[font size="2" face="Arial"] [/font][font size="2" face="Arial"][font size="2" face="Arial"]my dear friends enemies and lovers a like :* kisses to you Jasmin and the rest of the crew girls love you all and thank you all so much for the prayers and the well wishes ur hope and prayers give me strength to keep hoping that maybe today they can fix or at least find out whats wrong with me and why i am laying here in the hospital bed, more often than not so sick i can barely stand or to groggy from drugs to even want to move.... i hope you all don't mind my making one big reply im not realy up to many little email replies or pm at the moment just coming home to do my laundry is taken much energy from me...
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[font size="2" face="Arial"][font size="2" face="Arial"]ive done my best to protect myself at all times while on line. and as for any and all visitors they r welcome during visiting hospital hours...[/font][font size="2" face="Arial"]when i got sick it was, one week i was well ...the next week i was so sick i thought i was dieing and in a way i am some sort of acute liver failure exact cause and reason unknown. Friday i was supposed to be biopsied for further answers but something went wrong...... [/font][/font]
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[font size="2" face="Arial"][font size="2" face="Arial"]my friends gordy gopher lise russ and so may others from so many other forums and places i thank you all very much for ur continued good words and thoughts how i wish i could spend hours of each day dallying away on the computers like i used to
id practical sell me left hand for a nice laptop with wireless and a good battery charger sighs.. but then id have to figure out where i can escape to that's close to the hospital for coffee and internet service perhaps the blenze cafe on burrard...is that the correct spelling ? doesn't seem right to me but im not gonna go look it up
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[font size="2" face="Arial"][font size="2" face="Arial"] problem is the energy lvls and the mixture of drugs im on some days i know my own name other days im in screaming agony with nose bleeds and migraines so bad im sorry to say i have not been very nice to staff or other patients in this place
god dang i don't get sick very often id hate for every one to hate me as much as some of these nurses must having to put up with my losing control... sheepishly the worst part was nearly fainting and having to be carried to the shower by 2 nurses and bathed from top to bottom... ordinarily that might have been a excellent conquest in this case it was more embarrassing and humiliating than i care to admit...
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[font size="2" face="Arial"][font size="2" face="Arial"] im so not good at trusting people and i have no choice but to trust complete strangers with some of my most intiment moments in life... piss in the bottle shit in the little hat; samples here, feed the vampires someties 3 or 4 times a day takes these drugs ... but im so frightentend and so angry not knowing the reasons why or if i will ever leave this place will i recover or go meet my creator. personelly im not ready to meed god on a first name basis yet.[/font][/font]
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[font size="2" face="Arial"][font size="2" face="Arial"] i have no little bastards out their of my DNA at least i have no children i know of, but before being born again i was a fairly ummmm adventurous young man so maybe i do... but no one has ever told me.... .... fear is here and very real... one can no longer denie the mortality of the frail and fragile nature of our human body that contains the spirit with in.... the orik u see is more of a facade than anything the man who created the trollish online egotistical narcissist called orik is very reali took my name form the dwarveven fighter orik form the books eragon in case no one ever knew how orik came to manifest his self on ds sv and datw... and a few other odd places... i also used a similar name in dnd gaming way back when u had a dm and used ur imiagination and dice [/font][/font]
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[font size="2" face="Arial"][font size="2" face="Arial"]some elements of me are in Orik or perhaps some of Orik is in me... as to my email i tend to use Orik underscore Basher At Shaw Dot Ca f[/font][/font][font size="2" face="Arial"][font size="2" face="Arial"]or most of my communicating... how u got this email is a bit of a surprise ....
i don't remember posting from it ever.. but lol with all the names and postings i have made on so many different forums over so many years who can truly say. if u give me your word you promise not to kill me while i am laying semi conscious i have no problem letting you in to visit me [/font][/font][img style="width: 37px; height: 37px;" src="/forums/richedit/smileys/Happy/12.gif[/img]
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[font size="2" face="Arial"][font size="2" face="Arial"] just make sure to call ahead and confirm with me to make sure i am in hospital and not released on a day pass to do laundry ( which i am currently doing right now..) laundry that is....
Friday's biopsy was canceled due to various reasons, mostly doctor and er staff mistakes (i believe) but i doubt they will ever confirm that part... or that im not scheduled for another biopsy which has been bumped 2 times all ready...
i have to be honest im not realy sure who some of the people i chat to are but pls call me even some one to chat to on the phone can bring alot of joy to a man who is stressed over tomorrow and not knowing if he will have many more of them....
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[font size="4" face="Arial"]gordy wrote[/font]
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[font size="2" face="Arial"]Gordy Gambino here. Heard you were sick mate...thats no good.[/font]
[font size="2" face="Arial"]Hope you make a speedy recovery and are back posting soon.[/font]
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[div][font size="2" face="Arial"]Hey Orik! I didn't know your name before You're good with your secret identity. Sorry to hear about your sickness. I will pray for your health and healing. Did you get sick all of a sudden, or was it gradual? I'd like to come see you, if that's ok.[/font]
[font size="4" face="Arial"]gopher wrote[/font]
[div]Another very early morning message of - I hope - cheer for you on your biopsy day.
I've checked around and found that news of you is on DATW and that at least Gordy Gambino has sen you an e-mail. Don't know about DV as I never go there.
Anyway, all the best - you'll either read this before or after the biopsy so a) I hope it goes well and b) I hope it went well. More important is c) i.e. I hope that whatever is discovered will lead to some a.s.a.p. effective treatment for you and that you'll be out very soon.
Keep smiling (and if you're not, then start smiling!)
All the best
Gopher
[font size="4" face="Arial"]Jasmin wrote[/font]
[table border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0"] [tbody] [tr] [td valign="top"]Hello hon, hope ur doing ok now and i hope ur biopsy was been ok too i really prayed for ur fast recovery god bless you keep strong and always put ur faith up above, love you, miss you much, hope u be home soon, take care hon be safe always. im always at ur side, love you...[/td][/tr][/tbody][/table][/div][/div]