=( true hangs head shamefully.
I hate to admit it but it is true. It was namely in my late teens &in to my early 20's I would get so plastered, I could not remember my own way home, let alone what happened the night before. I awoke more than once, in a police drunk tank, with no idea of what I did the night before, or how I got there.. Thankfully there was no criminal charges, so it seems I did not break any serious laws or at least I did not break any laws they could prove and pin on me.
Thankfully it was only a few times in my life that I let myself get to that condition.. but it did get so bad At one point of time in the early 90's, I am not exactly sure when it was 91 or maybe it was 92. I went on bender with a bottle of vodka, Finlandia premium vodka.. I started drinking some time in January and did not sober up till some time in August..
I went in to detox shortly after that and I went sober for 10 years before I let myself have another beer. I wanted to make sure I had it under control and I am thankful I got it under control... I am now sober nearly 2 years but that is a bit beyond my choice..
I miss going out for an occasional pint.. But since my liver is shot, there will never be another beer for me. The medications I am on also react badly to alcohol, the side effects can be lethal. So that alone is another very good reason to remain sober.. The other reason is my liver is shot, it does not process chemicals well anymore, let alone scrub alcohol out of the blood stream. The damage a pint of beer could do to my liver and kidneys is not fathomable..
but if some one ever wanted to suicide it would be as simple as drinking a 1 ounce shot glass of Isopropanol alcohol and taking 4 tablets of the medications I am prescribed with a glass of Grapefruit juice to wash it all down.. this lethal cocktail will cause some one to slip in to euphoric state of drowsiness, they would blissfully enter in to no mans land as the respiratory system depressed there blood pressure would drop.
Shortly after taking the cocktail in a euphoric dreamland state they would stop breathing, from the depressed respiratory system, their body will go into a state of oxygen deprivation, starved for oxygen the heart rate would go wild, it would start what is called a cardiac arrhythmia... inside of 2 minutes of a persons stopping breathing there heaart would stop beating. there is always a chance with the suppressed cardiovascular system the heart would stop beating first..
Either way you look at thats it, lights-out, game over, do not pass go & do not collect 200 dollars..
As much as I miss going for a pint.. I am not suicidal and going drinking would be that same thing as committing suicide... The medications I take, can be a lethal cocktail when mixed with alcohol, so I can not drink.. I also have to be vigilant on just how much grapefruit or fresh citrus I ingest, because this fruit or it's juice can cause the body to absorb a accidental overdose of the time released capsules and by taking in to much of certain medications, I would die...
Sure I would die high, quite possibly higher than a kite and I may not even be aware that I am dieing. But anyway you look at it I would still be dead. Sure some folks think that's a good thing but after being so close to deaths door I came to the conclusion I want to live... . & as much as I want to meet God... I just am not ready to meet The God of the universe anytime soon..
The person below me did not read all of what I wrote they only skimmed through it..
