for those of you who do not know i Orik Basher real name being David was admitted to saint pauls hospital october 31st with acute liver failure i show symptons of severe hepetitus as of yet it is not diagnosed, meaning the cause of my liver failure is not yet deffined or remains unknown. i know i may live or die as god see fit, best case scenario my liver heals it self i go home and continue to live in the worst case my liver goes fully tits up and i die or maybe get very lucky and manage to match a liver on a transplant list but odd r against this one hell if it wasnt for bad luck id have none at all :D right :PPPP
please pray for me and gods full grace and healing, i still have more blogging to do yet. god willing .. again this is not a joke [A href="mailto:
[email protected]"]Orik
[email protected][/A] salamat thank you for understanding my fellow netizens pls forward this information to discvoer vancouver and discover all the world i would do so myself but i am far to tired and far to sick, thank god for medical science and pain killers and anti naseua drugs. only problem is they make me slow and stupid thinking so ive forgotten my own passowrd :(
i have been admitted to Saint Pauls Hospital Provedence wing 7A room 7008 Bed 2 Visiting hours are 8 Am Untill 8 Pm for those of you who want to visit me you will need to call ahed to me and make arangments to get on to the visitors log for approved visiotrs... the nuimber you can call and the name u as for is David 604 684 6532 extension 67754[/DIV]
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Sorry to hear, Orik.
Please keep us updated with your condition.
Yes, get well soon Orik.
Thanks guys for the well wishes i need all those i can get and all the prayer i can get also :( i am so sick and so yellow i am almost green now just like kermit the frog wahhhhhh i would log in and post but it seems my user name Orik no longer exsists what the hell happend tehborken ? did i not use my name for posting often enough even my email does not exists :(
grrrrr
ur spam bot stopper real danged funny too ... bedpan grrr grabs baseball bat and beats idiotic spam bot stopper and thanks nurse for more diladed....
All the best wishes Orik. Life can be fun, can't it?
Anyhow, the Morphine is on the house, so you may as well get a good buzz while you're there ;)
Just glad to have you in touch with us. Keep it up - we'll look forward to your recovery and eventual 'proper' return.
Wishing you speedy recovery Orik... get well soon. :)
Speedy recovery, David. Keep the faith. (http://discoverseattle.net/forums/richedit/smileys/Happy/20.gif)
Hey bud.. all the best and hope you get better soon!
thanks im dothe best i can god willing i will go home in a taxi cab and not out in a pine box. still no answeres on a cure biopsy will be this week please keep up the prayers
[font size="2" face="Arial"] [/font][font size="2" face="Arial"][font size="2" face="Arial"]my dear friends enemies and lovers a like :* kisses to you Jasmin and the rest of the crew girls love you all and thank you all so much for the prayers and the well wishes ur hope and prayers give me strength to keep hoping that maybe today they can fix or at least find out whats wrong with me and why i am laying here in the hospital bed, more often than not so sick i can barely stand or to groggy from drugs to even want to move.... i hope you all don't mind my making one big reply im not realy up to many little email replies or pm at the moment just coming home to do my laundry is taken much energy from me...
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[font size="2" face="Arial"][font size="2" face="Arial"]ive done my best to protect myself at all times while on line. and as for any and all visitors they r welcome during visiting hospital hours...[/font][font size="2" face="Arial"]when i got sick it was, one week i was well ...the next week i was so sick i thought i was dieing and in a way i am some sort of acute liver failure exact cause and reason unknown. Friday i was supposed to be biopsied for further answers but something went wrong...... [/font][/font]
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[font size="2" face="Arial"][font size="2" face="Arial"]my friends gordy gopher lise russ and so may others from so many other forums and places i thank you all very much for ur continued good words and thoughts how i wish i could spend hours of each day dallying away on the computers like i used to
id practical sell me left hand for a nice laptop with wireless and a good battery charger sighs.. but then id have to figure out where i can escape to that's close to the hospital for coffee and internet service perhaps the blenze cafe on burrard...is that the correct spelling ? doesn't seem right to me but im not gonna go look it up
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[font size="2" face="Arial"][font size="2" face="Arial"] problem is the energy lvls and the mixture of drugs im on some days i know my own name other days im in screaming agony with nose bleeds and migraines so bad im sorry to say i have not been very nice to staff or other patients in this place :( god dang i don't get sick very often id hate for every one to hate me as much as some of these nurses must having to put up with my losing control... sheepishly the worst part was nearly fainting and having to be carried to the shower by 2 nurses and bathed from top to bottom... ordinarily that might have been a excellent conquest in this case it was more embarrassing and humiliating than i care to admit...
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[font size="2" face="Arial"][font size="2" face="Arial"] im so not good at trusting people and i have no choice but to trust complete strangers with some of my most intiment moments in life... piss in the bottle shit in the little hat; samples here, feed the vampires someties 3 or 4 times a day takes these drugs ... but im so frightentend and so angry not knowing the reasons why or if i will ever leave this place will i recover or go meet my creator. personelly im not ready to meed god on a first name basis yet.[/font][/font]
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[font size="2" face="Arial"][font size="2" face="Arial"] i have no little bastards out their of my DNA at least i have no children i know of, but before being born again i was a fairly ummmm adventurous young man so maybe i do... but no one has ever told me.... .... fear is here and very real... one can no longer denie the mortality of the frail and fragile nature of our human body that contains the spirit with in.... the orik u see is more of a facade than anything the man who created the trollish online egotistical narcissist called orik is very reali took my name form the dwarveven fighter orik form the books eragon in case no one ever knew how orik came to manifest his self on ds sv and datw... and a few other odd places... i also used a similar name in dnd gaming way back when u had a dm and used ur imiagination and dice [/font][/font](//forums/richedit/smileys/9.gif)
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[font size="2" face="Arial"][font size="2" face="Arial"]some elements of me are in Orik or perhaps some of Orik is in me... as to my email i tend to use Orik underscore Basher At Shaw Dot Ca f[/font][/font][font size="2" face="Arial"][font size="2" face="Arial"]or most of my communicating... how u got this email is a bit of a surprise ....
i don't remember posting from it ever.. but lol with all the names and postings i have made on so many different forums over so many years who can truly say. if u give me your word you promise not to kill me while i am laying semi conscious i have no problem letting you in to visit me [/font][/font][img style="width: 37px; height: 37px;" src="/forums/richedit/smileys/Happy/12.gif[/img]
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[font size="2" face="Arial"][font size="2" face="Arial"] just make sure to call ahead and confirm with me to make sure i am in hospital and not released on a day pass to do laundry ( which i am currently doing right now..) laundry that is....
Friday's biopsy was canceled due to various reasons, mostly doctor and er staff mistakes (i believe) but i doubt they will ever confirm that part... or that im not scheduled for another biopsy which has been bumped 2 times all ready...
i have to be honest im not realy sure who some of the people i chat to are but pls call me even some one to chat to on the phone can bring alot of joy to a man who is stressed over tomorrow and not knowing if he will have many more of them....
the doctors have more questions for me, than they have answers and its the not knowing what will happen that scares me more than being told yes you will die... i just hate being told sorry sir we just don't know... [/font][/font]
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[font size="2" face="Arial"]Gordy Gambino here. Heard you were sick mate...thats no good.[/font]
[font size="2" face="Arial"]Hope you make a speedy recovery and are back posting soon.[/font]
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[div][font size="2" face="Arial"]Hey Orik! I didn't know your name before You're good with your secret identity. Sorry to hear about your sickness. I will pray for your health and healing. Did you get sick all of a sudden, or was it gradual? I'd like to come see you, if that's ok.[/font]
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[div]Another very early morning message of - I hope - cheer for you on your biopsy day.
I've checked around and found that news of you is on DATW and that at least Gordy Gambino has sen you an e-mail. Don't know about DV as I never go there.
Anyway, all the best - you'll either read this before or after the biopsy so a) I hope it goes well and b) I hope it went well. More important is c) i.e. I hope that whatever is discovered will lead to some a.s.a.p. effective treatment for you and that you'll be out very soon.
Keep smiling (and if you're not, then start smiling!)
All the best
Gopher
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[table border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0"] [tbody] [tr] [td valign="top"]Hello hon, hope ur doing ok now and i hope ur biopsy was been ok too i really prayed for ur fast recovery god bless you keep strong and always put ur faith up above, love you, miss you much, hope u be home soon, take care hon be safe always. im always at ur side, love you...[/td][/tr][/tbody][/table][/div][/div]
Biopsy went smothly... waiting on final results... some good news might be they can send me home and run me as a out patient... keeps fingers crossed being in my own house would be so much more messy but is my cesspool... but will need to hire maids and services to to help a frog who is little strenght... sighs... wahhhhhh... love they nurse asnd doctor god save the queen and hey u prisoner give me back my free tv darn nab it
:grrrrrr i want my free tv and laundry times done head nurse could shoulder by any min wil steal time to blog when i can love u all come visit more... hey silent hill nurse ur lokking amazing and sexier than ever way to go my pyrmid head im very selosos bahahahahahahahah :love u all hate the hospital hell.
miss u too
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[style][/style][font size="2" face="Arial"]Dear gopher
ive had a few visitors over the time i was in hospital. i was discharged to a out patient basis as of 1 pm today...i have to go back 2 times per week and do monitoring of my blood and liver check ups now. they released me today, as for how many visitors i've had gopher
i had 6 or 7 visitors i know well over the past 26 days i was in hospital and about 5 i do not know to well or could not recognize right away, now that i am at home i feel much better and can comfortably reply to my emails via my many various or should i say nefarious ways. so no not many visitors
none were as cute as silent hill nurse hugs and kisses girl pls give my love to mr. pyramid head and my thanks for his granting u permission to visit little old wicked me and pls let him know i am so very seloso
hehe ur much bigger and better looking since we first met young lady... come on laugh.... its a great day to be alive and free from that hell called a hospital
the good guys win one for a chance.. but it means home cleaning, home cooking and bleah house cleaning. i hate laundry and house cleaning but maid services r to much money and with my now being on disability for the foreseeable future
im guessing the next 30 weeks or so before i can return to my normal work [/font](//forums/richedit/smileys/Sad/8.gif) [font size="2" face="Arial"]sighs, so what do you do when ur used to working everyday and suddenly u can't work
do i join facebook and ask for help like some of the other people i see or do i let some one else take up my championship cause or do i tough it out and go into debt trying to pay bills on a apartment that still has to many damn bugs [/font](//forums/richedit/smileys/Angry/1.gif) [font size="2" face="Arial"]
[/font][div style="text-align: left;"] [/div] [div style="text-align: left;"] [/div][font size="2" face="Arial"]catch u on the flip side gopher you also shn
[/font][font size="2" face="Arial"] I will probably be posting the news of my hospital release later on today depending on my strength and how i feel and right now i need some nap [/font][font size="2" face="Arial"]time sighs, [/font][font size="2" face="Arial"]even when i am not in the hospital i spend way to much time sleeping[/font][div style="text-align: left;"] [/div] [div style="text-align: left;"] [/div][font size="2" face="Arial"]signed
[/font][div style="text-align: left;"] [/div][font size="2" face="Arial"]theflatulantfrog[/font][div style="text-align: left;"] [/div][font size="2" face="Arial"]frogrik[/font][div style="text-align: left;"] [/div][font size="2" face="Arial"]orik[/font][div style="text-align: left;"] [/div] [div style="text-align: left;"] [/div][blockquote style="border-left: 2px solid rgb(0, 0, 0); padding-right: 0px; padding-left: 5px; margin-left: 5px; margin-right: 0px;"][div style="text-align: left;"] [/div][div style="font-family: arial; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; font-stretch: normal; text-align: left;"]----- Original Message ----- [/div][div style="text-align: left;"] [/div][div style="background: rgb(228, 228, 228) none repeat scroll 0% 0%; mozbackground-clip: mozinitial; mozbackground-origin: mozinitial; mozbackground-inline-policy: mozinitial; font-family: arial; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; font-stretch: normal; text-align: left;"]From: [span style="text-decoration: underline;"]Gopher[/span] [/div][div style="text-align: left;"] [/div][div style="font-family: arial; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; font-stretch: normal; text-align: left;"]To: [span style="text-decoration: underline;"]Orik[/span] [/div][div style="text-align: left;"] [/div][div style="font-family: arial; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; font-stretch: normal; text-align: left;"]Sent: Thursday, November 20, 2008 11:53 AM[/div][div style="text-align: left;"] [/div][div style="font-family: arial; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; font-stretch: normal; text-align: left;"]Subject: Foul up[/div][div style="text-align: left;"] [/div]
[div style="text-align: left;"] [/div][table style="text-align: left; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: auto;" border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0"] [tbody] [tr] [td valign="top"] Sorry, Orik - I always have difficulty in posting things onto forums and this time I managed to 'lose' your last message entirely - therefore I was unable to let anyone know. If you have any more of a general nature can you send them to Gordy or someone else (maybe ?) - saves me losing them and being unable to help you out. I'm really angry with myself. I've just sent a pm to ?, so if you contact her for future multi-sendings, she'll know what it's about.
How's today so far? Not too bad I hope....and does the time pass quickly for you? I guess it's a non-stop drat just maybe you're able to sleep as much of it away as possible. On the brighter side, you'll need no excuses to successfully avoid this year's Christmas frenzy of getting and spending.
By the way do you have any/many visitors. I'd pop in myself if I lived nearer.
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hey orik! just turn on the tears and maybe somebody will get the idea to set up a paypal account for you like they did for your cat.
Orik, my apologies for not making it to St Pauls to see you while you were there. Glad to hear that you are on the mend.
Try contacting BC Housing. They can set you up with a reasonable place to live on your disability cheque. I'm sure there are other options besides your current apt.
Housing Applicant / Rental Assistance Program / SAFER Inquiry Line
Lower Mainland: (604) 433-2218
Toll free: 1-800-257-7756
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I still got the same pay pal, I still got that same email address, and I still have miss pepper, though she lost near as much weight as myself. so I've come to the conclusion she needs a foster cat home, a loving family until i can find either a bug free residence or have the ability to make my own house 100 percent bug free.
Meaning fleas, cockroaches and bed bugs. this young girl is almost 16 years old in age and has lost most of her eyesight a couple of her teeth and is showing signs of kitty cat dementia and i am afraid to say probably more than a few expensive, health care problems. beyond my ability to care for any longer... so i have to call meow-aide and adopt her out probably forever :(
I for one think because the way things look from my end, it just doesn't seem possible to make this house bug free in side of less than 3 months of constant, spraying, cleaning and vigilance of tough action, plus hundreds if not thousands, of dollars in bills, way beyond any monetary means i could consider. and believe me, I have.
as for social housing if I'm lucky i might get a place before my disability checks run out and god willing i will be able to return to work by then, damn things were easier to do when u didn't have to do or think of them
this place stinks to hell the garbage is miles high
and I am still so sick I turn green at moving still.
damn damn and damn
dear god give me strength to do the right thing and ease of mind to make the right choices i have to spend all day, Wednesday, sorting my books, from my garbage, garbage documents, from my important papers and clothing worth keeping from the rags that are fit for the pit
sighs so what to keep, what to wash, what to destroy and make phone calls to the housing u listed lilme thanks for those number by the way... and to make a phone call to meow-aid to find a temporary ( i can only pray its a temporary, foster home, for pepper ) but realistically it may be her last home ever.
i just don't see how this place, can be tuned human, let alone pet safe once more
cause it sure isn't right now and blue shell cleaning services 30 dollars an hr
where the hell do i get that kind of scratch ohhhhh groans.....
hello saint pauls. can i come back... at least then i didn't have to think or act, i could pretend everything was okay..... going to bed now, i need some sleep, need to keep my strength up when id rather just give in and cry how useless it all is.... to start this disgusting project at home
if i bought a case of beer would u guys come scrub clean and trash stuff with me ?
sighs, sorry forgot, no money right now for a case of beer all bills and no money from disability yet....
groans grabs head sits and pouts but i refuse to cry over my own filthy life style....
and to all of you purelife, lise, lilme, russ, gopher, gordy, raging frog and any others i am possibly forgetting i dont want to seem so ungratefull so i thank you all the best way i can and return the blessings as i can. thank you and god bless you all. im off to bed for real this time hugs and kisses love and peace
ingat my friends
for wishing me good luck best wishes and a speedy recovery i do thank you all but thanks seem so little for such large encouragment in a tough time in my life.... i may not be out of the woods yet. but this is a bit of good news the liver is not fibrous that means it is still celular this was revealed in the biopsy which means i could pottentially make a full recovery..... so in the hope of some bagels hehe the bot word i bid u all a good night
Orik- you are eligible for home care assistance (nursing, housekeeping, etc.) and Meals on Wheels. Call the health centre and plead your case. Please tell them about your medical situation, the living conditions you have, your lack of financial resources and no family support with day-to-day living.
They might tell you to phone a different health clinic that's closer to where you live.
It's wrong for our health care system to send you home in your weakened condition, when you need assistance.
Downtown Community Health Centre
569 Powell Street
Vancouver, BC V6A 1G8
604-255-3151
thanks lil me again. i gave them a call about my situation and i left a msg with some one's machine... i hope they can get back to me soon, especialy on what to do and where to begin. i'm not broke yet. i can still pay my bills and rent
if i don't get the unemployment cheques rolling soon I'm gonna be up a creek a little bit... then theirs the matter of so much other stuff... cause i worked for ages at a time and now find myself out of work for the first time in years.. i mean litterly unable to work is frightening, not just being sick, but stressed too...
with so many loops and hurdles and barely any knowledge on where to begin it is rather confusing but the powel clinic is near home to me as it is lilme so many thanks to you. thanks... so probably my best place to start is with them and try to list all my options.... i find that not being part of the system is slowing everything down for me...that cause im not on full time disabilitie or that im not on social assistance that makes all this so much larger a issue and harder to deal with...
this is the email i sent to meow-aid today i hope i can get thier responce soon... pepper realy does deserve a nicer place and better living conditions than i can provide....
Miss pepper is almost 16 y/o
i have acute liver failure and spent the past 27 days in saint pauls and my house is so bug infested i can barely keep it human friendly let alone miss pepper safe, she is having a rough time with bed bugs and fleas.... she needs probably (!!!) some good vet care. something i can not do, let alone pay for atm and or a good foster home till i can start looking after her again. but :( the sad truth is i may never be in health good enough or in a apartment once more clean enough for pepper :( if some one can call me at home or on cell
my home emails
Orik_Basher (at) shaw.ca
im not very wealthy but i can try to help in anyway i can, starting with 2 - 50 kilogram boxes of clumping cat litter... sorry no cat food... almost out of food for pepper and me as it is. pretty soon no tv.. then no phone... then no internet... i just dont know what im gona do right now
pls help her if u can she needs a single cat home, prefferably one with lots of love and lots of attention... she likes to be held and petted and spoken to often... she does not play nicely with other cats or dogs and sometimes she reacts badly to sharp or loud noises she doesn't do children to well either. but most humans can win her purrrrss in seconds though.
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This Orik is just trying to steal your money. He is a fraudster! He is using a made up sickness trying to gain sympathy and a way in. This is a standard tactic of the conman.
a fraudster a conman u dare call me that. LOL u little trollish puke come back when u know how to anger a person and make them feel something other than disgust for u.... i see u dont even bother to register or log in but hide behind the guest handle.... but i can asure u and any one else
i am not playing a con game, nor am i out to defraud anyone have u once seen me ask for financial help, .. no u have not nore will u. all i want is my baby girl to have a clean and safe home god willing through meowaids help or another organazation like them the only help i need at this moment is figuring out what services i can contact for additional aid and or servies in getting my life put back together the best i can in the time i have...
if not meow aid maybe some other none kill shelter services... and i am going to pay for my own meals on wheels and cleaning services.... im just trying to get my life my house and home back on trak after spending pretty much 26 days in a hospital room and they dont normaly keep u in a hospital that long unless u r sick
You sir are nothing more than a liar and a cheat. You have been exposed! You feux outrage seems well rehersed and planned. Most con-men are very good at feigning outrage and disgust to cover their tracks; it seems as you are no different.
Ok, I am done for now, you can go back and play hospital if you want. I am just warning everyone out there that the shoe will drop and this POS will start begging for money.
Hi David -
Thanks for posting your email address. I hope you have the chance to read my email. I found something that I thought you'd like. (//forums/richedit/smileys/Happy/14.gif)
Take care and lotsa hugs for you.
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ohhh my purelife howd u know that i would just love that i love that big cute teddy pic... sighs thank you again for the get well wishes purelife how i wish i could get a hug from u in real the one at the dv party is so long ago and was never a real hug (//forums/richedit/smileys/Other/6.gif)
ahh perhaps another day another time.. perhaps on sunday at the vancouver eastside vineyard, i hope to make plans to attend Sunday service their and if i can i will go to Starbucks on commercial after church for an hour or so im not sure what time church services will be over though. so I am unsure what time Iwill get to Starbucks on first and commercial is it ? or was it second and commercial its been so long since I've done the coffee trip their. i have forgotten or in my old vernacular ive frogotten :P
I wish i could use ur real name pure life my dear but i know is a big no no and i kind of outed myself using my own name and all on this here forum go figure orik finaly outed :D big evil grin.... jezee how many names have i used over the years in dedicated forum trolling and how many hours of work did i ahems spend working on a post rather than doing my real job sighs... but orik retired from dv posts rarely on datw
and just as rare on ds
and now for you dear, dear, worried if u r so worried get some help. perhaps u r a bit paranoid. but i will not ask u for ur hard earned dollars and if i did, you would not have to send them. if you want to help me or pepper.
send a donation to your local none kill pet shelters or the local volenteer delivery service of a meals on wheels program or its equivelent in your area. so they can continue to do good work helping other who are truly sick and need a bit of assistance... while temporarily out of the norm... but then again... what is normal for me...is perhaps not the same to you... a person who like u worried, maybe you have everything all together and no worries on their mind what so ever.
my dear, worried, but who or what am i to speak in to your situation, why are you so worried ? worried ??? if u had bothered to call the hospital 3 days ago you would of probably talked to me and could have even visited me while i was still in a sick bed their
perhaps you would care to name a place to meet in the vancouver east side, between commercial and main street some where on hastings... if u have or if u even care to meet me for real and let yourself be the judge of how sick i am and how sick i am not... sounds fair to me worried
what do you good people of ds think ? think he would even show if he had the guts to call or maybe he is the con man, worried might be worried that he will make no money cause he is planning a fraud idea and perhaps my actually getting sick has now ruined it for him... seeing that i am the one who got sick and all and seem to be begging for change. could you just see me and pepper on the corner on water street by the steam clock and the games store begging for change hat out full beard scraggy hair and a bit unkempt in the rest of my appearance in the middle of winter LMAO
hey wait a minute we used to do just that sit on water street and beg for change before i got a real job and got my life in to order before..... well im sure if i can quit a many year crack cocaine addiction... i can recover from acute liver failure. with no problems. right ??? once a survivor always a survivor???...
no the only thing i ask for in help is continued prayer for my fast and full recovery... for safety while i walk around in my east side neighborhood for the doctors and specialists to know how to heal and cure me how they best can be guided in the ways to heal me so i can fully recover and return to my work which i do love and do miss
to my friends and family @ work i miss them very much, believe it or not. sure most of the guys and gals their don't speak English but that doesn't mean to say they aren't a bunch of great guys and gals... the east side is a community of folks from all over the planet working and living side by side
some good some bad and some ugly i know im part bad mostly ugly and of little good but i am still working on changing my life its a 15 plus year project and wont stop till god does call me home and how i pray that day is not any time soon to many un-yet met dreams... (//forums/richedit/smileys/Happy/19.gif)
Laying it on pretty thick eh sickboy? Ok, continue with your silly little game, it seems as you are only half way through it. Soon the conversation will change on how desparate you are and if you just got a helping hand............
All con-men are alike. Be very careful this one has his schtick down pat. I expect him to take another turn for the worse to set up the fleece and then a recovery and thanx to all that contributed to his little ruse.
Got that paypall account ready to go?
Yes Orik...make sure you tell your church community about your recent struggles and they will rally around you in prayer. I'd bet they will also find a way to meet some of your other needs as well, through the network- maybe a home for the cat, more habitable affordable accommodation for you, assistance with housekeeping, etc.
i just ask prayers lilme god sometimes answers them in weird and strange ways
worried u asked and for those who know me they know my paypal is the same as my email it is still the same and not been changed in many years now
Orik_Basher @ shaw.ca
delete the spaces before AND AFTER THE @ SYMBOL
same email i have used in god knows how many years now ive forgotten at least 7 maybe more for the email and about 3 for the paypal now
... it is rarely used except to receive the odd sale of a item and is not gonna change any day soon and my pay pal is the same as my email if u really wanted to know... but why do u ask u want a refund or just another acknowledgment ?
2 girls convinced me to start a paypal for pepper a few years ago . the donations raised through it paid almost 1/2 50 percent her vet bill the rest i paid off on my credit card at 18.9 percent interest....
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and thank god some folks are nice while others are not... i aint rich mister but here take this gift from me to you just write my email a little note giving me ur name and what drink u want and i will be happy to buy it for u or perhaps u want a refund for some of my poetry i know a lady who send me a cheque for 50 dollars for peppers vet bill but sadly i lost her address and never did get to mail her the promised hand wirtten signed copies of my poetry :( sorry deleted the info off the senders to keep them identities private some asked me to not reveal who they are though i could and would hug and kiss them all for the help they gave pepper then ...
so worried come to me on commercial u cant miss me im the guy in black pants black boots grey sweater bushy beard fresh trimmed hair cut and beard and very yellow skin i will be in cow boy hat and if standing about 6 foot tall and if sitting about 4 feet wide :) lol and roughly 400 lbs of hugs and love
to u allcome to commercial and second on sunday afternoon lets say 1 pm to play it safe church might run late... and i will buy u a ginger spice watever mr worried or shut up and hit ur knees and just add ur prayers and well wishes i only want to live i have no wish to die not today not untill im married and got some little tadpoles of my own
perhaps u will be happy then lol
but in christmas of 2006 i was blessed by a few caring folks from discover vancouver...
as you can see not much in donations but a few of the faithfull helped pepper and thank fully meowaid called me back and will come take pepper in for a while ... i pray its only a short time but :( i just dont know first my home then we can see about bringing her back once this pig stye is fit for animal and human residence...
it has to be is pet safe and friendly god im crying i dont want her to go but she needs the help and i just cant provide it... and meowaid god willingly can.... so i have no choice this time... i just cant let pepper live in these conditions she deserves more than this place she is to good for the likes of me
this festering sore of an apartment block called subsidy housing one would think first united would be better at making sure its tenenants and resident apartments were better maintained but i guess they dont notice when things r moving beyond a mans normal reach amongst other things... thank god for socities like meowaid if u have to make a donation to something worried send it to meowaid and other none kill agencies who look after cats and or dogs or reptiles or other animals of you choice their are many such organizations who need ur help worried im not asking for urs for me just for a society that's gonna help my baby at least give her a safer and better place to stay than this hole im living in right now...
gotta run meowaid is here right now thank god for one answer to prayer
HUGGGZZZ to Pepper. Orik, you're doing the right thing here.
To Lil Me: Excellent advice
To Orik: Keep well
thanks lil_me i know its the right decision for pepper, it still hurts to have to make it :( she needs good care till i can provide it and right now i cant not till my house and home are better... my health is still poor... so i can only do little bits of the work that really needs to be done here
30 min a day might be pushing my limits some what but is just so pack ratted full of years of my books my life i just hate to part with it but it must be done it must or i will forever live in a cess pool of filth and bugs and stench on stink to no end... but god willing that will return in time... so i may return to my old job as a bored underpaid over worked security patrol man in the downtown east side
i just finished my application for ei benefits now its a wait and see i should know in the next 28 days if they approve it. and waiting my employer to provide me with my record of employment also waiting on the mail application forms for my Canadian disabilite application forms so with the disablement and the welfare cheque after ei disabilities ends i don't end up on the street... once in my life was long enough never again if i can help it...
is still less than i earned as a full time employee but hopefully will be enough to survive on in this day and age especially if i make some cut backs in my life style ie my exspence cut backs such as a switch to adsl over cable or basic internet get rid of the tv package i dont need or use i only really do use the first 38 channels of my telly :( but that's still exspencive..
eat much less food not a bad thing when ur as fat as me. eat a strict diet and continue to walk and exceersize a little everyday.. speaking of which i still need to go to the pharmacy to get my other medications ... back later and probably will take a nap at that time... i sleep lots since my liver packed it in. no energy, no strength, always sleepy :(
sighs even reading a forum is tiring me out...
will blog later if i can
Hmmm....so you are giving away your cat? I don't buy this BS nor does anyone else. Wait and see, once the story comes out that he can't find a home for his ancient cat....the pleas for cash will start. So..."Orik"...what exactly do you do for a living other than be a complete fraudster and cheat? Do you work for a collection agency or some other BS business?
How far along are you in your script? Pretty soon I imagine that you will be having troubles paying vet bills, or home care and then the bomb will drop. It will start as innocent as .....I need a little .......help....next thing you know you have a few thousand in your lap. You are a cheater and liar, I really hope your maladies kill you in the end. I really hate cheaters and thieves. You are both.
pepper is in foster care now worried, so rest ur mind meowaid took her in. thankfully... so thats one less worries on my mind... if things ever got bad enough i would go to the food bank for foods and i would sooner return to the street and return to begging for spare change than beg on the internet...
what i used to do for a living before my life crashed round my ears... was i worked as a patrol officer doing security in the Vancouver east side and before that i used to sell joints to the guys at the bars while begging spare change when i lived out on the street
so u think im a thief and cheat, lol well perhaps ur right... perhaps ur wrong... it is your opinion and i will never denies u ur right to think it of some one u don't know but sure seem to have a hate on for... insert big hug hear just for u worried may u find some fun and love in ur duress to easy ur mind mr or ms worried may u find solace in what ever is bothering u so much ...
that worried is ur opinion... i would sooner return the love than believe the worst in a person i used to be that bad worried and a lot more,,, i once would of kicked in ur back door stole ur tv and run out with ur other valuables and then pawned it for coke money and other bad things...
i done did stuff once upon a time... stuff i am far from proud of but i have also done stuff, stuff that i am proud of in fact proud of... god willingly i will not break my commandments with my god and savior further as of Aug 93 its been 15 years cocaine free ... and that is a fact i am proud of. i do not use stimulants i no longer use depressants and i am now 28 days as a none smoker.. no im not a good christian and i am far from a good man..
but a man and a christian i am and nothing u say will take those facts from me worried...
but in this day and age ur sceptasism is many things to u i wish you well and the blessing of myself and of the lord god and his sone jesus christ and by the grace of the holy spirit and by the angels of heaven may u find ur self blessed everyday this week and may you find a realtionship with some one who brings u faith instead of fear..
i am not a good christian, i am weak, my faith is strong, my heart is weary and my tears and fears win out more often than the time i spend in prayer... no i try to do the best i can for my friends and u sir or mam are apparently no friend of mine but u r sure coming across as a bitter troll and enemy to me..
but i do thank u for ur contribution to this thread and another bump up the page.. so for now i say god bless and may i know ur first name so i may pray for ur safety and gods love and grace to look after u and ur scepticall heart and may u find salvtion in the life of Christ but if Christianity... is not for u, i can understand...
me i just return to the teachings and the faith i grew up in... its not much but its all i have to hold on to... and its is a small comfort to a man who is afraid of dieing alone with no family or progeny of his own ...
bless everyone and if tonight i did return to the folds of heaven it would not be in sin ...
tomorrow is another day and god willingly i will awaken and greet the day with a smile and say good morning lor... instead of as some men and more than a few women i am sure amongst others who will say good lord its morning hehehe
good night all
[H3]Matthew 6:5-6 (New International Version)[/H3] [DIV class=result-text-style-normal] [H5]Prayer [/H5] [SPAN class=sup id=en-NIV-23288]5 [/SPAN]"And when you pray, do not be like the hypocrites, for they love to pray standing in the synagogues and on the street corners to be seen by men. I tell you the truth, they have received their reward in full. [SPAN class=sup id=en-NIV-23289]6 [/SPAN]But when you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you."
sorry Mathew, forgot about that one... hangs head will try not to forget it again... consider me reminded and chastised...
thank you
Hey Orik, I used to go on DV a bit.
First of all, really sorry to hear about your illness. I wish you all the best for a recovery and a return to a normal life. Things are tough right now, but by the sounds of it, you've successfully overcome far greater obstacles in your years on this earth. We all know that you're going to get through this and it seems that you know that you will too.
Second, you have done the brave and kind thing with Miss Pepper. It shows how much you care for her by doing this. The world needs more people who care for animals like this.
Take care.
I too was raised going to church. Funny thing is, the people I know who live the most "Christian" lifestyle are atheists! So do we really need to rehearse the words created to control the masses thousands of years ago? Do those "brainwashed" in churches from early childhood through adolescence end up morally better than those spared the Sunday morning tradition? We have a codified criminal code now, and provincial statutes too, to control behaviour by imposing consequences.
Is religion man made? Hmm... And with regards to prayer, for oneself, praying to the higher power helps for sure. But to think others praying for one has any positive effect has been proven to be false. Longtitudinal study published two years ago:
[A href="http://www.nytimes.com/2006/03/31/health/31pray.html"]http://www.nytimes.com/2006/03/31/health/31pray.html[/A]
"In your head, in your head... zombie"
thank you x-dver as a x dver my self... i can only hope ur right... i often wonder but with pepper, i know i made the right choice... some days its hard enough just to stand up... other days i do better. it might be long and many months, b4, i fully recover, if i ever fully recover... but the future, is not here, nor am i prophet, or a seer, to know what tomorrow holds,
stretchedout only u, can decide whats best for you... for me, i chose to believe in the power of prayer and whether that prayer be just good thoughts voiced specified prayer or just a handwritten note that is deliverd by other means... from good people whether it be Wicca christian catholic Shintoism ( do they pray ? Shintoists that is. what about Buddhists i assume these religions also pray)
thier are many diffrent religions mine just happens to be christian. for now the best, i can do is hold to my faith, ask for prayers cause i believe in the great power of good thinking and the fantastic power of prayer
i believe in divine healing and gods intervention.. sometimes Gods answer is long in coming, some times it is immediate and sometimes it is not the answer we expected, at all.
x dver u make me smile u remind me that yes i love pepper more than my own needs she deserves the very best, she lived hard and rough. if she stayed with me i would of had no choice but to put her down, in 2 or 3 month i can reevaluate how things are here and im praying they will be pepper friendly again
if not then i do not know where her future will be . if i take a turn for the worse and end up back in hospital again confused and in a state of distress again im gonna be in trouble... the hardest part for me was the days i could not even remember my own name or where i was
i knew i was very sick but thankfully that has passed and my enzymes where slowly going down...i don't know where those r right now... i do know im not getting yellower some days im okay other days... its noticeable ( the severe jaundice ) the hard part is just not knowing what my body will do.
so i must be cautious always if i get tired or dizzy to remember to rest often, if i get a headache, i have to rest, i can not take aspirin or acetaminophen, i can not enjoy a beer or any form of alcohol, i have to avoid mushrooms ( i think im supposed to avoid them ) just not to sure... i place my trust in God and his son. Jesus was a lawyer, a salesman, a carpenter... well he's my boss hehehe but 4 now good sirs and mams.... i bid u a marvelous day... till the morrow or just until later today.
Parables are fairy tales. Only the naive believe the stories are fact based.
Here are some wise men's thoughts on religion:
"It appears to me (whether rightly or wrongly) that direct arguments against christianity and theism produce hardly any effect on the public; and freedom of thought is best promoted by the gradual illumination of men's minds which follows from the advance of science." [Darwin] "If we believe absurdities, we shall commit atrocities." [Voltaire] "I cannot imagine a God who rewards and punishes the objects of his creation, whose purposes are modeled after our own -- a God, in short, who is but a reflection of human frailty. Neither can I believe that the individual survives the death of his body, although feeble souls harbor such thoughts through fear or ridiculous egotism." [Einstein] "Faith means not wanting to know what is true." [Nietzsche] "I cannot believe in the immortality of the soul.... No, all this talk of an existence for us, as individuals, beyond the grave is wrong. It is born of our tenacity of life – our desire to go on living ... our dread of coming to an end." [Edison] "The Bible is not my book nor Christianity my profession. I could never give assent to the long, complicated statements of Christian dogma." [Lincoln] "Religion is a byproduct of fear. For much of human history, it may have been a necessary evil, but why was it more evil than necessary? Isn't killing people in the name of God a pretty good definition of insanity?" [Arthur C. Clarke] "Religions are all alike – founded upon fables and mythologies." [Thomas Jefferson] "Say what you will about the sweet miracle of unquestioning faith, I consider a capacity for it terrifying and absolutely vile." [Kurt Vonnegut] "Religion is based . . . mainly on fear . . . fear of the mysterious, fear of defeat, fear of death. Fear is the parent of cruelty, and therefore it is no wonder if cruelty and religion have gone hand in hand. . . . My own view on religion is that of Lucretius. I regard it as a disease born of fear and as a source of untold misery to the human race." [Bertrand Russell]
Hey Orik. How are you today?
im a bit tired lil_me and in need of a nap so im gonna lie down and strectchedout is spewing a bunch of stuff, i cant make head nor tails ...of maybe cause i chose to ignore his nonesence today... by not reading his diatribe of material today.... and i cant find that info on best deals on Regarding the .Scanning code of practise. can u post me link to that info in a pm lil_me ?
or just tell me what page in best deals to go read. for now im gona have a glass of milk eat a banana and have a nap.. and hopefully not get sick today...
Orik wrote:
strectchedout is spewing a bunch of stuff, i cant make head nor tails ...of maybe cause i chose to ignore his nonesence today... by not reading his diatribe of material today
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Someone needs to look at the man in the mirror!
Matthew wrote:
[h3]Matthew 6:5-6 (New International Version)[/h3] [div class="result-text-style-normal"] [/p][h5]Prayer [/h5] [span class="sup" id="en-NIV-23288"]5 [/span]"And when you pray, do not be like the hypocrites, for they love to pray standing in the synagogues and on the street corners to be seen by men. I tell you the truth, they have received their reward in full. [span class="sup" id="en-NIV-23289"]6 [/span]But when you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you."
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[/p] This is an interesting one. It caused me a lot of trouble for some time and eventually contibuted to other reasons why I left the mainstream church.
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Orik wrote:
thank you x-dver as a x dver my self... i can only hope ur right... i often wonder but with pepper, i know i made the right choice... some days its hard enough just to stand up... other days i do better. it might be long and many months, b4, i fully recover, if i ever fully recover... but the future, is not here, nor am i prophet, or a seer, to know what tomorrow holds,
stretchedout only u, can decide whats best for you... for me, i chose to believe in the power of prayer and whether that prayer be just good thoughts voiced specified prayer or just a handwritten note that is deliverd by other means... from good people whether it be Wicca christian catholic Shintoism ( do they pray ? Shintoists that is. what about Buddhists i assume these religions also pray)
thier are many diffrent religions mine just happens to be christian. for now the best, i can do is hold to my faith, ask for prayers cause i believe in the great power of good thinking and the fantastic power of prayer
i believe in divine healing and gods intervention.. sometimes Gods answer is long in coming, some times it is immediate and sometimes it is not the answer we expected, at all.
x dver u make me smile u remind me that yes i love pepper more than my own needs she deserves the very best, she lived hard and rough. if she stayed with me i would of had no choice but to put her down, in 2 or 3 month i can reevaluate how things are here and im praying they will be pepper friendly again
if not then i do not know where her future will be . if i take a turn for the worse and end up back in hospital again confused and in a state of distress again im gonna be in trouble... the hardest part for me was the days i could not even remember my own name or where i was
i knew i was very sick but thankfully that has passed and my enzymes where slowly going down...i don't know where those r right now... i do know im not getting yellower some days im okay other days... its noticeable ( the severe jaundice ) the hard part is just not knowing what my body will do.
so i must be cautious always if i get tired or dizzy to remember to rest often, if i get a headache, i have to rest, i can not take aspirin or acetaminophen, i can not enjoy a beer or any form of alcohol, i have to avoid mushrooms ( i think im supposed to avoid them ) just not to sure... i place my trust in God and his son. Jesus was a lawyer, a salesman, a carpenter... well he's my boss hehehe but 4 now good sirs and mams.... i bid u a marvelous day... till the morrow or just until later today.
[hr style="width: 100%; height: 2px;"]Hey Orik, glad to see that you still have your sense of humour too, one of things that I always liked about your posts in the other place. ;) I'm not much of a believer myself (I guess that my head just doesn't work that way, lol) but I admire your belief!
You're admirably forgiving of the haters -- literally, just ignoring some of the stuff that they spew is the best way forward. I guess that it makes them feel better about themself kicking someone when they're down. Ignore.
I guess that time is one big necessary healer here. Really hope that you don't have those really bad moments again.
Though originally a Vancouverite, I don't live in Vancouver anymore. I'm going to be in Vancouver for few days next month (December, that is, lol). So I'll drop you a line on your pm that you posted here. Maybe I'll drop by for one for Orik's legendary coffees on Commercial if I get a chance! :)
Stay cool...
Orik walks in to the theme of peoples court playing in back ground hehe
thanks x-dver let me know when ur in the city im always happy to meet people for a coffee. just not gigantic groups of people ...
the coffee meet will be just after 1:30 pm tomorrow at Starbucks on commercial and second... book to be read is bourne ultimatem hehe... if no one shows up.... i will at least have a book to read...
i will try not to arrive late and hopefully a bit early. but Sunday service could run as late as 1:30 pm and could end as early as 12:30 pm
i wont know until Sunday services are actually over and will not be able to up date the time or forums cause 1. i don't have a laptop 2. i do not have a cellphone with internet access.
so im sorry i can not make the time frame any clearer. i recomend u show up a bit early say about 1:15 pm this will give u a nice seat... to see me come sauntering in more like hobeling and gasping for air.
Then u can then chose to make ur self known to me or slink out unnoticed and probably without my ever knowing u were present... pls no camera's im ugly enough with out more photos of me online...
as for why so many folks hate Starbucks... i will never know... perhaps the over priced lattes, that can at times tend to be a bit on the burnt tasting side :D but the choices eggnog spice latte or chia latte or gingerbread or orange or mmmm i just cant decide i will have to chose when i am their tomorrow after sundry services
wearing a beat up old black cowboy hat, Black pants & a Grey fleece sweater i will be the rotund ( meaning very fat guy ) jaundiced, looking, fellow, in sunglasses (if its sunny) probably smelling like a garbage bin :D with a big old beard, messy hair,
see u there if ur coming and the invitation is open to everyone who lives in Vancouver. and no im not buying coffee for just any one... u have to buy ur own... i am not rich only worried and shn get a free latte :D and maybe mr pyramid head. im not a scary man just a scared man... insert laughter here and not the mad scientist but the real amusement fun kind...
maybe i will even see u folks in church... but i know better than to hold my breath on that one right :) we're a small church congregation so we rent space from the SA building
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i will probably take the cane to help me walk and stabilize myself i am sorry if im a bit spacey while walking and will try to arrive not stoned out on morphine . but cant promise depends on my pain levels... most days no pain until i have to lay down to sleep.
love this place the slower pace of ds is much easier to keep up with over dv for sure. man did i sleep long from 12 noon till almost 4 pm.. but i guess thats normal for a man who sleeps very little at night sometimes...
Sundayservice was great. i enjoyed the lighting of the advent candle and the first teachings of Luke...
as for the worship i arived late missed the singing parts...
missed seeing u all their guess none of u are early risers on a sunday huh :D hehehe
as for the Starbucks thing i arrived just after 1:30 pm had a hard time deciding and settled on a eggnog latte always a holiday favorite in my book and the free sample of the gingersnap latte with whipped cream was decadent bliss
i ate my banana lunch and chocolate chip cookie... with out any company... though i saw many nice folks hanging around.... no one came over and said hi i read ur blog on ds and am such a such poster... perhaps another Sunday... probably between 1 pm and 1:30 pm again... again time is hard to pin down due to Sunday services and prayer ministry which can sometimes take awhile
hope to see some of you out... or maybe u were all their but to afraid to say hi... thinking i am some deranged homicidal maniac lol which ever it is
god bless every one and have a great Sunday...
nothing new to report the fatigue.... is still with me. slept from 11 pm till 3:30 pm today... im thinking that is a bit to excessive & not quiet normal but i was awake for a couple of hours during the early hours before i went back to bed... ...mind u i just don't know enough about myself and what is going on.... i did spend close to 20 hrs a day sleeping in the hospital...
mind u i was stoned out of my tree most of the time on hydro morphine ? not sure on the spelling or pronunciation.... now im not on the same drugs as those that i was using while in the hospital...i have to think about my addictive personality here so when i am finally recovered from this liver failure...
providing i do recover and don't end up spending the rest of my life with some weird liver disease... this way i don't end up with a whole new drug addiction to kick. that would be the last thing i need in my life... the drugs are still fairly good but they make the mind easier to think with and they are only to be taken at night... during the day i can manage my pain levels through meditation and not moving around to much.
i still get slowed down and forget what i was thinking or doing at times but it is no where near as bad as while on the hydro morphine and the best part their is no need to take Benadryl or maxoran similar drug to gravol just dont know the spelling or the pronunciation of it to combat the drugs were used to control the nausea or extreme itching and or other side effects from the hydro morphine or just from the acute liver failure its self....
so nothing of any importance to report... i did clean out and throw away 1 more garbage bag of crap. soon it will be time to start emptying the drawers and cupboards of paper back and hard cover novels... so bug infested to not even be worth trying to save...
damn orik my fellow ex-dv mod from hell. a little bird told me you were at death's door and ms. pepper had to go to meow aid. where the hell are you these days? did you got yourself out of that bug-infested place and are somewhere you at least don't have to kill a roach with a baseball bat every 2 seconds. so sorry to hear about ms. pepper, but meow aid will do their best and believe me time does heal. it is time you took care of yourself for once, and someday soon another kind-hearted four-legged critter will choose you to be their buddy.
i'm sending ya an email, it's a gmail.com so hope it doesn't get blocked as you know i change my email like 5 x a y ear.
oh yeah and to idiots like raging frog and worried saying orik's lying and scamming people then why didn't you go and find out for sure if he was at the hospital or meet him at starbucks on sunday? yeah, that's what i thought so sftu. (http://discoverseattle.net/forums/richedit/smileys/4.gif)
yeah the fat bastard is still alive, not working still waiting on receiving my ei benefits if i get any at all i know i got enough hours but how far will they go back to issue payment. money is getting very tight and down to one can of soup per day and a handful of frozen veg's. not bad to lose weight. but id like some fresh fruits and more juices to help keep the liver flushed of toxins...
argh no pay check for so long now so many days in a hospital damn do i ever i hate this... no freaking energy to get up and go. cause of this unknown liver failure. the cause is unknown the length of recovery time is unknown. providing one can ever recover from acute liver failure... cure unknown... will it kill me slowly or quickly again the answer is unknown... to many goddamn unknowns and that pisses me of... no end cause... no one can tell me if i will ever be okay again.
i miss my job... i miss my work mates... hell i even miss all my enemies around town... i hate being sick and listless... i hate sleeping 16 hours at a time, and still being tired.... most of all i hate looking yellow and hate having eyes the color of puke
my breath stinks like some warm fetid death coated thing long decomposed.. my ankles r swollen 2 times normal size and every joint in the knee and ankles hurting so much and more...
then their is the abominable pain the nausea and the itchiness along with extreme fatigue.. sometimes confusion.. sighs and if the enzymes go south its immediately back to emergency room or if i start to retain water. and swell sighs so many quantified problems. liver failure sucks big time...
thank you for ur kind words everyone. i am slow at recovering and some days are much better than others. some days i am sick and know it other days i feel good. but everyday im single exhausted and fall into bed i pray and if im lucky i wake up and start over again.
I know you change your email often WYK but that is what happens to beautiful girls like u, who get to know to many men chasing them:P
Hang in there, buddy.
Have you had a medical check-up since beng released from hospital?
I am running late again.
I have left for church service
after church will be starbucks
Starbucks Commercial and Second in vancouver time will be 1 PM unless church runs late bye for now
still reading the bourne ultimatum...
c yah all
sadly no one showed for the after church service coffee and I still don't know if any one show up for church :D
but then again most people don't come up to me and say hey i read ur online prattle nor do most people recognize little, fat, old if u call 36 old that is , graying hair, bearded ugly son of a frog like me i was the big guy middle table drinking the ventie apple spiced caramel.... whatchamacallit drink ... no banana or chocolate chip cookie today.
i was briefly in Starbucks from 1 PM until 1:25 PM before leaving to take my bus home... where i stopped off at a cafe for a burger and a salad to go... the burger made a good lunch
with that tomato, cucumber, green pepper, onion, lettuce and mushrooms salad is 4 supper it will go nicely with my carrots radishes and tomatoes... i know the salad has tomatoes... i just happen to like tomatoes... allot... is all... even more... since i found out their high in potassium and i hate bananas
umm perhaps i should clarify. it's not that i hate banana's... nor do i hate carrots but of the fruits and vegetables i have a dislike for that would be carrots and bananas... hate is reserved entirely for the Brussels sprout category of veggies :D hehehe.... so tomatoes it is...
Maybe if you put emphasis on just the coffee meeting, someone would show up. People who don't buy into religion aren't likely to meet up with one who does, right after the weekly ritual.
LOL who said ur invited stretchedout :D coffee meets got nothing to do with my choice of religion... what i chose to practice is my choice what u chose to believe is ur choice. but i think a bit of spirit might do u some good. ur such a negative soul ....
AND now for some random ramblings of a perverted mind :D
health is doing good today. and hopefully will be doing good tomorrow...
ei has been approved finally, at least i think it was... i just don't know how much they have approved me ... or for what date it will go back to. i just know they sent me a access code and they want my roe.... record of employment.
so now all i am waiting on is my roe .. ohh and money is not as tight as b4 i had to take all my accumulated vacation pay out though... so rent and all bills r paid until January now. i have some dry foods and a half full freezer and a ton of fresh fruits and veggies...
sighs but damn it all i want a big old pizza and some kfc... followed up by some ben&jerry's turtle soup ice cream... damn i want a smoke and a beer too... sighs
this damn good health thing... im not sure which is worse. trying to live right and missing everything i loved or living the life i loved but killing myself faster...
is this living right all its cracked up to be... cause i just don't get it. does one ever get over the cravings for all the junk foods and the meats. everything smells and tastes different but some foods i loved i cant stand...
even the smell of certain foods makes me feel sick now... sighs this is all so damned Topsy turvey, this sure is not easy for me to get used to... goes back to munching on a carrot stick wishing it was a dunhill... sipping a pinapple juice and gingerale wishing it was a scotch and soda on ice...
I don't think I even implied that I'd show up. I wrote "someone"... Hey, if believing in fairy tales works for you then great. On a previous page I just gave you thoughts on religion by some recent great thinkers.
Trying to get people to show up for coffee "after church" which is always your speel hasn't worked has it? So why not just write about coffee, save the church talk, and maybe someone will show up. That's just my tip for you. Not negative, just analytical, let's not confuse the two. In a world of yes men, yes I'm sometimes labelled being full of piss and vinegar, but hey, we're all reasonably well read here, and we are all well aware of labelling theory? Always try not to label others.
Never subscribe to group think. Revolt against the revolting revolution. Be a non-conforming conformist. Good day!
It's easy to see that you stretchedout are full of piss, no vinegar about you, except the sour mouth you have.
stretchedout if you have nothing nice to say perhaps, you should just shut up & hold your tongue... avoid my threads altogether.... if my ramblings bothers you so voraciously... it is obvious you've got a problem with my views.... which will not be changed for the likes of you. i once thought the same as you and worse... perhaps...
i awoke from my living nightmare...I rediscovered some joys in my life one of those jopys being the comunity and togetherness of a family and the church is a extension of my family in some ways the only family i have... good bye stretch, don't let the door spank ur ass on the way out. now get out and begone with you, along with your devil of indeffrince...
Orik wrote:
stretchedout if you have nothing nice to say perhaps, you should just shut up & hold your tongue... avoid my threads altogether.... if my ramblings bothers you so voraciously... it is obvious you've got a problem with my views.... which will not be changed for the likes of you. i once thought the same as you and worse... perhaps...
i awoke from my living nightmare...I rediscovered some joys in my life one of those jopys being the comunity and togetherness of a family and the church is a extension of my family in some ways the only family i have... good bye stretch, don't let the door spank ur ass on the way out. now get out and begone with you, along with your devil of indeffrince...
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Your rebuttal is way off. I don't think you even get that I was giving you constructive criticism of your methods for attracting people to meet with you. Yes, church for many is a social club and good for you, having a place to go on Sunday mornings for a couple of hours. There is no ownership of threads, this is a public forum.
Felling sick and under the weather.
skipping church
and
canceling coffee.
it's not like any one realy shows up anyways.
I will be going to Henry's for lunch about 12:00
if I can find some strength to walk that far...
Get well soon, frogrik!
Hi Orca
bless you for your get well & thank you my dear. i wish you and yours a very merry Christmas..
I will do my best at recovering as fast as i can Orca . I thank you for the well wishes my dear...
every week my liver is improved a little more than the week before... i now have a date from my specialist on how long i will be off of work. he states i will be off work a minimum of 6 months while my body heals and recovers.
i shall now quote my specialist pretty much verbatim and yes he did use such language. is it any wonder i like this guy. he speaks in layman's terms something the common man understands.
Mr . ******* as you know now, you are one lucky f*cker! you're stubborn as hell... Mr *******....you're a lucky man to be alive... while you were in the hospital you damn near died on us a few times.... we were not sure if you would make it... cause to us it didn't look like you would. but your recovery came as a surprise thankfully you are one tough son of a bitch with a good luck charm of incredible strength...
( i like to think it is God's divine intervention and some angels of light looking after me ) ( its not a good luck charm... it is because of prayer from friends, family and fellow online, Netizens like you, who sent, good thoughts and prayers my way )
thank you everyone... your prayers and good wishes mean much to me... while i am still recovering i still ask for good thoughts good wishes and your prayers... i am far from 100 percent good health.... on the other hand, i would say i am a good 40 percent better than the day i was released from the hospital... so others may doubt the power of prayer. i still remain a believer in the strength and the good it does... thanks be to God...
me ... so doc when can i return to work
doc... lol do you think you could do your job today
me... looking down... mumbling no, i can barely get out of bed some days
doc. let me explain something to you mr. ******* ' "you had a unknown virus kick the shit out of your liver" you are still very sick and will not be ready to return to work for a minimum of 6 months.
me. ohh
i am feeling slightly dissapointed at this point...
doc. dont look so dejected your alive... it's christmas... you can't drink!... but ur still alive! go spend it with friends and family... be happy your not in a pine box... see you in 6 weeks mr *******
with that i was dismissed from my liver specalists office..
good news is i only have to get blood tests once a week now instead of 2 or 3 times a week if things keep improving i wont need to see my doctor except 1 time every 2 weeks and blood tests only twice a month as they continue to improve it will finaly go down to only one time a month...
i will probably remain their for maybe 6 months or longer i guess i shall have to wait and see... i guess how well things improve and as long as my liver does not start to develop cirrhosis ( that's a form of scar tissue not a good thing !) it could mean my liver is turning fibrous...
that is neither here, nor their yet. for me it is still a week by week recovery thing till my doctors tell me its changed... then it will be a bi monthly thing then a monthly thing... then hopefully a yearly thing ... but for now. lets get through this week & the next i shall worry about if i get their...
Orik,
It was a pleasure to meet you.
All the best with your health.
It was a pleasure and a honor to meet you also Van_Guy Thank you for the well wishes and good thoughts...
merry Christmas and bah humbug (//richedit/smileys/12.gif)
I am watching a Christmas carol for the 4rth time this year... so many different versions..
October 31 2008 I was rushed via ambulance from the medical clinic where i had gone to see a doctor and had collapsed just after entering the front doors... for what i thought was a very bad case of the flu, unbeknown to me i was in a critical life and death state with acute liver failure..
i had lain at home pumping my body full of all the worst things a person can for liver failure, thinking i had just a bad flu... damn... hot toddy's to warm the bones. Advil cold and sinus for the head ache and general pain malaise.. for my fever i took acetaminophen... and my blood pressure medication.. doing untold amounts of damage to a liver already fighting to stay working
i was in hospital in a near unconscious state running a high fever and a blood pressure level that was plummeting, bottoming out... not in a clear state of mind. I spent 27 days in the hospital most of the time unconscious cause of medication or complications from my liver...
at times i was confused not even knowing my own name or where i was times barely able to eat and a couple of times i had to even have help to bath or even go to a bathroom... i nearly died a few times. during all this time the hospital had made arrangements for a spiritual adviser councilor [a reverend actually and a woman at that] came as a big surprise for me i am so used to men being in that particular roll that finding a woman revrand just blew my mind...
mind u it could of been the morphine that drug makes things pretty trippy... being baptized into what i think is a protestant of the united church of Canada, all i can say is it's nice to see a woman taking on the role of a Shepard... leader of the flock if you will..they also offerd em the services of a head shrinker to talk to me about my feelings and about my emotions and shit... to help me deal with my anger and stress about dieing
lol now thats a joke right ???? no one is ever happy to be told they r dieing... or that they r gonna die... that they meaning dozens of specialist blood patholigists etcetra....don't know why ur sick they dont know what has made u sick or if they can fix u up or not...the doctors not able to do shit is what botherd me the most we spend so damned much money in health care and i just found it enraging to me that they couldnt tell me what was wrong with me... well needless to say i refused the head shrinker but I happily accepted the services of the priest... (they do try to make u comfortable when ur dieing)
they dont offer laundry service or free tv. but u can rent a 8 inch tv at 60 dollars per fuc_ing week god damn thieving cunts... no available lounge for rec activities. mind i was to sick to make use of those kinds of things but it would of been nice to bloody well have them though wouldn't it... the patient lounge had been turned in to a make shift patient room for a contagious patient with mrsa or something cause of extreem understaffing and massive over crowding...
while very sick and dieing so while i was so very close to death i fell back on my faith of the christian church instilled in me since childhood, this was to bring comfort to my heart and soul while i thought (and more than a few doctors and nurses also thought) i would not live to see the morrow...
finding Jesus once more and coming home to the christian faith. spending hours in prayer and meditation not knowing if i would live or die...[font color="#4169e1" size="4" face="Arial Black"] coming home alive on Nov 26 th 2008 the day after i had written both of the following bits of [a href="http://www.discovervancouver.com/forum/people-God-t221362.html"]pro's over on dv ..[/a]. [/font][font size="5" face="Arial Black"]
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Nov 25 2007, 11:53 AM
i believe in god
i just don't believe in the church or mans image of god...
god is god . as we are, we are meaningless to god.
god is not compassionate
god is forever
therefor god is insane.
simply put
god was before the begging of time
god exists out side of time
god knows all.
therefore god has gone mad.
hence the reason we are slowly going mad.
we are becoming more god like with every passing day...
i foresee a time we will live forever... through science and will have no need of a god at all.
pretty scary to think we will all be mad by then
if we r not mad already
Nov 25 2007, 11:58 PM
what u call lucky
i call suffering through times of stress,
sorrow a experience of things i can do without...
having been through many of said times u mention.
calling on god is not like ordering a pizza.
god does not deliver.
however i do wish it was that simple
looks around
looks at wrist watch.
ahem god
I'm still waiting
looks at wrist watch.
the only faith i have left is in myself
i work hard to put food on my table
you can not rely on anyone or anything.
somethings just don't last
one day i wont even be able to rely on me
then i am seriously screwed.
no what u call god and faith
it is just a shadow
in a dark miserable life.
pulls cord driver and says driver let me off please. the next stop is mine
Destination
nowhere
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^ Like ripping off "punk" music from Quincy episodes for your poems, eh?
Bill you wrote so you Like ripping off "punk" music from Quincy episodes for your poems, eh?
i say
Merry Christmas Bill.
Would you care to provide some links to this so called punk music and off the tv show Quincey no less, LOL... so what about it Bill ? post some links please...
oh you can't provide any links... well that's what i thought... so stfu Bill . i got better things to do than spend time arguing with DV trolls and ones to lazy to even log in or register a account on DS, no less. trolls, like you who have no where to Troll, with DV forums being offline..
as far as i know, all my poetic pros / songs / whatever u want to call it... my works / poetic words or rhythmic styled pros or whatever you want to call the type of writing i do... all are original and written out long hand and some times typed on a pc to a web sites by me... i give credit where credit is due if i am plagiarizing some one elses words and shit...
i got enough garbage rolling around in my mind for making up my own shit. i have no need to steal or copy some others persons stuff.. now as as for inspiration when it hits me it hits me so i start to write. I am unaware of any influence from any external sources, while i am writting. I do not disregaurd the potential for it to show up in my works though. So I can not deny that some of what i write is influenced potentially in one way or another by audio, visual or some other form of stimuli when they were / are written...
Merry Christmas Orik!
And an Upcoming Happy New YEars..
hi Russ and Starfish i hope you had a merry christmas a happy boxing day and may i wish you a happy new year also...
Just a little update a day of my life and the obstacles i am going through
okay i went to lifelabs... they being the vampires who take my blood every Monday... can we say Ouch!... it took them 7 different needles & 8 different sticks to get 2 little vials of blood for my liver enzyme tests, my factor 8 tests on clotting levels, my billy Rubin levels my potassium lvls if my pottasium levels drop to low i can die from heart failure. just another problem i face with my fubared liver
amongst other things the one girl has 11 years experience and she still couldn't hit the broadside of a barn she stuck me 3 times... damn! ouch ! ouch! and a few other swear words... i would have loved to have used, but cause they are ladys i kept my swearing down to a minimum of 3 mumbled sons of a toad... a bugger me that hurts and 5 or so damnnnnn's ...
on another side note
i went to welfare to asked for some assistance so i can buy some food while waiting on my ei check to come through. providing they (EI/IE or whatever the hell u call those slow bastards) ever decide to issue me a payment.. welfare told me to use my credit cards or go to the food bank...
can you freaking believe the nonexistence of help available these days Shit! it is no wonder street people are so f*cked.. shit!... just cause i have good credit and don't owe my bank any money... is that any reason to be told to fuc_ off and use credit to live ? what the fu_k have i been paying EI premiums and TAXES all these god damned years for... if i am going to be left high and freaking dry here...
but if i use my credit cards then i go in to debt borrowing and spending money i don't have right ? and isnt that what got so many companies in trouble in the first place using my tax dollars and government assistance to bail them out ?
ok i have no problem going to the food bank... so i ask the social worker can you tell me when the food bank is what days it is open and how i can get their.... i had to ask cause i have never been their before... social services worker said to me look it up in a phone book ... now get out of my office... me i was like WTF !!!!
i left the office stunned and in complete disbieliefe that this is how they treat a none drug addicted person, a non alchoholic a man, a person free of serious mental health issues... i do have physicl health issues.. i do have acute liver failure and a liver thats fried... etcetra... so do i have to be completely fubar... before the goverment will assist me in any way shape or form???? bloody hell! i am running in circles and just want to scream...
ei says they will try to have a answer for me by jan 12 th sighs i know they will approve my damn claim but it is taking forever after i pay the rent tomorrow i will officially have less than 3 dollars in my bank account, for the first time in nearly 15 years... sighs.. so much for government services and help for the john q citizen... shit their is no help for john q citizen.... is it no wonder so many people end up on the streets as addicts or dead in some back lane ... cause when you turn and ask for some help nothing gets done... another week of this i will be selling my tv and electronics to eat...
food left in my house
1 garden salad. (that is supper for tonight)
2 muffins 1 chocolate 1 apple the chocolate muffin is dessert after my salad
2 cans of Campbell's chunky soup...
2 kilos of mixed frozen vegetables
4 1 litre pouches of chicken cup a soups
4 1 litre pouches of onion soup.
6 cans of diced tomatoes
2 cans of corn.
1/2 a lb of garlic cloves
1 can of grape juice concentrate
1 can orange juice concentrate
^ this is the food i have to last me untill Januaury 12 th
possibly a shorter period of time or possibly longer..
things at EI are said to be seriously back logged...
sighs
thank you
for listening to me complain...
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just got off the phone cause EI did not get my ROE record foemployment untill december 22nd... i might not actually get a decision for 21 more days. aperantly they dont make deciosions or payments...
arghhhhhhhhhhhh
walks off to silently weep in frustration now that i am done screaming
is it any wonder people go mad when the entire sytem of checks and balances is wieghted againsts actually assisting any one get anywhere in life but is designed to make them jump in front of a truck instead...
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is it any wonder people go mad when the entire sytem of checks and balances is wieghted againsts actually assisting any one get anywhere in life but is designed to make them jump in front of a truck instead...
Orik,
It's been a whle since I've had to apply for EI. But as I recall I had nerly the exact same thing happen to me 15 years ago.
Bastiges look for any excuse to delay and delay and delay and .... I personally thought that they were trying to starve you to death before the cheques came through - that way nobody would be able to cash them - thereby saving the EI fund a few hundred measley bucks and you - your life and / or dignity - probably a pretty good deal for the governemnt. Good luck with the ruthless bastards.
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thanks van_guy they are a bunch of ruthless bastards and they fight dirty...
I got a loan from my bank credit line. it is only 1000.00 but it is less expensive to use and the interest rate, is much lower than the credit card. i think it is prime plus 1 on pay back you can not beat that, not when my credit card is 19.99 percent interest... blah f*ck the credit card... the credit line is much much cheaper to use...so it works out much better
i like it when a plan comes together when i do get a checque from ei how far do they go back as far as my first day of work missed being oct 25th or is it the day i was admitted to hospital oct 31 or is it day i applied for ei Nov 26 th
i had the care worker help me apply while i was still in the hospital... im gona guess nov 24 rth would be the start.. and if i get the full amount at 435 a week assuming i don't get till Jan 12 th that would be 435 x 8 weeks or aproximatly 3480 dollars... that is only assuming ei pays me the full weekly maximum amount of 435..
i don't know what they will calculate my rate at... i know it is my 14 best weeks divided by something then multiplied by 55 percent to give me my base rate per week..
but even 435 per week is less than i earn while working... hell if i had worked full time my check for Dec including tax and the ot, i would of worked. Nov Dec and Jan are my best months for ot and earning huge money.. well my November earnings would of been including taxes roughly 2600 for the month.
December including tax & holiday pay, plus ot would of been close to 4000 and Jan would of been about average at aproximatly 2200 to 2400 for the month... :( i miss my job ... honestly though i don't miss my job that much, but i do miss the money that steady pay check..
as of yet I still have no check from EI and still no conclusion / resolution for approval of employment insurance cheques
i pay in to ei for over 10 plus years from this one employer. So now that i am ill and unable to work or to collect wcb.. i need to collect Ei.
Ei is not here for me. this is such bull shit. it makes me so mad i want to spit... witch if i could, i would spit in the face or the f*cking asshats incharge of this system, which seems more apt / designed to oppress and crush workers in dire need of asistence cause it sure as hell is not designed to help any one...
my rent is paid untill February first now... But i ended up putting myself in to debt to do so... I borrowed money from my line of credit, which i will have to pay back at 5 percent interest..which beats the credit card rate of 19 percent...
5 % interest on a 1000 dollar loan over 6 months is how much interest ?
and a 1000 dollar loan @ 19 % interest for 6 months is how much ?
well it sure is better to borrow on a credit line than to have to borrow on a credit card that is for sure... i just hate that i had to go into debt to live, i spent years getting out of debt, now i have to go back into it... sighs... sometimes i get so depressed i just wish to cry...
the good news I am no longer hungry my fridge and freezer are full. the cupboards are still pretty much empty, so when i see some good deals at army&navy i will stock up on the soups, stews, noodles and other dried and or canned goods...
i pray when i get really sad and deppressed but even that doesn't do much to cheer up my soul lately.. i miss my job... i never realized just how much i enjoyed my work nor did i realize just how much my very boring job completed me, until, i could no longer work... sighs...
so until my health improves my doctor wont sign the release forms for my union and my employer which give me permission to return to work letting me work. and untill he signs the work release my union and my employer will not let me work not even a desk job.... sighs...
for now i can only pray i get EI to settle and decide in my favor soon otherwise i am screwed... i can not keep going to the bank and borrowing money i do not have... just to live and supply my day to day needs ...
thats why we have a food bank and a welfare system. but what do oyu do when even the welfare system tells you to live on your credit cards...
i am also still awaiting on my disability pension, i also hope that is to come through soon... but who knew it would be so small it is only 610 dollars a month for my disability pension. shit my rent alone is 610 dollars a month..what would i do for food and bill money if i can not work...
sighs
the headache i have is huge and i can not take a asprin or tylenol to get rid of it. cause they are drugs that can damage the liver. and seeing that mine is fubar now as it is.. my enjoyment in life i would give 1/2 a star out of 5
forgive me
im going back to bed so no one can see me this deppressed and sad...
Orik,
Sorry to hear the UI guys still have your balls in a vice.
They do give up after a while.
So keep fighting the good fight.
Eventually they will crack.
All the best to you.
Dan
Thanks Van_Guy i hope they give in soon. cause i am near ready to crack. start cracking some skulls and windows down at the main office that is grrrrrr
EI finally approved the release of financial help. however begrudgingly they have covered me for the past 6 weeks. since November 2nd
first week 216 dollars ... which is not even 1/2 what i used to make...
sighs.. what a crock of shit... the other 5 cheques are 310 per week about 50 percent of what i used to earn, when i was working. so i now have a monthly income of 1240 dollars before taxes...
so of that 1240 dollars
how much should i put aside for my taxes ? can any one tell me.
before when i was earning a paycheck at 2500 a month i paid a grand total of 810 a month to federal, provincial taxes a portion to ei & 2.5 % to the union for union dues and extended medical.each month i lived on approximately 1700 - 2100 a month after taxes ( depending on over time)
now i live on half of that and have to pay my own taxes... sighs... in 9 weeks i then go to my union hat in hand and beg for their help once my sickness benifits with EI run out. hopefully My disability claim will have been approved by this time...
i know how to apply fora disability pension.. but how do i apply as disabled for my tax return because this is a prolongend illness and will be with me many months from now untill i recover or die...
the best i can hope for is a general recovery that will let me to return to my job as i knew it.
worst case scenario i never get to return to my job...so what would i do then ??? my life was my job i actually enjoyed my work. sure i loved to complain about it, but who doesn't ? i also loved going to work every morning except when it's raining or snowing hehehe but who doesnt hate that weather... especialy those of us who work out side 9 to 14 hrs a day..
i have limited job skills from else where.. seeing that there is not much call for quality controll in the herring or salmon fisheries anymore. And as a security guard who can not physicaly restrain someone, cause they can't see. cause of sudden on set of a miagrain or because they cant stand cause they are to busy throwing up that day...
sighs or any one of a half dozen other mitigating health issues in my life.. I cut my self shaving this morning. it took over 30 minutes for the cut to stop bleeding and this was using ice and compression the cut was a very small nick something thta used to heal and stop bleeding in under 2 minute when i was at 100 percent good health.. since i got sick i do not clot so well. something to do with that damned liver again.
forget about taking a tylenol or asprin for a headache or general aches and pains.. just cant do it... or cold and flu medications. antibiodics.. pretty much any drug i take has to be done cautiously and under care of a pysician... cause most medications are processed through the liver...
well thats all i got to say for now.. will keep you all updated about my health and other situations.. sighs and what the hell gives with all these god damned zits i never even had this many as a freaking teenager.. christ i shower daily i wash my face 2 times a day and yet my skin is still oily...
my eyes are still yellow. my skin is no longer so yellow but definetly off clolour still... grumbles and complaints and the pain from the liver still makes sleeping difficult sometimes... from insomnia to fatigue i either sleep to much or not at all...
bonus is i no longer smoke... i have saved almost 600 dollars by not smoking for the past 2.5 months.
thank you Michel.it is nice to know people actualy read my blurbage or is that blogage mmm perhaps its blobage... =D anyway you look at it i am still big except in the pocket book
i got out for a bike ride today.. and it felt great.. provided their is more sunshine tomorrow... and i feel good... i will go out again... maybe even sit in the park and enjoy some sunshine and if im lucky no hookers or junkies will bug me
and if i am really lucky i might even enjoy the view of some pretty lady's walking past... hopefully nobody will be vomiting or shooting up drugs tomorrow... I will take my camera and if i see anything weird, interesting or maganda ( meaning beautiful ) i might even take a picture or 3 ..
Glad you got out. And, congrats on getting your EI backpaid!
Don't stress out about the future, seriously. Take care of you and your health, and take each day as it comes. You've come a long way since your initial sickness in Nov.
The future is uncertain for everyone (including us working folks)...it seems like 2009 is going to be a year of uncertainty and change for many people. Most of us don't feel financially stable, so you're not alone in that regard. In our case, we're trying to keep our expenses low, just in case of disaster.
thank you Little Me i shall do what i can to not stress to much over the future. it can be difficult. i am just so used to working and having earnings.
since getting sick i don't know what to do with myself. i still spend lots of time sleeping but that's the fatigue. most days its hard just to get up but i do it cause i have to i ignore the pain. most of the pain levels are manageable...
thankfully i do not need to go out to often. Stongs and EZgrocer offer home delivery... prices are fairly good, but not great... it is still cheaper to go by bus...
it just depends on the values u can save and how much u have to spend... thankfully the vegetable market is 10 min bicycle ride away and the butcher is 5 min away... army and navy for some other basics and save on meats and dry goods for others...
i can get almost everything i need with in 3 miles of my house. it is just time consumption and energy levels.. sometimes the pain is so bad i can barely move 5 feet so you can even forget about traveling the few blocks needed to get to some of these stores.
budgeting is always something i have been semi good with. if i didn't have my small savings account i owuld be hard pressed. i would not have survived until now Imagine if i had bad credit or owed money on a credit card... good lord,,,
i had to live on my meager savings and borrow on my credit line from the bank... which i paid back already. I've paid my rent this month and set aside next months rent and still have 400 for groceries and basic needs... oh yeah bills are paid till the 25 of February also...
i can manage my own money fairly well... this was never a blog asking for help. other than prayer.. no one even sent me a dime except mom who sent cash instead of a Christmas presents... that was very useful, for i spent it on fresh and frozen goods... and bought 4 new but used paper back books which will give me some joy for about 2 months. i am much slower at reading things. anyways i need to hit the shower now and see the doctor i nthe clinic... so back to blog more and spew forth more blurbage on other threads later... :D ciao
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a girl friend of mine gave me her old samsung digimax a model d53 camera, so now i have a slightly newer and cooler cam to snap photos with.
now if i can find one of those small SD memory cards. it is one of the older model 2 gigabyte cards. meaning it can not be one of the new cards with the speed multipliers. anyways it's a way better camera than the fujifilm one. so once i get a digital card for it.
I gonna try to get out for some more digitization of the east side and other areas, i try to bike around a little, the more my health improves the further and longer i can go out each day or night.
hopefully i can find some things worth photographing... at this time, my favorites things to photograph are sun and shadows specifically times of sunrises and sunsets but those are a hard time for me to be out. next favorite time for picture taking is from 11 am until 1 pm.
i will try to get to futureshop on Sunday, providing i am feeling well enough, even if some days, i am just to sick or just to fatigued to get out. that's the one thing i don't like about this liver illness. the fatigue makes me feel like i am being lazy or something but im not, i just have no energy at all.
the nausea that comes with my being sick. i can live with the nausea but i can do with out the vomiting that's even worse... blah... but the pain that comes with it and the itching i get sometimes those are next to impossible to manage.
i can take the hydro-morphine medication for managing the pain and benadryl for the itching, but the side effects are even more fatigue caused by the medication. it also launches the brain matter in to la la land (meaning it makes a person really damned stoned)
being all dopey is never a good thing and their is always a risk of a accidental overdose, i rember a a couple of years back i made that mistake of double dosing o nthe pain killers. that was very scarey...
besides i am slow and stupid enough with out adding the idiocy that comes from being spaced out from pain medications on top of it..
3 things i want but do not realy need.
1 a computer that is not slower than a dual core 3 giga hertz machine. this single processor i am using is a over clocked cpu it is over clocked from 1.8 to 2.02 giga hertz. it has 32 megs video onboard sound and is so slowwwwwwwwwww
when my 3.2 giga hertz dual core melted down 6 months ago i have had to use this old beasty and i am so wanting to give it away to a good church as a donation once i replace it... i never want to see it again... ( though i am super happy i had it when my new system blew up)
2. a new memory card.. so i caan get out and take more pictures of the city i love and hate.
3. a new scooter to replace the one i lost those things cost a ton of money, it took me 8 months to save up for it. ... similar to this one.. but mine was black and yellow
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they seem more stable and need less repairs than the scooters. but with a price from 2,500 to 4,300 plus for the e-bikes i just don't know. i will never afford one of those anyway legally soon...
spare change to buy a bike sir / mam ...
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Hi Orik, have you had any news of Pepper since she left?
Meowaid has not returned my calls :( i think they think i am a bad daddy cause pepper is now up for adoption... and i only wanted to find her some sponsers a foster home till my health is restored enough and my house is per friendly... bed bugs r still here cockroaches still rule this mess...
i miss my baby so very much gopher so what am i to do now :( she needs a safe place and mine is not realy pet safe anymore hell its not very human safe either...
I Miss my baby. [a href="http://www.meowaid.org/adoptiongallery/Pepper.html"]Pepper Furball Smurf
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i miss her so much...
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Orik wrote:
Meowaid has not returned my calls :( i think they think i am a bad daddy cause pepper is now up for adoption... and i only wanted to find her some sponsers a foster home till my health is restored enough and my house is per friendly... bed bugs r still here cockroaches still rule this mess...
i miss my baby so very much gopher so what am i to do now :( she needs a safe place and mine is not realy pet safe anymore hell its not very human safe either...
I Miss my baby. [a href="http://www.meowaid.org/adoptiongallery/Pepper.html"]Pepper Furball Smurf
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i miss her so much...
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Sorry to hear this dude. Must be tough.
more than you know.ex-dver more than yuu know. all i can think about is pepper and how lonely she must be how hurt she must feel thinking im cruel and heartless to put her in such a scary noisy place...
how alone she must feel missing me and crying over me as much as i am over her..
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Orik wrote:
more than you know.ex-dver more than yuu know. all i can think about is pepper and how lonely she must be how hurt she must feel thinking im cruel and heartless to put her in such a scary noisy place...
how alone she must feel missing me and crying over me as much as i am over her..
(http://i34.tinypic.com/4jn79i.jpg)exscuse me im gonna go cry again (http://i31.tinypic.com/2uscppl.jpg)
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She's certainly a lovely kitty.
that she most certainly is EX-DVer
Pepper was adopted by a very kind lady in Richmond. Pepper is apparently not being very friendly or cuddly. i think she is afraid or her new surroundings she has never lived anywhere but with me b4. i can only hope she will turn around and go back to her normal kittenish self.but she is only used to a big man in her life so a woman 24 / 7 near is new. but do animals really notice a difference in sexes ?
as for me my health has been a bit shaky the past few days. with confusion shakiness, dizziness and some other health problems. In a few hours from now, I have to go back to the hospital, for some specialized tests that can not be done elsewhere, such as the ammonia levels and some other things, it's not something i completely understand. i just know, i hate hospitals I am sick of them. also doing x-rays though i don't understand why i guess i will find out why later.
for those of you who care, please keep me in the back of your minds with a crossed fingers, well wishes good thoughts and or prayers. depending what your choice for positive well wishing is.
to be honest i am anxious and afraid that the new tests will turn out badly I just don't know these days... things are still slowly getting better... instead of being 100 times normal in asl ? lvl billy rubin ast & ir... not sure what it all is. ir is the clotting levels which is back to normal.ranges once again and thats a very good thing. It means no more blood platelet transfusions or special k drugs to raise it up... trust me i swear special k in liquid form is one of the most foul substances in taste known to man.
anyways, I am tired and don't feel well. only slightly better than i did yesterday. I will keep you all updated as things move along as i find out so will you i guess. for now im heading back to bed. before i have to head back to that damned cesspool of a hospital. did i mention how much I hate hospitals.
I'm delighted that Pepper has been adopted, I hope she'll settle in soon and start showing her true personality. It must be a bit scary for her moving from one place to another.
As for your health, well I'll keep my fingers crossed for you and hope that by the time spring comes you'll be a new man.
All the dogs I've had have preferred men to women.
thank you Michel.
Orik,
All the best. I hope the alphabet soup of tests that you get turn out AOK.
VG.
Thank you van guy
so far no phone calls asking me to come into the doctors office to discuss my recent tests, so that means nothing to serious. or they just might not have got them all back yet. i am feeling better this week and i feel stronger health wise much more so than i was last week. My thinking feels clearer and not so spaced out. I am not feeling confused.
My doctor wanted to 911 my behind back to the hospital last week cause i was feeling that punched out... but i refused maybe not a good idea, I just hate the thought of spending more time in that overcrowded noisy and cramped environment from hell. I would much rather die in my own home than a be damned hospital bed.
I am not sure she understand my reasons.. but i think i am justified in wanting to be in a place i am familiar and happy with.. my own home access to my own laundry and tv and a computer everyday something i can not get in the hospital without paying through the nose for.
am i wrong on this should i really go back to a hospital bed that can not offer me anything except more drugs doctors nurses and tests... ? which as of this moment are not able to improve my health or my life anymore than it already is ? it is up to my body to heal its self the doctors did all they could which was nothing more than monitor me and give me pain medications something i can do from home and the clinic...
sighs...
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Health update.
I like not being sick. my liver is almost normal again. my health will be many months recovering but my liver is returning to normal... my doctor thinks what was making me sick last week was the pain killers i was using so by not using any I am feeling better. only problem is my chronic pains from previous life injurys hurt something awefull but i guess being in pain and hardly able to walk is still better than being sick all he time...
gives off small cheer for joy.
maybe this time next month i can have a small Saki to go with my sushi to celebrate. I have to see what happens and what the specialist says, but my GP she is very impressed with how much i have recovered from tests scores of 100 to 1000 times normal to scores of only 3 to 10 times normal...
the after affects of my liver illness may take many weeks to fully recuperate from. :( but who cares.. i am alive and to me this is great news... baring any unforeseen incidences, seeing that no one is sure what caused my liver to fail the first time.
its all just a matter of wait and see . i hate the hurry up and wait thing... i want to be back to work like yesterday. and damnit all i miss having a pint at the #5 orange while watching the strippers dance... well here is to my continued good health, my continued speedy recovery, and my thanks to all of you for your prayers and good wishes. Cheers to all of you thank you. (http://i457.photobucket.com/albums/qq300/DeOoitGroeneApotheek/Beer.gif)
gives off small cheer for joy.
maybe this time next month i can have a small Saki to go with my sushi to celebrate. I have to see what happens and what the specialist says, but my GP she is very impressed with how much i have recovered from tests scores of 100 to 1000 times normal to scores of only 3 to 10 times normal...
Orik,
That is amazing news.
Cheers to you and your happy liver...
How about beginning a member of a compassion club for the pain?
Michel wrote:
And all those dogs were named Fifi. lol
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No, mine didn't have the same names as yours.
what do dogs named fifi have to do with anything in this thread ?
stretch. i gave up smoking chronic back in 93 at the same time I quit using all drugs for pleasure. I temporarily used marijuana for pain relief from 2000 - 2002 for pain medication with my back injury's and during my time in a wheelchair.
I ceased using chronic to control my chronic pain when i realized i was spending more per week on munchies than i was on medication. also some other side effects dry mouth. stupid thinking, impulse buying of family sized Slurpee and Doritos... and mild paranoia, panic attacks etc. thank you but no.
i will stay a none user of marijuana until they figure out a way to deliver the benefits without the side effects. the munchies and dry mouth the stupid fuzzy thinking, and in really bad side effects, panic attacks paranoia hyper active senses etc. so until lthey can give me a medication with out those side effects i will JUST SAY NO.
so the idea of going back to smoking ganja, thanks, but no thanks. for now i will live with the pain, while on my good days go out for bike rides and on my bad ones stay wrapped up in a blanket in bed.
And now for some very good news .. who wants join me for Saki and sushi... my liver is 100 percent normal and functional once more.. my health is not yet optional for returning to work.. but i am healthy enough to be allowed to have a small nip or a single pint again... waaahooo
and now in the words of my liver specialist. You have come a long way continue to take it one day at a time modern science kept you alive but your faith kept brought you back to full health were you were dieing and beyond the help of modern science and of the hospital you recovered and recuperated against all odds... you are proof that faith and prayer do work. His words not mine.
Amen
thanks be to God.
Orik wrote:
And now for some very good news .. who wants join me for Saki and sushi... my liver is 100 percent normal and functional once more.. my health is not yet optional for returning to work.. but i am healthy enough to be allowed to have a small nip or a single pint again... waaahooo
and now in the words of my liver specialist. You have come a long way continue to take it one day at a time modern science kept you alive but your faith kept brought you back to full health were you were dieing and beyond the help of modern science and of the hospital you recovered and recuperated against all odds... you are proof that faith and prayer do work. His words not mine.
Amen
thanks be to God.
Very good news indeed!!
Thats awesome news Orik.. I know its been a long and difficult road for you as seen here on DS in your threads.
Im very glad you have stayed the route, resisted teh temptation, and now have a functioning liver.
Have they given you any ideas as to when you will have to go back for a final checkup?
Sorry for the verbose and seemingly nonsensical verboge. but these r partial replies to dv content just copy and pasted here.
Hey this sucks DV offers no way to edit my replies what the f*ck gives with that.... no wonder i preffer to post on DS and DATW
I work and live in the east side. i am classified as working poor. with my recovering from a liver ailment i was on sick benefits from EI..those ran out march 8th, i received my last suport check from Ei on March 14... i am destitute and on Monday I go to welfare. I am currently still to sick to return to work full time.. i have a ultrasound on the 23 if that is clear my doctor will sign the union forms allowing me to return to work for may 1st. I will not be able or permitted to return to physicaly demanding work but i can do desk work and partial patrols as long as it does not get physical. I feel i will be capable of doing my duties with restraint.
6 months of living on my life's savings and 15 weeks of EI...my entire life's savings is now gone. my bank account is currently overdrawn to the tune of 52 dollars and change... my credit card for the first time ever is maxed out... if my doctor wont let me work.... my union wont let me work... and my being to sick to do a regular 9 - 5 ... what does a man do..
living here is not cheap my rent in a subsidized apartment is 610 and about to go up to 650 per month ... and the wait list to get in the 550 dollar bachelor suites is 3 to 5 years... and some of the bcbc run buildings wait lists are 5 to 10 years long... rents are cheaper though and the buildings tend to be a bit better run and cleaner...
i could just rent a SRO (single room ocupancy) hotel room... providing i can find a room... they have no bathrooms... no sinks & no kitchens.. all amenities are shared. Most SRO's do not have shared or comunal kitchens... but one does manage to have a roof and a 8 by 8 room all for only for a cost of 350 to 450 per month... so is a SRO really worth moving into?
life in the downtown eastside is cheap... the problems are immense, sand the solutions... well every one has a solution... I am just waiting to see and hear one that actually works
in the mean time back to my sign and sitting near the Gastown steam clock saying
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pay pal
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Well that finishes all the paper work and rig amoral of applying for welfare. welfare gives the qualified employable male a grand total of 610 dollars a month. (http://www.discovervancouver.com/forum/style_emoticons/default/sad.gif%22%20style=%22vertical-align:%20middle;%22%20emoid=%22:(%22%20alt=%22sad.gif) my monthly rent is 610 dollars a month. (http://www.discovervancouver.com/forum/style_emoticons/default/blink.gif%22%20style=%22vertical-align:%20middle;%22%20emoid=%22:blink:%22%20alt=%22blink.gif) to make matters worse, on July first it goes up to 650 (http://www.discovervancouver.com/forum/style_emoticons/default/angry.gif%22%20style=%22vertical-align:%20middle;%22%20emoid=%22:angry:%22%20alt=%22angry.gif) now providing. welfare even gives me a check...it will only pay my rent for the month thus keeping me from homelessness..
if they don't grant me a subsidy check ad cost of living alowance i will be screwed.. i am gonna be shitting in a shoe box under a bridge. if they do it will only pay my rent. so food and bills are going to be a slight problem.
so just how the bleeding hell can anyone person live on 610 dollar a month for rent and support in this city (http://www.discovervancouver.com/forum/style_emoticons/default/mad.gif%22%20style=%22vertical-align:%20middle;%22%20emoid=%22:mad:%22%20alt=%22mad.gif) no wonder so many folks are homeless. (http://www.discovervancouver.com/forum/style_emoticons/default/mad.gif%22%20style=%22vertical-align:%20middle;%22%20emoid=%22:mad:%22%20alt=%22mad.gif)
these next 2 months are going to be a very difficult for me... it will take a minimum of 4 maybe 5 paychecks to get myself back to good standing with my credit and bills... to get myself back out of debt.. so until i get my first paycheck... i am going to be stressed out.... providing my doctor signs off and lets me return to work.
if i can get some directions... which way to the food bank please ?.. and no i am not joking honestly how do i get to the Vancouver food bank please.
in my freezer i have 2 kg of badly freezer burned vegetables... 4 chicken burgers & 6 sausage rounds. in the fridge 6 slices cheese 1 loaf of bread 6 eggs 6 soft (possibly still edible) onions. condiments.. soy sauce ketchup relish mustard and brbq sauce in my cupboard there is 8 cans of diced tomatoes, 4 cans of lentils, 2 cans of cambels chunky soup...
life in the down town east side....this city... how wonderful... the most beautiful place on earth in the world.. i think not... the government is selling us snake oil... and blowing hot air up our asses.. time for a change get out and vote show Grodon Campbell he can go to hell... tell him he is FIRED
on the plus side the only good point is i am still alive to be worried about tomorrow [!-- google_ad_section_end --] [!--IBF.ATTACHMENT_3999557--] and can still bitch about today..
thanks for listening to me rant..
You're welcome. However, all is not lost, you've still got your sense of humour.
My dear friends and enemies. some might rejoice or others will feel bad. my liver has taken a turn for the worst. it is once again barely functioning and i have been ordered to return to the emergency room at the hospital
i expect to be in the palliative care ward once more for a few days. exactly how long i don't know. i will try to post updates if i can. pls pray for me light a candle. it worked last time and i am a firm believer in God angels and prayer. thank u god bless
this is a very bad time for me. finacialy this is going to cripple me. i am a pauper from the last time and just returned to work. i am in other words forgive these words currently f*cked sighs and i never even got kissed first. needless to say i am once more worried over my health and the potential outcome. at least this time it has been caught early and it maybe reversible. but i just dont know.
until I know whats going on please just pray for full healing or a match for a new liver.even though i know some one else will have died to bring me renewed life.
thanks
signed
Devan
Orik, all the best. I trust that things will work out for you.
VG
thank you van guy
I trust in God
I have faith in Christ
I Believe in angels prayer and miracles
Thoughts and Prayers go out to you. I have a strong feeling things will be fine.
-bl
Look after yourself and be a good patient!
Oh, Orik, I'm so sorry to hear your news. Keep up your spirits......if possible.
Take care, dude.
Take it one day at a time and don't stress about the future.
"But blessed is the man who trusts in the LORD,
whose confidence is in him. [SUP id=en-NIV-19366 class=versenum value="8"][FONT size=2]8[/FONT][/SUP] He will be like a tree planted by the water
that sends out its roots by the stream.
It does not fear when heat comes;
its leaves are always green.
It has no worries in a year of drought
and never fails to bear fruit."
Jeremiah 17:7-8
Do they even know what's wrong ? I mean...they know it isn't functioning properly, but do they know why it isn't functioning properly.
as of yet they do not currently understand, what is wrong with my liver, they just know it is not functioning proporley. just lots of tests and possibly another biopsy, at the current moment in time, thier is some discusiion about it being wilsons disease... very rare disease but can be manageneged through medication... forgive my spelling and the fact it has taken me so long to post a update tyhey have me in a diffrent wing this time and nurses tend to protect their pc's making it much harder to commendeer one to post a update. but i did manage to get down to the computer lab and borrow a pc at least untill security catches me =D hehe just kidding...
i have some great pictures but no way to post them and some cool video too. but alas i can not do so from this pc. if i can get a day pass for saturday, i will post them when i go home to do laundry and do my banking and stuff. being monitored 24 hrs a day sucks, i had to cancel a date with a most beautiful chinese girl today, cause i can not get a pass to go out on a bedamned dinner date... thank god for mp3 players, metalica and kid rock... wish i had some nickleback to go along with my tunes.. but for now Cfox 99.3 in the mornings to listen to helps alot...
i am incredably disgouraged right now and incredably lonely...
so any one feeling up to doing the insane mundane and coming to visit me at
saint pauls hospital is more than welcome vistors hours are 8 am to 8 pm
you might want to call ahead to make sure, i have not been in for surgery, a biopsy medicated to the teeth, or released, or anything else ( died ) ... currently i am in the over flow patient lounge...
Saint Paul's Hospital Providence Building 7-C 1081 Burard Street. Room 7029
604 684 6532 extension 67783 if u have 2 ask for nursing station 7-C then ask for David in Room 7029 and hope the nurses are not to bloody ticked off with me that day.
I am a most horrid patient. i have been told a couple of times to mind my languange and manners. apperantly nurses don't like it when u swear =D they also don't like any back sass hahaha but some r sure cute ;) right SilentHillNurse :P
I am incoragable as some pinay girls said it i am a makulit mataba baboy... a stubborn fat pig
I like to think of myself more as a Horny Toad or Na Malibog Palaka but more restrained than G.G. =P
remember life is short do some thing wild and crazy... such as ohh I don't know.... come visit me perhaps...
sighned
The Fat Frog
The Flatulant Frog
David
Orik
Hey David/Orik
Just a quick note. Very sorry to hear about this relapse. You help me feel better by your upbeat posts, lol.
Thinking of you and hope for all the best for you.
As they say and as I'm trying to learn, ODAT.
Hang in there my man...
exDVer
Orik hang in there.
Yeah i used to date a nurse - try dealing with one for 16 hours a day !! Crikey.
I'd pop in on you - but alas I'm a few thousand km away.
I'll post a few pics - hopefully I can find some to cheer you up ... did you like the buzzards one ???
All the best,
VG.
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Sure = they are really a happy bunch - just misunderstood.
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Sure = they are really a happy bunch - just misunderstood.
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Wow Van Guy, great pics. Where on this great big earth are you right now? And, if I'm not too nosy, what broadly speaking are you doing in such an intriguing place?
just a note to let you all know, they might have a transjugular biopsy planned for me today. if they can not do this one, they might just go through with the into the liver via my side, fire the gun and long needle through the layers of flubber and pray they hit the liver and not a damned lung or other important bits.
the transjugular biopsy is a tad risky the risk is 1 in 10,000 of death on the transjugular. not so sure on the side biopsy... but this will give them more information, we hope ( we meaning doctoros and i ) and i pray will tell them, 1. how seriously damaged my liver is and if i will need a new one any time soon... 2. if it is wilsons disease praying that this is the answer maybe the best thing to do. it can be controlled with medication and people recover pretty well. and they tend to go on and live fairly normal lives... sighs
needless to say i am not to happy but i am not not scared silly either, just worried, a little nervous and a tad anxious... I will see u if i see u. ingat, god bless, take care. love you. and if i dont make it. i will miss you all, but im pretty good at winning the lottery... so maybe i can miss the odds on this one
so untill tommorrow my friends. let us pray. dear God...
gotta go, time for my blood transfusion . prior to surgery... hugs kisses and :love
Come back soon - and relatively intact. I really do hope all goes well.
exDVer wrote:
[div style="font-style: italic;"]Wow Van Guy, great pics. Where on this great big earth are you right now? And, if I'm not too nosy, what broadly speaking are you doing in such an intriguing place?[/div]
I'm working in Northern Mexico near a small city of Navojoa, near the Baja Peninsula.
Broadly speaking - I am looking for gold and copper. I'm a geologist.
Orik wrote:
gotta go, time for my blood transfusion . prior to surgery... hugs kisses and :love
All the best Orik.
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All good thoughts for Orik.
And thanks Van Guy. Cool!
The biopsy did not go well. i bled a fair bit afterword and drained 2 bags of plasma. not as bad as last years i had 5 bags a of plasma back then it might have been 10.... anyways. the biopsy went fairly bad :( i am sad and hurt the pain was bad i swore plentifully . they have to do another biopsy on Monday. i am out on a day pass to do laundry mail and some other odds and ends today...
i have a couple of pics but i don't realy want to post them... sighs and i sure as hell am not looking forward to another biopsy. i have a pretty high pain threshold but having a foot long needle fired in to your side hurts and then it takes a 1/2 inch of ur liver out think of it like a pair of pliers pinching u really hard for a nano second and some one punching u just below the rib cage with a knuckle punch. ur bruised and sore for a few days after wards... and cause the liver works badly ur clotting levels r not good so ur prone to heavy bleeding. which is very risky for guys my size... sighs...
any one want to look up wilsons disease and post me some info on it ?
im tired and groggy and need a nap while i do my landry. will post a couple of pics in a few min if i dont sleep to long.
the biopsy went badly so they have to redo it on Monday. im not such a happy man now knowing i have to go through the pain of another one and the risks that come with it... [img]http://discoveralltheworld.com/Smileys/classic/sad.gif" alt="Sad" border="0"]
but those pics i have here u go and info on [a href="http://digestive.niddk.nih.gov/ddiseases/pubs/wilson/"]Wilson disease 1 in 40,000 can get it not 1 in 33,000 i guess i should pay more attention.[/a]
Sorry eevery1 I had to edit and delete the blank spots after SOME changes over at photo bucket and image hosting I seem to have lost access to my images on those sites loss of my accounts passwords and other features, time for a nap
Orik wrote:
the biopsy went badly so they have to redo it on Monday. im not such a happy man now knowing i have to go through the pain of another one and the risks that come with it... [img style="font-style: italic;" src="http://discoveralltheworld.com/Smileys/classic/sad.gif" alt="Sad" border="0"]
Orik,
I hope things look up for you soon...
A couple more pics for you. I remember you liked shots of the sky.
The first was last night from a wall mart (yikes) in Obergon (I like the name of the city - it sound like a place Gandalf would hang out - no?)
The second was today at work. It was sunny and 42 degrees or so.
All the best,
VG
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Thank you every one for you well wishes good thoughts and prayers. i appreciate them immensely.
Mondays Biopsy went well the pain is 3 times worse than it was on Friday. but the dilauded dosage has gone up, so no complaints when they give u pain killers that shoot one to the moon i guess. but when the pain killers wear off ouch!...
they discharged me earlier this afternoon and I am once more recovering at home.
now it is just a matter of waiting healing and hopping that answers will follow soon on th diagnoses on whether or not it is Wilson's disease and how far the or how much the liver is actually damaged . I do not know how long i shall have to wait for the answers or if they will even have all the answers... but i am happy to be at home now...
van guy love the pics of the sky. the second shot is brilliant it looks like the light of God is leaking out through the holes of heaven ... [a href="http://photos-c.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc1/hs082.snc1/4559_211317140467_854865467_7158242_7117189_n.jpg" target="_blank"]http://photos-c.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc1/hs082.snc1/4559_211317140467_854865467_7158242_7117189_n.jpg[/a]
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All the best Orik, hang there in there big man! (http://discoverseattle.net/forums/richedit/smileys/Happy/10.gif)
You are VERY welcome for the shots.
Get better - soon.
Sweatin' in Sonora
VG
[a href="http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/15690074" target="_blank"]http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/15690074[/a]
[a href="http://digestive.niddk.nih.gov/ddiseases/pubs/cirrhosis/" target="_blank"]http://digestive.niddk.nih.gov/ddiseases/pubs/cirrhosis/[/a]
thank you everyone i am holding on the best i can. but not doing very well at it. i am currently on some pain medications so that helps for the next 5 to 10 days.1-2, 2mg pills every 4 - 6 hrs as needed 1 refill if needed... at the rate i am recovering from the double biopsy, that is going well so i wont need the pain meds very long. but my liver is doing very bad, the results of my biopsy are back and its not Wilson's disease. so my specialist is stymed at to what is causing my illness.
the specialist is puzzled as to what is causing my liver to fail. i am showing extreme signs of the hepatitis ( inflammation of the liver, it is swollen approximately 2 x its normal size) and the liver damage is very bad when compared to 7 months ago [img]http://discoveralltheworld.com/Smileys/classic/sad.gif" alt="Sad" border="0"] it is now showing heavy cirrhosis and end stage liver fibrosis....
. i have to see another liver specialist my specialist wants a second opinion and this guys all ready one of the damned best... things r now so bad a liver transplant is looking like my only option at survival, but the sad truth is most people die waiting for a liver. and that's all i know right now.
i have to redo all the same tests every 2 weeks (thankfully its just the blood tests) to see if things change for the better or the worse. if they get worse, its back into hospital. sighs, i really hate the hospital, i really hate being sick and right now i am sick and tired of being sick & tired not to mention the pain . forgive me im feeling sorry for myself and am gonna go have a good scream.
bye for now
Thanks for the update Orik. Thoughts are with you.
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Orik,
Hoping things are going OK for you ...
Hi Van_Guy I am not feeling much better. I am just happy to still be alive.
but I am writing my will. and making arrangements for my own funeral and have yet to decide on who will be the one to handle my last wishes in-case i am unable to do so. I do not want my family to have to deal with all of this. it is bad enough i have to deal with my own mortality at such a young age. sighs. i am over the anger at my disease. but i do get very depressed and find my self in states of catatonic sadness for no reason what so ever.
as for happiness and laughter some days it is hard to find a reason to get out of bed. but i do so anyways. i have returned to work, i have lost a lot of weight cause i don't eat to well and when i do i get sick. either i vomit or i get the shits.. am i sharing to much info... probably. do any of you give a shit or care about me i doubt it. but i post it anyways. cause i have no one else to tell and share this shit with . might as well tell you freaks of nature .. right ?
question how do you pick person to handle the stuff when u are no longer capable of doing so ? some one who will make sure my last wishes are followed. who will make sure i am not put on advanced life support and make sure i am not resuscitated. i do not want to be kept alive by machines...
when my body is dead and my mind is gone, i don't want some machines trying to keep me alive after i have left... and i sure as bloody hell don't want to spend the last few months, weeks or days of my life in a be-damned, jail cell of a hospital bed.
hell Canadian jails are more comfortable than our shit hole hospitals beds like for Gods sake they put me in a God-Damned lounge its not even meant to house the sick. it was supposed to be used for patient entertainment...
but they did away with that cause their is no money for our health system.. a system that is bankrupt... why do we reward our doctors and nurses for a fu-ked up system... if England can manage its money and medical system and Switzerland can also... why cant we ?
why do we reward our politicians for shooting us in the back. hell our own government is bent us over the couch and is Fu_king us over on a daily basis and we r laying here begging them to fu_k... us again and again . when the hell are we going to have a Canadian revolution and overthrow the incompetent bastards in government
they are over spending our tax dollars on useless shit like winter Olympics giving them selves pay raises and nice little retirment packages worth hundreds of thousands of dollars. mean while we have immediate problems like our health-care system that need to be fixed first.
well i never voted for the Olympics.. but some 3 piece suit and tie monkey fudge packing ass-hat did. sighs.. can u tell i am a bit perturbed about the upcoming farce of a winter Olympics we should not be having ?
in the past 7 months i have spent over nearly 57 days in hospital beds or in a delirium on my bad days and i don't will not return to another one. the only decent compensation is that they do keep a person nicely dosed and sedated on dilauded. so at least i have no pain.
a additional side effect of that medication is i tend to love people and be a bit nicer than normal. now if only they could cure me of my horrible case of the horns... (http://www.discovervancouver.com/forum/public/style_emoticons/default/laugh.gif%22%20class=%22bbc_emoticon%22%20alt=%22:laugh:%22%5D%20perhaps%20i%20should%20take%20a%20page%20out%20of%20fornicators%20book%20of%20incredibly%20idiotic%20things%20to%20say%20to%20a%20woman%20nurse%20and%20ask%20her%20for%20a%20hand%20job%20%5Bimg%5D/forums/richedit/smileys/7.gif)
as for retuning to a hospital i will arrange a accident of my own... before i will let myself die in a hospital bed from the toxins and poisons that will kill me... if my liver goes tits up again... right now i am just waiting to see another liver specialist for a second opinion (apparently this guy also specializes in transplants) and to find out what my odds are of getting a matching donor for liver transplantation.
So until they know why my liver has failed and what the unknown entomology behind my hepatitis is they wont give me another liver i am to much of a risk in giving me a new one so they will give a liver to a younger man with better odds of survival... , if they cant stop my body form killing this one.
why give me a new liver? if it is just gonna get killed off, just like the one i have now... for medical reasons not yet diagnosed. sighs. or if i was Steve jobs... anyone want to bet he paid for his liver and paid big bucks while quite possibly even arranged for the matching liver to have a convenient accident .. but hey that's just crazy talk or is it..
and 911 was a inside job. the German Nazis blew up their own buildings .. and use dit as a excuse to take away legal rights... history is repeating itself ...
Obama is he even a natural born american.. i have not yet seen proof he was born a american..
Weapons of mass destruction did they ever find any ?
am i forgetting any new conspiracys .. other than the cloud seeding and experiments on weather control ?
time take some more[a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hydromorphone" class="bbc_url" title="External link" rel="nofollow"] Hydromorphone[/a] and escape into lala land and pretend everything is just fine.. maybe next time i will lie and say i am just fine instead...
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Orik wrote:
Hi Van_Guy I am not feeling much better. I am just happy to still be alive.
Well alive is a good thing ... much better than the alternative.
but I am writing my will. and making arrangements for my own funeral and have yet to decide on who will be the one to handle my last wishes in-case i am unable to do so. I do not want my family to have to deal with all of this. it is bad enough i have to deal with my own mortality at such a young age. sighs. i am over the anger at my disease. but i do get very depressed and find my self in states of catatonic sadness for no reason what so ever.
no matter what stage of life you are at it's good to have your will taken care of.
as for happiness and laughter some days it is hard to find a reason to get out of bed. but i do so anyways. i have returned to work, i have lost a lot of weight cause i don't eat to well and when i do i get sick. either i vomit or i get the shits.. am i sharing to much info... probably. do any of you give a shit or care about me i doubt it. but i post it anyways. cause i have no one else to tell and share this shit with . might as well tell you freaks of nature .. right ?
I am very used to discussing the consistancy of bowel movements and such. I work in the 3rd world a lot - as such this becomes part of regular conversation.
question how do you pick person to handle the stuff when u are no longer capable of doing so ? some one who will make sure my last wishes are followed. who will make sure i am not put on advanced life support and make sure i am not resuscitated. i do not want to be kept alive by machines...
well ... never an easy task. but the dnr (do not resescitate) is pretty easy ... i believe that hospitals must respect it. never done it myself but i had a GF who's mom was end stage pretty much everything and they let her slip away.
when my body is dead and my mind is gone, i don't want some machines trying to keep me alive after i have left... and i sure as bloody hell don't want to spend the last few months, weeks or days of my life in a be-damned, jail cell of a hospital bed.
A lot of people think that. obviously you have thought a lot about it. you are an adult. it is your descision.
hell Canadian jails are more comfortable than our shit hole hospitals beds like for Gods sake they put me in a God-Damned lounge its not even meant to house the sick. it was supposed to be used for patient entertainment...
but they did away with that cause their is no money for our health system.. a system that is bankrupt... why do we reward our doctors and nurses for a fu-ked up system... if England can manage its money and medical system and Switzerland can also... why cant we ?
from my perspective - canadaian hospitals are considerably better than chinese, mongolian and vietnamese hospitals ... never been to an indian hospital for the average joe - I'm guessing probably a lot worse - so most of the world populations hospitals suck much worse than ours!!
why do we reward our politicians for shooting us in the back. hell our own government is bent us over the couch and is Fu_king us over on a daily basis and we r laying here begging them to fu_k... us again and again . when the hell are we going to have a Canadian revolution and overthrow the incompetent bastards in government
again from my perspective the canadian gov't although FAR from perfect actually puts on a realistic impersonation of caring, and being relatively honest. in comparison i was handing out bribes to vietnamese gov't officials who a the very same instance were complaining about gov't corruption.
they are over spending our tax dollars on useless shit like winter Olympics giving them selves pay raises and nice little retirment packages worth hundreds of thousands of dollars. mean while we have immediate problems like our health-care system that need to be fixed first.
sure but was is 300 million (or a billion or 10 billion) going to do for our healthcare, it needs to be revamped but it needs to be a structural change not a few bucks thrown it's way.
well i never voted for the Olympics.. but some 3 piece suit and tie monkey fudge packing ass-hat did. sighs.. can u tell i am a bit perturbed about the upcoming farce of a winter Olympics we should not be having ?
so what are you really trying to say??? - don't hold back - just say it ; )
in the past 7 months i have spent over nearly 57 days in hospital beds or in a delirium on my bad days and i don't will not return to another one. the only decent compensation is that they do keep a person nicely dosed and sedated on dilauded. so at least i have no pain.
yeah a lot of people are in constant pain - with no possibilty of relief. I've never been in constant pain for more than a few days - so it's hard for me to relate - but i truly hope things get better for you.
a additional side effect of that medication is i tend to love people and be a bit nicer than normal. now if only they could cure me of my horrible case of the horns... [img style="font-style: italic;" src="http://www.discovervancouver.com/forum/public/style_emoticons/default/laugh.gif" class="bbc_emoticon" alt=":laugh:"] perhaps i should take a page out of fornicators book of incredibly idiotic things to say to a woman nurse and ask her for a hand job [img style="font-style: italic;" src="/forums/richedit/smileys/7.gif[/img]
there's an expression "you don't get what you don't ask for"
as for retuning to a hospital i will arrange a accident of my own... before i will let myself die in a hospital bed from the toxins and poisons that will kill me... if my liver goes tits up again... right now i am just waiting to see another liver specialist for a second opinion (apparently this guy also specializes in transplants) and to find out what my odds are of getting a matching donor for liver transplantation.
best of luck - probably not a great chance soon - but you have to keep hoping.
So until they know why my liver has failed and what the unknown entomology behind my hepatitis is they wont give me another liver i am to much of a risk in giving me a new one so they will give a liver to a younger man with better odds of survival... , if they cant stop my body form killing this one.
why give me a new liver? if it is just gonna get killed off, just like the one i have now... for medical reasons not yet diagnosed. sighs. or if i was Steve jobs... anyone want to bet he paid for his liver and paid big bucks while quite possibly even arranged for the matching liver to have a convenient accident .. but hey that's just crazy talk or is it..
well there is no doubt that there is a 2 tiered system - if you play for nhl or nba you get a different level of treatment than a "joe" like you or me.
and 911 was a inside job. the German Nazis blew up their own buildings .. and use dit as a excuse to take away legal rights... history is repeating itself ...
Obama is he even a natural born american.. i have not yet seen proof he was born a american..
Weapons of mass destruction did they ever find any ?
I'm with you!! Not sure about Obama - but he seems a bit brighter than the last dude!
am i forgetting any new conspiracys .. other than the cloud seeding and experiments on weather control ?
time take some more[a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hydromorphone" class="bbc_url" title="External link" rel="nofollow"] Hydromorphone[/a] and escape into lala land and pretend everything is just fine.. maybe next time i will lie and say i am just fine instead...
Best of luck Orick - keep up the fight ...
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[font style="font-family: Arial Narrow;" size="4"]I am Gonna go take a nap hopefully I will feel better when I wake up, I took a full dose of maximum pain medication thats 4 x 1 MG of Dilauded and 2 X 400 MG of Advil and if this pain does not ease up by tomorrow morning. I'm gonna be a grumpy patient cause needless to say I will have to go back to the flaming dentist.
for those who do not know what Dilaudid or hydromorphone is this[a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hydromorphone"] wiki page [/a]has some good info on it.
My favourite quote when some one once described it to me [a href="http://www.ncpainmanagement.com/Dilaudid.htm"]Dilaudid[/a] is approximately 8 times more potent on a per milligram basis than morphine. It is often called drug store heroin on the streets. the other web site goes on to say that it is worth 50 to 60 bucks a pop on the street. I don't know about that...
But I doubt my 6 mg 12 hour dose caplets are worth 50 dollars. I do know they cost me 2 dollars each at the pharmacist and that since I switched over to these, the pain I used to be in is now manageable. So much so, I barely notice that I hurt' Sometimes I even walk with out a limp, I only wish that was all the time.
I still hurt at times but thankfully because of a simple change in medications, it is not anywhere like it used to be. I do not think anyone here can really relate what it is like to go to sleep at night whimpering & wanting to cry because the pain is so bad you can barely move. There was many a time I thought how easy it would be if I took my own life at least then I would finally be pain free.
Or those mornings one did not want to get out of bed cause the pain was so bad the light from the lamp is blinding you. because your eyes hurt and your head hurts, it all goes with the throbbing headache that you have, which is caused by the stress of your knotted muscles... which are caused from the pain your in... a never ending, rotating spiral of pain, on pain, on top of pain.
[/font] [h3 style="font-family: Arial Narrow; font-weight: normal; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);" class="r"] I was taken off of morphine and codeine back in 2008 when my liver went to hell. The dilauded is a little bit better and seems to have less side effect problems for me than the morphine. the morphine makes my skin itch something awful and then there is the nausea and many times i actually spent vomiting. but that vomiting might have been because of the liver problems and so might have been the itching. but some benadryl stopped the itching and switching to dilauded stopped the vomiting.
[/h3] [h3 style="font-family: Arial Narrow; font-weight: normal; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);" class="r"]Though there were a couple more instances after wards possibly proof it was not the morphine making me sick but the liver troubles I was undergoing at the time instead. I also take much less of this than some of the ones I used to use before they switched me over. I am now on 6 MG x 2 per day hydromorphone Contin (It lasts 8 to 12 hrs) a good day it lasts 12 hours However a bad day it lasts for as little as 6 hours
[/h3] [h3 style="font-family: Arial Narrow; font-weight: normal; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);" class="r"]I also take 1 mg X 4 per day of dilaudid combined with 200 mg X 4 per day of Advil this helps keep me relatively pain free when used in combination with the 2 x 12 hour dosage. Sometimes I can go with out the need to take the dilauded but that can lead to pain levels that get to be to much I end up in bed whimpering again.
[/h3] [h3 style="font-family: Arial Narrow; font-weight: normal; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);" class="r"]I have learned it is better to stick to a Time Schedule for taking these medications in order to keep my pain levels at a bare minimum. Normally the medications I take keeps my pain at a manageable level but every now and then on a day like today with my flaming tooth.
[/h3] [h3 style="font-family: Arial Narrow; font-weight: normal; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);" class="r"]I might have to take a full dose which is 4 MG and 2 X 400 MG of Advil which is hard on the stomach but I will take it with a chicken pot pie, my supper, so after that I will go to bed and have a nap.
[/h3] Side not My cold seems to be gone and my lungs are not as congested as before I have a appetite agauin and the spewtum is a nice clear healthy colour it is no longer green gunk. The cough seems to be completely gone... Now the bad news my Liver is still swollen on my right side and is rather painful to me however the surgical liver specialist I saw on the 12 was not, he just wants to run some more blood tests and confab with the other GI (gastrointestinal) specialist...
oh and my anaemia is not to high or to low. anaemia and factor 8 well its not really factor 8 it is something different something which causes my blood to thin I forgot what they called it. anyways they are a bit worse is to much of a chemical which prevents my blood from clotting and makes my blood to thin the other means I don't have enough iron
so basically I have to worry about bleeding to death if I get injured cause I take an extended length of time to clot properly and I don't know what the risks are with anaemia... =( well rent is paid for march. the bills are fully paid the credit card is paid off. and i have a little bit of cash, now if i can manage to stay out of debt and find a desk concierge job soon I should be all right
and that is my major updates for me. perhaps I should;d have put this in the I have nothing to say thread.. it's were I have done most of my writing. Maybe I should ask teh borken if it is possible to move some of my discombobulated multi thread ramblings oover to this one it's where I should of put it in the first place. Take for example many of the things I wrote on this [a href="http://discoverseattle.net/forums/index.php/topic,3983.0.html"]thread [/a]Could actually have been written here instead.... lol but oyu do have to agree I do know how to ramble about and say nothing interesting
peace time for medication supper and a early bed time
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.and a quick return to full health!
Thanks Gopher I will settle return to even half health ... or healthy enough to have at least 1 pint a week health... =( I do miss going out for a couple of pints at times.
Orik wrote:
Thanks Gopher I will settle return to even half health ... or healthy enough to have at least 1 pint a week health... =( I do miss going out for a couple of pints at times.
No beer...............Better at least be getting BJ'S..................FFS
LOL there is some money well spent, a blow job and a chocolate bar eah...ahahaha
I am not sure how many read these or even care but I post them anyways.
Sadly this is not a good morning. It is good that I awoke so I am at least not dead. It is bad that I am awake, I went to bed just before midnight and have slept approximately a total between 70 to 90 minutes in 5 to 15 minute intervals. After nearly 4.5 hours of this I got out of bed and said to hell with this. I came here to write this as I have a glass of water.
This is about day 22 of my failure to sleep well. (meaning less than 4 hours per night or per day.) I think it is time for medical intervention, I will go see a doctor today and ask for some kind of medical sleep aid. 1 minor problem with this is sleeping pills are toxic and very hard on the liver, they are fully processed by it, just like acetaminophen and Codeine.
I can not keep this up much longer, I am starting to visually and some times audibly hallucinate and that is never a good sign. I feel disjointed and at times separated from my flesh. My eyes are swollen and puffy, blood shot through out the whites in to the cornea and big saggy black bags under them.
My skin is pale and I have had a migraine that has come and gone for nearly a month. It comes and goes and at times it is so bad I get Nausea and my vision blurs occasionally when this happens I throw up.. If I do not go out right blind for a few minutes at a time...
My stomach feels like there is a giant crab trying to chew its way out. My ankles are swollen and walking is excruciating painful not to mention it is difficult to do, I feel like I am seasick and trying to walk across the deck in rough weather. At times my bowel feels bloated, distended and cramped.. All in all I feel like hell... I am just so tired, so very very tired...
Time to try and sleep some more. I shall now return to bed and pray I get some more sleep. Good Night once more, hopefully I can sleep until at least noon
Little Fish wrote:
LOL there is some money well spent, a blow job and a chocolate bar eah...ahahaha
Sounds like cash well spent to me.......................... is that not called buying her dinner 1st...............[img border=0 src="http://discoverseattle.net/forums/richedit/smileys/Word_Negative/2.gif"]
Lol, funny... terrible but funny...
Well think I need to go buy dinner [img border=0 src="http://discoverseattle.net/forums/richedit/smileys/Teasing/12.gif"]