Yes Natasha.. I thought it worth pointing out that Purelife visited us in the lunch thread.. Like gopher said because she is worth it..
Side note
I might even have my new walker by this long weekend, so I won't have to do my annual vacation in a rented wheelchair, I sold the Quickie wheelchair a number of years ago, not because I didn't need it anymore, which I did. I sold it mostly because I hated it.
My back never did recover fully from that forklift accident, my legs have never worked right since that day, I am just happy, that I am still able to walk it does not really matter that it has always been a small distance. How ever as things get worse, it gets harder to keep denying I need any assistance. I have to admit the truth, I just can not do it all on my own anymore.
I guess it does not matter to any of you, how much saying that shames me. but it does shame me nonetheless. I just am no longer able to go on a extended vacation or long shopping trips on foot or by bike anymore. I am now forced to use wheels or a assisted walker once again..
The nerves in my back & legs are getting worse, =( nothing I can do about that. I am Still waiting to get in and seen the Spinal cord specialist, to find out how far the disks & nerves have degenerated.. I know they have some new surgical techniques, that used to be only experimental in the early parts of 2000 and back then it was not worth a 50/50 risk of the injury being made worse, or a risk of suffering permanent paralysis. I did not like those odds as DR Chan explained them to me at Royal Columbian Hospital (he was RCH neuro surgeon and back specialist at the time)
Since they did not have these techniques available 10 years ago when I was first injured, I am kind of hoping they can repair the nerve and disk damage today. It would be nice to stand straight to have feeling in my feet and legs other than constant burning pain..
I would almost be willing to kill or sell my soul, to once again have full muscular control of my legs & feet. To once more be able to stand for hours on my own 2 feet to not have to worry about muscle spasms or my legs locking up or worse the nerve pain that is causing my legs to collapse on me..
Let me try to explain the kind of pain I am in 24 hours a day 7 days a week with my lower body. This is all the time, not just most of the time and the more I do the worse this pain gets. Imagine a flame thrower being applied to your legs & the longer you stand or the further you walk the hotter those flames get.
Not only is there pain to deal with but some times there comes with it muscle spasms, ones that cause my legs to contract like a hand being repeatedly opened and closed, faster than a heart beats and nearly as quick as a eye blinks those spasms come and go.
The worst of those spasms can cause my legs to lock up or collapse on me. If I do not go to the washroom often, there can sometimes be loss of control on the bladder. It would be nice to know when my bladder is full again, so there is no embarrassing accidents. or having to go to a bathroom every hour, just to make sure there is no accidents. Maybe now they can fix the damaged nerves & disks that progressively get worse with every passing year.
I had the ocupational therapist over yesterday. While I was trying out the walker and a new tub transfer bench. If my insurer will pay for them I will have no more worries and hopefully no more slips and falls while trying to get in and out of the tub. I doubt any of you know how difficult it is to try and climb in and out of a tub when your nerves in your legs do not work well.
Here is some bonus info
I took 125 dollars out of my savings account yesterday because it was time for one of my semi annual trip to the casino. I go to the casino 2 some times 3 times a year. This time I got to do it on-line, instead of my trip to the Richmond one (which happens to be my favourite lower mainland casino because of its great buffet of course) or on one of my 3 day vacations to Kelowna, I like Kelowna but only go once every 3 to 4 years because it is a long rode trip. .
I have enough saved up for my vacation to the island, this long weekend & hopefully there is no rain to spoil it. I try to go every year. it is a great retreat with the church I love spending the time in the camp, Because of that peace and solitude not to mention the stunning simple beauty.
I love to get away from all the street noise, all the sirens and the often foul stench of the Down Town East Side. Well I am rambling once more...back on to my news of what happened in the play now on-line casino yesterday. Well to make a long story short, I won over 350 dollars. I withdrew 250 and walked away doubling my money, 125 dollars pure profit.
As always I tend to do 2 to 3 trips per year to the casino, but I tried it on-line. I admit it is fun but not near as nice or as fun as actually going to the casino's it also lacks the buffet the drinks 7 the lovely women, as far as I am concerned there is not near enough options in the on-line casino as there is at the real casinos. I did enjoy gambling on-line,because, well I had remained on-line & gambled the remaining 100 dollars for the next 17 hours..
I was up and down, I was gambling for hours. Which was my intention. penny slots, nickle slots, dime slots and 1 dollar slots. Lots of black jack and a few hands of poker ( jacks or better) and a ton of Sicbo where I won most of my profit. I lost nearly 1200 dollars in total yesterday and it all started with 125 dollars I walked away with 125 dollar profit.. not bad way to spend a great day.
Back to saving up another 125 dollars to throw away all over again. never gamble more than you plan to lose. if you profit pay off the amount you took in with you and only gamble the winnings till either you tire out or the money runs out which ever happens first. The money I did win will go to pay off the 125 dollars debt on my credit card and the remainder to pay for my 3 day vacation next month.
Sometimes I do get lucky in games of chance and in the game of life.. during my last hour on line I was playing 5 dollar hands.and losing. I could of walked away with that 100 but I would of not had near as much fun during my last hour on-line, I quit with a little profit still on my account for Fridays Lotto Max draw and Saturdays Lotto 649 draw.
Have Fun be safe and remember never gamble more than you can afford to throw in a garbage can or to give away to a charity. Play with in your limit. If you do not know what that limit is, do not play or gamble at all.
