Guess what I just heard.
I heard that you must be logged in to do that!
Incredible, huh? I know, I know. I'm still catching my breath.
So, anyway - I spent a good day at the club yesterday & was reunited with Gladys, whom was looking much better. Especially in her new perm. She is such a wonderful person. I remember when I first met her, I just wanted to f*ck & toss her, but now that I have gotten to know her so well. I daresay that's the LAST thing I would ever do to her. I love her. Not as a girlfriend, but for the wonderful, kind herarted GOOD person that she is. She has had such a rough life, & yet somehow through it all, she still has this wonderful, big heart & wants to help people. She carries no bitterness - maybe I'm putting her up on a pedistal & maybe, in some way that's some kind of reflection on me. All I know is, I get a genuine sense of well being when I'm around her.
Speaking of being clingy (sort-of) I was accuses of being just that by Pam yesterday. In fact, she said a few things that actually hurt me. I sure hope it was in the name of therapy & not out of some need to retalliate for the prank I pulled on her. In any case, some of what she told me yesterday really hit home & she is right at least about my becomming dependant on people. Yes, I AM a lonely person & perhaps that lonliness manifests itself in my becomming clingy, but in Pam's case, it's because she has been such a wonderful Psychologist for me, & despite her outlining at the start, that I was to be her study case for her Practicum, I still feel I have gotten more out of talkinh with her, than I have gotten from all my visits with various Shrinks & Doctors in the past 20 YEARS. It really will be hard to see her go when she leaves next week, but here again - I need to be strong & independant & let go of the Apron Strings, like I am learning to do with my folks. Perhaps thats part of the basis of my dependancy with her. Subconciously, I may not be entirely willing, or ready to cut off my parents, so I may be seeing Pam as an alternate source of Security & comfort. Holy shit! Talk about insight! That may JUST be it, you know? Wow. DAMN - this writing thing can be SO therapeutic sometimes. So now, I have a new light in which to examine my attachment to Pat. Just what I need. More thinking.
Gladys treated me to dinner at this wonderful & intimate Italian resturaunt on Davie last night. It was wonderful sitting with her there. The food was good, but I was just interested in spending time with her & she even thanked me for accompanying her. If only she knew how much I enjoy her company.
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Re: Something(s) to think about
I think it is a lot of words to say nothing. I am also thinking your "shrink" was unavailable.
^^^ As Shakespeare would say ......... 'Much ado about nothing'
Keep up the therapy. Remember alcohol is the cause and the answers to all of lifes problems.
This thread makes my penis soft.
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