You're not a retard. I just expressed myself poorly....but I'm too tired to sort it out.
I feel beat up. Bruises, cuts, scrapes, broken nails, aching muscles.
A 2X4 dropped from over my head, fell on my arm with two 3 1/2 inch screws in it, which punctured deep. It's black and blue and tender as all get out. I'm going to bed.