Face buried in the pillow
tears stream slowly off the chin
one by one they fall
misery, depression, sadness on end.
grief just wont let me be
I fall, I fail, I flail, trying to keep my head
I feel often, I would be better off dead.
Yet the fear of the grave of a paupers funeral leaves me be
I draw a breath one two three
someone is knocking at the door
ignored and unanswered
I leave it alone as always
Last week It was some crack head
offering me money to let him in
f*ck off go away my answer to him
sighs gotta love my hood
wandering down this filthy hallway
vomit stains on the walls
cigarette burns on the floor
The smell of piss in the stairs
the ammonia in the hall
Damn look at that some guy
wrote with his shit
all over the elevator walls.
gotta love this ghetto right
some hooker shooting up outside my door
sighs. yeah gotta love the ghetto right out side my door.
just last week my house was allover the news
some poor woman beaten almost to death
some guy from the second floor
accused and arrested for this heinous crime
that is if he really is guilty
and the cops aren't just making a easy case
the guys a little dim, a bit slow
if you know what I mean.
yeah I love this ghetto
for this they charge me 690 a month
gotta love my full 420 square feet
1 bedroom one bathroom one kitchen
oh yes don't forget that concrete balcony
3 feet wide by 4 feet long
sighs for this I work 9 hrs a day
and pay my taxes and i wonder Olympics yeah right
what a waste what is it 400 million spent on a highway
but new government job club's not one do I see
education job training social housing f*ck me
where is it? yeah way to go
yeah I love my country
just not today
anyone else just want to step out and away
to enter a monks cloister
for a month maybe three
perhaps all eternity
I gotta get away, I gotta escape
sighs if only I could actually afford the price
to escape to leave to get away
for a day or even three
I need to escape this insanity
it is ever so tempting to place pepper on my shoulder
harness in hand and just walk away leave it all behind
anyone want a computer and a tv that has great sound
the picture just no longer works.
I am tired
I am depressed
I hate me today
I hate my hood even more
today I saw a girl not yet 16
smoking crack and pulling dates
what a great ghetto
gotta love this town
Vancouver's East-side
what a place
I just want to f*cking scream.
shit what a mess
peace to all I've said my bit
love em or hate em they are people too.
poor things to think I used to use too.
Aug. will be 14 years crack cocaine free
no, no cake for me
I don't celebrate that way.
I only need to look around
to remind me why I stay clean
every day, same after same
Man I need a raise a buck and a quarter
will just cover the notice I got
my rent is going up again
sighs gotta love the ghetto
gotta love the hood
my sweet, disgusting, filthy
shitty, stinky, hole
my home sweet home.
Anyone else want to go sailing
Ah, I can see it now
the wide open sea before me
the cesspool of Vancouver far behind
I think I would be tempted
to just keep going, to never look back
no more shitty, just to keep going
Till I reached some far foreign shore
Alas I lack the means
No boat, No passport, No money to spare.
sighs but I can still have my day dreams.
For now those are still free.
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