Orik Basher was addmitted to hospital with acute liver failure

[Orik]

 It was a pleasure and a honor to meet you also Van_Guy Thank you for the well wishes and good thoughts...  

[Orik]

merry Christmas and bah humbug
 
 I am watching a Christmas carol for the 4rth time this year... so many different versions..
 
 October 31 2008 I was rushed via ambulance from the medical clinic where i had gone to see a doctor and had collapsed just after entering the front doors... for what i thought was a very bad case of the flu, unbeknown to me i was in a critical life and death state with acute liver failure..
 
  i had lain at home pumping my body full of all the worst things a person can for liver failure, thinking i had just a bad flu... damn... hot toddy's to warm the bones. Advil cold and sinus for the head ache and general pain malaise.. for my fever i took acetaminophen... and my blood pressure medication.. doing untold amounts of damage to a liver already fighting to stay working
 
 i was in hospital in a near unconscious state running a high fever and a blood pressure level that was plummeting, bottoming out... not in a clear state of mind.  I spent 27 days in the hospital most of the time unconscious cause of medication or complications from my liver...
 
 at times i was confused not even knowing my own name or where i was times barely able to eat and a couple of times i had to even have help to bath or even go to a bathroom... i nearly died a few times. during all this time the hospital had made arrangements for a spiritual adviser councilor [a reverend actually and a woman at that] came as a big surprise for me i am so used to men being in that particular roll that finding a woman revrand just blew my mind...
 
 mind u it could of been the morphine that drug makes things pretty trippy...  being baptized into what i think is a protestant of the united church of Canada, all i can say is it's nice to see a woman taking on the role of a Shepard... leader of the flock if you will..they also offerd em the services of a head shrinker to talk to me about my feelings and about my emotions and shit... to help me deal with my anger and stress about dieing
 
 lol now thats a joke right ? no one is ever happy to be told they r dieing... or that they r gonna die... that they  meaning dozens of spetgwpdt blood patholigists etcetra....don't know why ur sick they dont know what has made u sick or if they can fix u up or not...the doctors not able to do shit is what botherd me the most we spend so damned much money in health care and i just found it enraging to me that they couldnt tell me what was wrong with me... well needless to say i refused the head shrinker but I happily accepted the services of the priest... (they do try to make u comfortable when ur dieing)
 
  they dont offer laundry service or free tv. but u can rent a 8 inch tv at 60 dollars per fuc_ing week god damn thieving cunts... no available lounge for rec activities. mind i was to sick to make use of those kinds of things but it would of been nice to bloody well have them though wouldn't it... the patient lounge had been turned in to a make shift patient room for a contagious patient with mrsa or something cause of extreem understaffing and massive over crowding...
 
 while very sick and dieing so while i was so very close to death i fell back on my faith  of the christian church instilled in me since childhood, this was to bring comfort to my heart and soul while i thought (and more than a few doctors and nurses also thought)  i would not live to see the morrow...  
 
 finding Jesus once more and coming home to the christian faith. spending hours in prayer and meditation not knowing if i would live or die...[font color="#4169e1" size="4" face="Arial Black"] coming home alive on Nov 26 th 2008 the day after i had written both of the following bits of [a href="vny!://www.discovervancouver.com/forum/people-God-t221362.html"]pro's over on dv ..[/a]. [/font][font size="5" face="Arial Black"]
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 Nov 25 2007, 11:53 AM
 
 i believe in god
 i just don't believe in the church or mans image of god...
 god is god . as we are, we are meaningless to god.
 
 god is not compassionate
 god is forever
 therefor god is insane.
 simply put
 god was before the begging of time
 god exists out side of time
 god knows all.
 therefore god has gone mad.
 
 hence the reason we are slowly going mad.
 we are becoming more god like with every passing day...
 i foresee a time we will live forever... through science and will have no need of a god at all.
 
 pretty scary to think we will all be mad by then
 if we r not mad already
 
 Nov 25 2007, 11:58 PM
   
 what u call lucky
 
  i call suffering through times of stress,
  sorrow a experience of things i can do without...
 having been through many of said times u mention.
 
 calling on god is not like ordering a pizza.
 god does not deliver.
 
 however i do wish it was that simple
 
 looks around
 looks at wrist watch.
 ahem god
 I'm still waiting
 looks at wrist watch.
 
 the only faith i have left is in myself
 i work hard to put food on my table
 you can not rely on anyone or anything.
 somethings just don't last
 one day i wont even be able to rely on me
 then i am seriously screwed.
 
 no what u call god and faith
 it is just a shadow
 in a dark miserable life.
 pulls cord driver and says driver let me off please. the next stop is mine
 
 Destination
 nowhere
 
 [font size="5" face="Arial Black"]coincidence or a divine message from God ?[/font]

[Bill]

 ^ Like ripping off "punk" music from Quincy episodes for your poems, eh?  

[Orik]

  Bill you wrote so you Like ripping off "punk" music from Quincy episodes for your poems, eh?  

i say
Merry Christmas Bill.

Would you care to provide some links to this so called punk music and off the tv show Quincey no less, LOL... so what about it Bill ? post some links please...

oh you can't provide any links... well that's what i thought... so stfu Bill . i got better things to do than spend time arguing with DV trolls  and ones to lazy to even log in or register a account on DS, no less. trolls, like you who have no where to Troll, with DV forums being offline..

as far as i know, all my poetic pros / songs / whatever u want to call it... my works / poetic words or rhythmic styled pros or whatever you want to call the type of writing i do... all are original and written out long hand and some times typed on a pc to a web sites by me... i give credit where credit is due if i am plagiarizing some one elses words and shit...

i got enough garbage rolling around in my mind for making up my own shit. i have no need to steal or copy some others persons stuff.. now as as for inspiration when it hits me it hits me so i start to write. I am unaware of any influence from any external sources, while i am writting. I do not disregaurd the potential for it to show up in my works though. So I can not deny that some of what i write is influenced potentially in one way or another by audio, visual or some other form of stimuli when they were / are written...


 

[Russ]

Merry Christmas Orik!

  And an Upcoming Happy New YEars..

[Orik]

 hi Russ and Starfish  i hope you had a merry christmas a happy boxing day and may i wish you a happy new year also...
 

[Orik]

 Just a little update a day of my life and the obstacles i am going through

okay i went to lifelabs... they being the vampires who take my blood every Monday... can we say Ouch!... it took them 7 different needles & 8 different sticks to get 2 little vials of blood for my liver enzyme tests, my factor 8 tests on clotting levels, my  billy Rubin levels my potassium lvls if my pottasium levels drop to low i can die from heart failure. just another problem i face with my fubared liver

amongst other things the one girl has 11 years experience and she still couldn't hit the broadside of a barn she stuck me 3 times... damn! ouch ! ouch! and a few other swear words... i would have loved to have used, but cause they are ladys i kept my swearing down to a minimum of 3 mumbled sons of a toad... a bugger me that hurts and  5 or so damnnnnn's ...

on another side note

i went to welfare to asked for some assistance so i can buy some food while waiting on my ei check to come through. providing they (EI/IE or whatever the hell u call those slow bastards) ever decide to issue me a payment.. welfare told me to use my credit cards or go to the food bank...

can you freaking believe the nonexistence of help available these days Shit! it is no wonder street people are so f*cked.. shit!... just cause i have good credit and don't owe my bank any money... is that any reason to be told to fuc_ off and use credit to live ? what the fu_k have i been paying EI premiums and TAXES all these god damned years for... if i am going to be left high and freaking dry here...
 
  but if i use my credit cards then i go in to debt borrowing and spending money i don't have right ? and isnt that what got so many companies in trouble in the first place using my tax dollars and government assistance to bail them out ?
 
 ok i have no problem going to the food bank... so i ask the social worker can you tell me when the food bank is what days it is open and how i can get their.... i had to ask cause i have never been their before... social services worker said to me look it up in a phone book ... now get out of my office... me i was like WTF !!!!
 
 i left the office stunned and in complete disbieliefe that this is how they treat a none drug addicted person, a non alchoholic a man, a person free of  serious mental health issues... i do have physicl health issues.. i do have acute liver failure and a liver thats fried...  etcetra... so do i have to be completely fubar... before the goverment will assist me in any way shape or form? bloody hell! i am running in circles and just want to scream...
 
ei says they will try to have a answer for me by jan 12 th  sighs i know they will approve my damn claim but it is taking forever after i pay the rent tomorrow i will officially have less than 3 dollars in my bank account, for the first time in nearly 15 years... sighs.. so much for government services and help for the john q citizen... shit their is no help for john q citizen.... is it no wonder so many people end up on the streets as addicts or dead in some back lane ... cause when you turn and ask for some help nothing  gets done... another week of this i will be selling my tv and electronics to eat...

food left in my house
1 garden salad. (that is supper for tonight)
2 muffins 1 chocolate 1 apple  the chocolate muffin is dessert after my salad
2 cans of Campbell's chunky soup...
2 kilos of mixed frozen vegetables
4 1 litre pouches of chicken cup a soups
4 1 litre pouches of onion soup.
6 cans of diced tomatoes
2 cans of corn.
1/2 a lb of garlic cloves
1 can of grape juice concentrate
1 can orange juice concentrate

^ this is the food i have to last me untill Januaury 12 th
possibly a shorter period of time or possibly longer..
things at EI are said to be seriously back logged...

sighs
thank you
for listening to me complain...
   

[Orik]

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just got off the phone cause EI did not get my ROE record foemployment untill december 22nd... i might not actually get a decision for 21 more days. aperantly they dont make deciosions or payments...


arghhhhhhhhhhhh


walks off to silently weep in frustration now that i am done screaming

is it any wonder people go mad when the entire sytem of checks and balances is wieghted againsts actually assisting any one get anywhere in life but is designed to make them jump in front of a truck instead...

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[van_guy]

[font style="font-family: Arial Narrow;" size="3"]walks off to silently weep in frustration now that i am done screaming

is it any wonder people go mad when the entire sytem of checks and balances is wieghted againsts actually assisting any one get anywhere in life but is designed to make them jump in front of a truck instead...
 
 Orik,
 
 It's been a whle since I've had to apply for EI.  But as I recall I had nerly the exact same thing happen to me 15 years ago.
 
 Bastiges look for any excuse to delay and delay and delay and ....  I personally thought that they were trying to starve you to death before the cheques came through - that way nobody would be able to cash them - thereby saving the EI fund a few hundred measley bucks and you - your life and / or dignity - probably a pretty good deal for the governemnt.  Good luck with the ruthless bastards.

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[Orik]

 thanks van_guy they are a bunch of ruthless bastards and they fight dirty...

 I got a loan from my bank credit line. it is only 1000.00 but it is less expensive to use and the interest rate, is much lower than the credit card. i think it is prime plus 1 on pay back you can not beat that, not when my credit card is 19.99 percent interest... blah f*ck the credit card... the credit line is much much cheaper to use...so it works out much better

 i like it when a plan comes together when i do get a checque from ei how far do they go back as far as my first day of work missed being oct 25th or is it the day i was admitted to hospital oct 31 or is it day i applied for ei Nov 26 th

i had the care worker help me apply while i was still in the hospital... im gona guess nov 24 rth would be the start.. and if i get the full amount at 435 a week assuming i don't get till Jan 12 th  that would be 435 x 8 weeks or aproximatly 3480 dollars... that is only assuming ei pays me the full weekly maximum amount of 435..

i don't know what they will calculate my rate at... i know it is my 14 best weeks divided by something then multiplied by 55 percent to give me my base rate per week..

but even 435 per week is less than i earn while working... hell if i had worked full time my check for Dec including tax and the ot, i would of worked. Nov Dec and Jan are my best months for ot and earning huge money.. well my November earnings would of been including taxes roughly 2600 for the month.

December including tax & holiday pay, plus ot would of been close to 4000  and Jan would of been about average at aproximatly 2200 to 2400 for the month... i miss my job ... honestly though i don't miss my job that much, but i do miss the money that steady pay check..
 

[Orik]

 as of yet I still have no check from EI and still no conclusion / resolution for approval of employment insurance cheques

i pay in to ei for over 10 plus years from this one employer. So now that i am ill and unable to work or to collect wcb.. i need to collect Ei.

Ei is not here for me. this is such bull shit. it makes me so mad i want to spit... witch if i could, i would spit in the face or the f*cking asshats incharge of this system, which seems more apt / designed to oppress and crush workers in dire need of asistence cause it sure as hell is not designed to help any one...


 my rent is paid untill February first now... But i ended up putting myself in to debt to do so... I borrowed money from my line of credit, which i will have to pay back at 5 percent interest..which beats the credit card rate of 19 percent...

5 % interest on a 1000 dollar loan over 6 months is how much interest ?
and a 1000 dollar loan @ 19 % interest for 6 months is how much ?  

well it sure is better to borrow on a credit line than to have to borrow on a credit card that is for sure... i just hate that i had to go into debt to live, i spent years getting out of debt, now i have to go back into it... sighs... sometimes i get so depressed i just wish to cry...

the good news I am no longer hungry my fridge and freezer are full. the cupboards are still pretty much empty, so when i see some good deals at army&navy i will stock up on the soups, stews, noodles and other dried and or canned goods...

 i pray when i get really sad and deppressed but even that doesn't do much to cheer up my soul lately.. i miss my job... i never realized just how much i enjoyed my work nor did i realize just how much my very boring job completed me, until, i could no longer work... sighs...

so until my health improves my doctor wont sign the release forms for my union and my employer which give me permission to return to work letting me work. and untill he signs the work release my union and my employer will not let me work not even a desk job.... sighs...

 for now i can only pray i get EI to settle and decide in my favor soon otherwise i am screwed... i can not keep going to the bank and borrowing money i do not have... just to live and supply my day to day needs ...

thats why we have a food bank and a welfare system. but what do oyu do when even the welfare system tells you to live on your credit cards...

 i am also still awaiting on my disability pension, i also hope that is to come through soon... but who knew it would be so small it is only 610 dollars a month for  my disability pension. shit my rent alone is 610 dollars a month..what would i do for food and bill money if i can not work...

sighs

the headache i have is huge and i can not take a asprin or tylenol to get rid of it. cause they are drugs that can damage the liver. and seeing that mine is fubar now as it is.. my enjoyment in life i would give 1/2 a star out of 5

forgive me
im going back to bed so no one can see me this deppressed and sad...


 

[van_guy]

Orik,

Sorry to hear the UI guys still have your balls in a vice.

They do give up after a while.

So keep fighting the good fight.

Eventually they will crack.

All the best to you.

Dan
 

[Orik]

 Thanks Van_Guy i hope they give in soon. cause i am near ready to crack. start cracking some skulls and windows down at the main office that is grrrrrr
 

[Orik]

 EI finally approved the release of financial help. however begrudgingly they have covered me for the past 6 weeks. since November 2nd  
first week 216 dollars ... which is not even 1/2 what i used to make...

sighs.. what a crock of shit... the other 5 cheques are 310 per week about 50 percent of what i used to earn, when i was working. so i now have a monthly income of 1240 dollars before taxes...

so of that 1240 dollars

how much should i put aside for my taxes ? can any one tell me.

before when i was earning a paycheck at 2500 a month i paid a grand total of 810 a month to federal, provincial taxes a portion to ei  & 2.5 % to the union for union dues and extended medical.each month i lived on approximately 1700 - 2100 a month after taxes ( depending on over time)

now i live on half of that and have to pay my own taxes... sighs... in 9 weeks i then go to my union hat in hand and beg for their help once my sickness benifits with EI run out. hopefully My disability claim will have been approved by this time...

i know how to apply fora disability pension.. but how do i apply as disabled for my tax return because this is a prolongend illness and will be with me many months from now untill i recover or die...

the best i can hope for is a general recovery that will let me to return to my job as i knew it.

worst case scenario i never get to return to my job...so what would i do then my life was my job i actually enjoyed my work. sure i loved to complain about it, but who doesn't ? i also loved going to work every morning except when it's raining or snowing hehehe but who doesnt hate that weather... especialy those of us who work out side 9 to 14 hrs a day..

 i have limited job skills from else where.. seeing that there is not much call for quality controll in  the herring or salmon fisheries anymore. And as a security guard who can not physicaly restrain someone, cause they can't see. cause of sudden on set of a miagrain or because they cant stand cause they are to busy throwing up that day...

sighs or any one of a half dozen other mitigating health issues in my life.. I cut my self shaving this morning. it took over 30 minutes for the cut to stop bleeding and this was using ice and compression the cut was a very small nick something thta used to heal and stop bleeding in under 2 minute when i was at 100 percent good health.. since i got sick i do not clot so well. something to do with that damned liver again.

forget about taking a tylenol or asprin for a headache or general aches and pains.. just cant do it... or cold and flu medications. antibiodics.. pretty much any drug i take has to be done cautiously and under care of a pysician... cause most medications are processed through the liver...

well thats all i got to say for now.. will keep you all updated about my health and other situations.. sighs and what the hell gives with all these god damned zits  i never even had this many as a freaking teenager.. christ i shower daily i wash my face 2 times a day and yet my skin is still oily...

 my eyes are still yellow. my skin is no longer so yellow but definetly off clolour still... grumbles and complaints and the pain from the liver still makes sleeping difficult sometimes... from insomnia to fatigue i either sleep to much or not at all...

bonus is i no longer smoke... i have saved almost 600 dollars by not smoking for the past 2.5 months.

[Michel]