="f" stroked="f"]    [v:stroke joinstyle="miter"]    [v:formulas]     [v:f eqn="if lineDrawn pixelLineWidth 0"]     [v:f eqn="sum @0 1 0"]     [v:f eqn="sum 0 0 @1"]     [v:f eqn="prod @2 1 2"]     [v:f eqn="prod @3 21600 pixelWidth"]     [v:f eqn="prod @3 21600 pixelHeight"]     [v:f eqn="sum @0 0 1"]     [v:f eqn="prod @6 1 2"]     [v:f eqn="prod @7 21600 pixelWidth"]     [v:f eqn="sum @8 21600 0"]     [v:f eqn="prod @7 21600 pixelHeight"]     [v:f eqn="sum @10 21600 0"]    [/v:f]    [v:path o:extrusionok="f" gradientshapeok="t" o:connecttype="rect"]    [o:lock v:ext="edit" aspectratio="t"]   [/o:lock][v:shape id="Picture_x0020_53" o:spid="_x0000_i1025" type="#_x0000_t75" alt="vny!://x.myspace.com/images/spacer.gif" style="width: 22.5pt; height: 0.75pt; visibility: visible;"]    [v:imagedata src="file:///C:%5CDOCUME%7E1%5CBIFF%21%5CLOCALS%7E1%5CTemp%5Cmsohtmlclip1%5C01%5Cclip_image001.gif" o:title="spacer"]   [/v:imagedata][/v:shape][/v:path][/v:f][/v:f][/v:f][/v:f][/v:f][/v:f][/v:f][/v:f][/v:f][/v:f][/v:f][/v:formulas][/v:stroke][/v:shapetype][/span][/p]   [/td]   [td style="padding: 0in;"]         [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"]Ugh! I've done so much writing   these last few days, that it's actually becoming a chore.[o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"]  Ok, lessee...where to   start...Well, of course I worked some more on my Autobiography this morning at   Blenz. f*ck, this is hard!  I'm actually disappointed with this entry   already.[o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"]Talk about writers block![o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"]Ok, I'm just gonna have to sum up   the day's events then – sans my witty insights, cause frankly, I just don't   feel up to it right now. [o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"]   Ok, I went to visit   Mother at Evergreen & shared what I had written so far & she seemed   to like it. This is encouraging.[o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"]   I also met a couple   of 50 yr old women, one of which, I flirted a bit with & I wouldn't mind   banging, if just for the experience. I bet she'd appreciate a younger guy.[o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"]    Went to the doc   & was disappointed when he wouldn't sign my Longterm Disability form. I'm   a f*cking Retard Doc!  How the HELL do you think I'm employable?    He DID sign the Shortterm, which at least buys me a little time.  [o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"]    So, maybe   that's why I'm so tired tonight.  I actually got off my ever expanding   ass & did something today.[o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [/td]  [/tr] [/tbody][/table]    

GORDY GAMBINO

Ever thought of being a counter weight on an excavator?
CAPO DI TUTTI CAPPI

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[/span][/p]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"] Gonna take a different tack here.   Gonna try making my entries at the beginning of the day, when I seem to be at   my most insightful. [o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"]    As I was   walking to Blenz, in my usual half awake state, I heard a girl from behind me   say: "Sup?" Recognizing the youthspeak & quickly translating it   in my head as: "What's up?" I quickly looked behind me to see whom   she was talking to. I couldn't see anybody else in the immediate vicinity,   but my damaged ego, as always prevented me from believing it was directed   toward me. I quickly darted into Blenz, & she walked on by, where I could   get a good look at her. She looked to be anywhere from about 18 – to maybe   20. I also noticed she was carrying a purse. CONCLUSION:  she was either   a Crackhead, or Ho.  When did the stigma of a middle class girl carrying   a purse turn into them being Ho's? Am I that far out of the loop, or is it   more-or-less accurate today?[o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"]    Anyway, as I   pondered the awkward interaction, I never answered her address. Speaking of   which, I have noticed a gradual degeneration of the English language amongst   the youth of today.  In more enlightened times, when one wished to   address a stranger, they would say such things like: "Pardon me   sir..." –or- "Excuse me but..."[o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"]   But these kids seem   to be gradually regressing to the Paleozoic era, where the Cavemen   communicated by grunts.[o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"]   Think about for a   moment. How far is: "Sup?" from: "Ugh."  See what I   mean?[o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"]It's signs like these that   discourage my confidence in the evolution of man.[o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"]    Although I   desperately wished she was hitting on me, my logic quickly substitutes   alternate scenarios like: She was talking to someone else, you just couldn't   see them. / She WAS talking to you, but she was only interested in bumming a   smoke, or money. / She was a Ho & you can't afford it.  You see?   Anything to protect my ego.[o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"]     Geez,   that's a lot of thinking for 10:00 A,M, I think this MIGHT be the best time   to do these, as I seem to be on a bit of a roll here.[o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"]    Is it me, or   are there absolute BABES in the Davie district?  I mean, I found it hard   concentrating on my book, as I found myself constantly looking out the window   & evaluating the various women I'd love to bang. I mean, if any   percentage of the girls I see are single, but I wasn't so dam f*cked up, I would   be having a field day.  Oh, how I would love to be a player & have a   different girl for every day of the week! And the real tragedy too, is now   that I've cut back on the dope, I could keep up with them all too!    Seriously.  I seem to be up to 3 beat-offs a day, Christ, imagine if I   was in the game! Ok, I'm getting frustrated just thinking about this   self-imposed barrier, so time to change the subject[o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"]    So, no doubt, I   do feel my sharpest in the morning, so I think from now on, I'll make these   entries then.[o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [/td]  [/tr] [/tbody][/table]    

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  [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"]02/24/2007[/span][/p]  [table class="MsoNormalTable" style="width: 100%;" border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" width="100%"]  [tbody][tr style=""]   [td style="padding: 0in; width: 22.5pt;" width="30"]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"][v:shapetype id="_x0000_t75" coordsize="21600,21600" o:spt="75" o:preferrelative="t" path="m@4@5l@4@11@9@11@9@5xe" filled="f" stroked="f"]    [v:stroke joinstyle="miter"]    [v:formulas]     [v:f eqn="if lineDrawn pixelLineWidth 0"]     [v:f eqn="sum @0 1 0"]     [v:f eqn="sum 0 0 @1"]     [v:f eqn="prod @2 1 2"]     [v:f eqn="prod @3 21600 pixelWidth"]     [v:f eqn="prod @3 21600 pixelHeight"]     [v:f eqn="sum @0 0 1"]     [v:f eqn="prod @6 1 2"]     [v:f eqn="prod @7 21600 pixelWidth"]     [v:f eqn="sum @8 21600 0"]     [v:f eqn="prod @7 21600 pixelHeight"]     [v:f eqn="sum @10 21600 0"]    [/v:f]    [v:path o:extrusionok="f" gradientshapeok="t" o:connecttype="rect"]    [o:lock v:ext="edit" aspectratio="t"]   [/o:lock][v:shape id="Picture_x0020_57" o:spid="_x0000_i1025" type="#_x0000_t75" alt="vny!://x.myspace.com/images/spacer.gif" style="width: 22.5pt; height: 0.75pt; visibility: visible;"]    [v:imagedata src="file:///C:%5CDOCUME%7E1%5CBIFF%21%5CLOCALS%7E1%5CTemp%5Cmsohtmlclip1%5C01%5Cclip_image001.gif" o:title="spacer"]   [/v:imagedata][/v:shape][/v:path][/v:f][/v:f][/v:f][/v:f][/v:f][/v:f][/v:f][/v:f][/v:f][/v:f][/v:f][/v:formulas][/v:stroke][/v:shapetype][/span][/p]   [/td]   [td style="padding: 0in;"]      [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"]CHRIST I'm horny lately!  I   must have gotten off about 5 beat-offs at LEAST, yesterday. And of course, no   Cum-Catcher to reap the benefits. Uh-oh, here comes the Misogyny again. Let's   leave that alone. Although, I do seem to be in a negative mind frame today. [o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"]Witness what I was writing to   myself as I was eating breakfast at Denny's this morning:[o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"] [span style="color: red;"]Thank   god i have this phone to distract me by jotting down my feelings when I'm   anxious. Why do I HATE bitches, & youth culture SO much? I have an idea   whyI Hate the twenty something's & that of course being that I'm jealous   & envious that they're so young, with bright futures ahead, while me, i   lost virtually my entire 20's to first, Hair Loss & then Social Anxiety.   I resent them for daring to be so young in my presence. (You see now just how   f*cked up I truly am?)  I have SO MUCH anger inside me,  I can't   believe it hasn't manifested itself in the form of Cancer. After all, they DO   say anger eats you up. As does Cancer.
      Look at those 2 Chugs over there. Sitting at the window I had   been gazing out. How DARE they take a seat there & obstruct my view!    God, LISTEN to me, will you? Where is all this venom coming from? I'm   feeling more anxious now, as more people enter Denny's & are seated   around me. f*ck! Why couldn't you all have stayed home this morning? It's a   rainy, grey Saturday morning for Chrissake! What POSSIBLE motivation could   you have for going out at ALL today?[/span][o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; color: red;"] [/span][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"]Yes. Those thoughts are what I was actually thinking to   myself as I sat down to breakfast this morning. Proof that not ALL Mentally   Ill people live on the street, although if my former Employer doesn't get   their shit together quick, I just MAY end up on the street.[o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"]See my latest pleading email to   them:[o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"] [span style="color: blue;"]Hi   Debbie.[/span][o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; color: blue;"] I'm sorry to keep   pestering you, but I thought I should
   let you know, it is now Friday, Feb. 23 & I still have not received my   R.O.E. I have researched & found that under Canadian Law,it is not   unreasonable to expect this document within (5) calendar days of a persons   cessation of employment.  [/span][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"][o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; color: blue;"] SEE BELOW:[/span][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"][o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; color: purple;"] [/span][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"]
   Canadian jurisdiction.[/span]
[span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"][o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"]Eligible Activities[/span][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"][o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"]All employment under Canadian   jurisdiction.[/span][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"][o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"] [/span][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"][o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"]Summary:[/span][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"][o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"] The Employment Insurance Act   and its Regulations require every employer to complete a Record of Employment   (ROE) when an employee stops working and when an interruption of earnings   occurs. This happens when an employee is laid off, quits, leaves without pay   or is dismissed, or when an employee is temporarily away from work due to   pregnancy, injury, illness, adoption leave or provides care and support to a   gravely ill family member. A penalty under the Employment Insurance Act for   non-compliance may apply to employers who fail to issue a ROE as required. [/span][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"][o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"]The information on the ROE   determines if a person qualifies for Employment Insurance (EI) benefits, the   benefit rate and the duration of his/her claim. The ROE also plays an   important role in controlling the misuse of EI funds and it must be issued   even if the employee has not intention of filing a claim for EI benefits.[/span][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"][o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"] [/span][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"][o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"]When to issue a Record of   Employment?[/span][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"][o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"] [/span][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"][o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"]Generally, a ROE must be issued   within five calendar days or the interruption of earnings or the date the   employer becomes aware of the interruption.[/span][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"][o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"]
   [span style="color: blue;"]As I write this, it has now been (22) days since my   departure from the company Again, I am sorry to be persistent in this matter,   but please understand I have bills & rent to pay & no way to pay   these without my E.I. coverage. I have pleaded with them & they maintain   that they cannot & will not even come to
   a decision re: my claim, without my R.O.E.If there's any thing I can do on my   end to expedite this process, then please let me know.[/span][o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; color: blue;"] Regards.[/span][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"][o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; color: blue;"] Alec.[/span][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"][o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"]
   Obviously, I'm in Ass-Kicking mode, but when your very livelihood hangs in   the balance & you're at the mercy of whether-or-not somebody you've never   even met has remembered to send a simple letter, you HAVE to be. I've never   liked a**holes & I never thought I'd have to be one myself, but among the   many lessons I've learned in this life, is that – sadly, just to simply   SURVIVE sometimes you have to be one.[o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [/td]  [/tr] [/tbody][/table]    

trefilov

  [p class="blogcontent"]Captain Janeway in this case. My obsession with women shitting, & mysnginy in general isn't helped much when I sit right outside the Ladies room at the Coffee shop. But when there's simply just no other seats available because everyone & their dog (You can take that litterally in Vancouver) wants to duck-in, out of the cold rain - well, what are you going to do? I can see, or rather SMELL why you women try to be so discreet about shitting, because I gotta tell ya. You REEK! I know, I Know, I can already hear you challenging me to find a person who's shit DOESN'T smell, but seriously, I've never smelled anything so FOUL. I'm so glad I'm not a woman. My shit stinks bad enough. GOD, it's like a WAVE of STINK everytime that door opens. I've always wondered why some women absolutely BATHE themselves in perfume. You know the type. Just catching a whiff of them as they pass on the street, & your eyes water. My guess is they've just taken a huge dump, & are trying to cover the smell.
     Man, I'm really ripping on bitches today. Marc Lepine would be proud. Ugh! I gotta bolt. The smell that keeps coming outta there is making me sick.[/p]    

trefilov

  [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"]02/24/2007[/span][/p]  [table class="MsoNormalTable" style="width: 100%;" border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" width="100%"]  [tbody][tr style=""]   [td style="padding: 0in; width: 22.5pt;" width="30"]   [p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"][v:shapetype id="_x0000_t75" coordsize="21600,21600" o:spt="75" o:preferrelative="t" path="m@4@5l@4@11@9@11@9@5xe" filled="f" stroked="f"]    [v:stroke joinstyle="miter"]    [v:formulas]     [v:f eqn="if lineDrawn pixelLineWidth 0"]     [v:f eqn="sum @0 1 0"]     [v:f eqn="sum 0 0 @1"]     [v:f eqn="prod @2 1 2"]     [v:f eqn="prod @3 21600 pixelWidth"]     [v:f eqn="prod @3 21600 pixelHeight"]     [v:f eqn="sum @0 0 1"]     [v:f eqn="prod @6 1 2"]     [v:f eqn="prod @7 21600 pixelWidth"]     [v:f eqn="sum @8 21600 0"]     [v:f eqn="prod @7 21600 pixelHeight"]     [v:f eqn="sum @10 21600 0"]    [/v:f]    [v:path o:extrusionok="f" gradientshapeok="t" o:connecttype="rect"]    [o:lock v:ext="edit" aspectratio="t"]   [/o:lock][v:shape id="Picture_x0020_265" o:spid="_x0000_i1025" type="#_x0000_t75" alt="vny!://x.myspace.com/images/spacer.gif" style="width: 22.5pt; height: 0.75pt; visibility: visible;"]    [v:imagedata src="file:///C:%5CDOCUME%7E1%5CBIFF%21%5CLOCALS%7E1%5CTemp%5Cmsohtmlclip1%5C01%5Cclip_image001.gif" o:title="spacer"]   [/v:imagedata][/v:shape][/v:path][/v:f][/v:f][/v:f][/v:f][/v:f][/v:f][/v:f][/v:f][/v:f][/v:f][/v:f][/v:formulas][/v:stroke][/v:shapetype][/span][/p]   [/td]   [td style="padding: 0in;"]      [p class="MsoNormal" style="lineh-eight: normal;"][span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif";"]So I'm in a philosophical frame of   mind this morning, as I drink mein coffee, & I was thinking;  since   DEATH is the ultimate unknown, & since FEAR is the default emotional   response we have of the unknown, I was thinking would it be a good thing, or   a bad thing if the fear of death was eliminated? In other words, would   mankind thrive & better himself & ultimately evolve into a higher   form of being, or would his demons overcome him & cause him to spiral   down into a vicious cycle of debautchery & self-serving?
       It really IS almost a Zen-type of question, & perhaps   that's why  man was made to be mortal, with only an alotted time frame   in which to exist, for  that question may be  so great, that   Mankind is simply not ready to contemplate it.
      What-on-earth, then am I doing - comming up with such a   question? Suddenly, I feel VERY small & insignifigant in the    Universe.
       You see what Coffee does to a person?[o:p][/o:p][/span][/p]   [/td]  [/tr] [/tbody][/table]    

trefilov

[p class="blogTimeStamp"]                                                                                   02/24/2007                                                                                                                        [/p]                                                                                                                                                                                            [table class="blog" border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" width="100%"][tbody][tr]                                                                                [td]                                                                                                                                                                         [p class="blogContent"]
I'm watching Forest Gump & seeing as how today is Mysoginy day for me, I may as well offer my views on one aspect of the movie.
   Amidst all kinds of symbolism in the movie, there's one that stands out for me & that being how the nice guys always finish last, when it comes to women. I'm talking of course, about how the Charachter "Jenny" always manages to get herself into all kinds of trouble, always hooks up with guys that treat her like shit & yet, always manages to not only be rescued by a man who truly loves her, but she won't love him back. Again, acknowledging this is only a movie, but I know for a FACT, that this particular phenomenon is taken from real life.  I've seen it, I've experienced it myself. I've seen women who know that someone's in love with them & they exploit that weakness in him & use their evil feminine wiles to manipulate the guy to achieve their selfish  goals. You see it. Time & time again, play out through history. Women using men, GOOD men, who worship the  ground they walk on, & in some cases - would give their very lives. Of course not every woman is like this, I admit that. Hell, I even acknowledge that there are some good ones out there, though rare as they may be. And, to give the ladies equal time, I also admit there are men who do the same thing.
    I guess what it boils down to is risk.  KNOWING that if you open yourself up to a relationship you RISK getting hurt. But you also risk finding love & happiness.[/p][/td][/tr][/tbody][/table]

ripper

What are you talking about' I watched that movie too and he was scoring with some super hot chicks. Oh sorry wrong movie. Forest Hump.

P.C.

Hate to burst your bubble tref.....but I've seen it both ways.  Time and time again.

  The story is identical for both sexes....depending only on who is telling it.
Sir Isaac Newton invented the swinging door....for the convenience of his cat.

trefilov

[p class="blogTimeStamp"]                                                                                   02/25/2007                                                                                                                           [/p]                                                                                                                                                                                            [table class="blog" border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" width="100%"][tbody][tr]                                                                                [td]                                                                                                                                                                         [p class="blogContent"]                         Ok. I've just downed my first coffee & I can feel the ol' synapses kicking in, so time to make today's entry.
     As yesterday was a typical rainy, grey Vancouver Saturday & it was customary for me to visit D on Saturdays, I just wasn't up for it. And knowing, that if I was to call him & cancel, I'd get the standard guilt trip, in his classic Child-like response, so I figured, knowing that's what I would get if I called him to cancel, I'd just let him figure it out.  I've done it before & you think he'd get the message, but he sticks to his old ways.  I guess when you're 83 years old, depressed & blind, it can be hard finding motivation to change.
     But, I called him early this morning, with my fake story about how I completely lost track of the days & didn't realize that yesterday was Saturday.  You see, I've heard him tell me himself, how he loses track of the days, being retired, so being out of work myself, I figured he could relate. And of course, he bought it.  After I had to endure a cold greeting of: "Helo Alec" when he first picked up the phone, but once I launched into my bullshit story, he came around.  Man, I am such a manipulator!  It's a shame I couldn't profit from such talents, but the MAN says you need to go to all kinds of schools & courses to get your Psychology certificate, just so you can f*ck with people's minds on a legitimate basis.  
     Oh well, I'll just continue using my tools to my own ends then. As I write, it is yet, another grey day, here in Raincouver, although the sun does seem to be making a heroic effort to break through. They should sell tickets. It might turn out to be an epic battle. I can hear the play-by-play call:
   [span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"]"Clouds are doing a very good job of covering the zone, as they set up in a Cumulo Nimbus formation. Very little movemen...WAIT...just above St. Paul's Hospital, there's a hole, the Sun's working on it...The clouds double back - it's gonna be close...is it....is it...NO!  a FANTASTIC save by the clouds, shutting the door at the last second!"[/span]
[span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"]COLOR COMMENTATOR: "You could see Jim, the Sun saw through the clouds Trap & they weren't gonna hold back & they went for it, but were robbed by a very good Clouds defence."[/span]
   Oh crap. Did I just write that?  I really need help. I know they say a mind is a terrible thing to waste, but sometimes, with some of the stuff that comes outta MY head, I tend to think the world might be better off withOUT mine.[/p][/td][/tr][/tbody][/table]  

trefilov

[p class="blogTimeStamp"]                                                                                   02/26/2007                                                                                                                           [/p]                                                                                                                                                                                            [table class="blog" border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" width="100%"][tbody][tr]                                                                                [td]                                                                                                                                                                         [p class="blogContent"]                                        Ok.
Gonna take a chance here & start writing before I've ven finished my coffee & hope something comes out.
   So here it is, Monday Feb. 26 already & I just happen to glance at my Daytimer & I see I've got my next appointment with my Shrink already. I remember leaving his office last time, which I SWEAR was only yesterday & not over a week ago, being armed with all kinds of Back-to-Work resources & I was to report back to him next time (Today, as it turns out) & tell him how it went. My question simply is this:
How the HELL did 7 days get by me so quickly???  I'm serious. I really feel like I only saw him like a couple of days ago & I had all kinds of time, but it's been a WEEK already? Now I remember. When I was in this position a couple of years ago (Just having been fired & waiting around for my R.O.E.)  I remember time just flying by then & it's gotten me thinking. One of the worst things Depression takes from you is time.  As time is linear, every second we lose is gone forever & can never be replaced.  Here, not only am I battling Depression, but S.A.D. as well. And when you are trying to save every penny you have, your motivation to go out is further reduced, for fear you might spend money.
    All these elements combined with the constantly crappy weather, create this vortex, who's only function is to suck time into it's void.  The way a Black Hole sucks all matter, including light itself right out of existence (Billions & billions of stars...he says in his best Carl Sagan voice)
    So then, here I am. in a scarce few hours, I have to report back to my Shrink that I haven't followed up on all those Employment resources he researched for me. "Why not?" I can hear him query. "You had all kinds of time. I don't understand..." & I'll look him squarely in the eye & say: "That's exactly the reason Doc. Because I had all kinds if time."[/p][/td][/tr][/tbody][/table]  

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