Orik Basher was addmitted to hospital with acute liver failure

Started by Orik Basher, Nov 08 08 01:04

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Thanks for the update Orik. Thoughts are with you.

van_guy



Orik,

Hoping things are going OK for you ...
 
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Orik

 Hi Van_Guy I am not feeling much better. I am just happy to still be alive.
 
 but I am writing my will. and making arrangements for my own funeral and have yet to decide on who will be the one to handle my last wishes in-case i am unable to do so. I do not want my family to have to deal with all of this. it is bad enough i have to deal with my own mortality at such a young age. sighs. i am over the anger at my disease. but i do get very depressed and find my self in states of catatonic sadness for no reason what so ever.
 
 as for happiness and laughter some days it is hard to find a reason to get out of bed. but i do so anyways. i have returned to work, i have lost a lot of weight cause i don't eat to well and when i do i get sick. either i vomit or i get the shits.. am i sharing to much info... probably. do any of you give a shit or care about me i doubt it. but i post it anyways. cause i have no one else to tell and share this shit with . might as well tell you freaks of nature .. right ?
 
 
 question how do you pick person to handle the stuff when u are no longer capable of doing so ? some one who will make sure my last wishes are followed. who will make sure i am not put on advanced life support and make sure i am not resuscitated. i do not want to be kept alive by machines...

 when my body is dead and my mind is gone, i don't want some machines trying to keep me alive after i have left... and i sure as bloody hell don't want to spend the last few months, weeks or days of my life in a be-damned, jail cell of a hospital bed.
 
 hell Canadian jails are more comfortable than our shit hole hospitals beds like for Gods sake they put me in a God-Damned lounge its not even meant to house the sick. it was supposed to be used for patient entertainment...

but they did away with that cause their is no money for our health system.. a system that is bankrupt... why do we reward our doctors and nurses for a fu-ked up system... if England can manage its money and medical system and Switzerland can also... why cant we ?

why do we reward our politicians for shooting us in the back. hell our own government is bent us over the couch and is Fu_king us over on a daily basis and we r laying here begging them to fu_k... us again and again . when the hell are we going to have a Canadian revolution and overthrow the incompetent bastards in government

they are over spending our tax dollars on useless shit like winter Olympics giving them selves pay raises and nice little retirment packages worth hundreds of thousands of dollars. mean while we have immediate problems like our health-care system that need to be fixed first.
 
 well i never voted for the Olympics.. but some 3 piece suit and tie monkey fudge packing ass-hat did. sighs.. can u tell i am a bit perturbed about the upcoming farce of a winter Olympics we should not be having ?
 
 in the past 7 months i have spent over nearly 57 days in hospital beds or in a delirium on my bad days and i don't will not return to another one. the only decent compensation is that they do keep a person nicely dosed and sedated on dilauded. so at least i have no pain.

a additional side effect of that medication is i tend to love people and be a bit nicer than normal. now if only they could cure me of my horrible case of the horns...
 
 as for retuning to a hospital i will arrange a accident of my own... before i will let myself die in a hospital bed from the toxins and poisons that will kill me... if my liver goes tits up again... right now i am just waiting to see another liver spetgwpdt for a second opinion (apparently this guy also specializes in transplants) and to find out what my odds are of getting a matching donor for liver transplantation.
 
 So until they know why my liver has failed and what the unknown entomology behind my hepatitis is they wont give me another liver i am to much of a risk in giving me a new one so they will give a liver to a younger man with better odds of survival... , if they cant stop my body form killing this one.

why give me a new liver? if it is just gonna get killed off, just like the one i have now... for medical reasons not yet diagnosed. sighs. or if i was Steve jobs... anyone want to bet he paid for his liver and paid big bucks while quite possibly even arranged for the matching liver to have a convenient accident .. but hey that's just crazy talk or is it..
 
 and  911 was a inside job. the German Nazis blew up their own buildings .. and use dit as a excuse to take away legal rights... history is repeating itself ...

 Obama is he even a natural born american.. i have not yet seen proof he was born a american..
Weapons of mass destruction did they ever find any ?

am i forgetting any new conspiracys .. other than the cloud seeding and experiments on weather control ?
 
 time take some more[a href="vny!://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hydromorphone" class="bbc_url" title="External link" rel="nofollow"] Hydromorphone[/a] and escape into lala land and pretend everything is just fine.. maybe next time i will lie and say i am just fine instead...

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Never give up Never surrender Fight with ur last breath Fight 2 live & Fight 2 survive. Never say never & never say die. There comes a time when all will die A time we transcend & attain our place afterlife. My Fight is not yet done, I'm tired & I'd like to go home, But I'm not ready to go just yet.

van_guy

 Orik wrote:
Hi Van_Guy I am not feeling much better. I am just happy to still be alive.

Well alive is a good thing ... much better than the alternative.
 
 but I am writing my will. and making arrangements for my own funeral and have yet to decide on who will be the one to handle my last wishes in-case i am unable to do so. I do not want my family to have to deal with all of this. it is bad enough i have to deal with my own mortality at such a young age. sighs. i am over the anger at my disease. but i do get very depressed and find my self in states of catatonic sadness for no reason what so ever.

no matter what stage of life you are at it's good to have your will taken care of.
 
 as for happiness and laughter some days it is hard to find a reason to get out of bed. but i do so anyways. i have returned to work, i have lost a lot of weight cause i don't eat to well and when i do i get sick. either i vomit or i get the shits.. am i sharing to much info... probably. do any of you give a shit or care about me i doubt it. but i post it anyways. cause i have no one else to tell and share this shit with . might as well tell you freaks of nature .. right ?

I am very used to discussing the consistancy of bowel movements and such.  I work in the 3rd world a lot - as such this becomes part of regular conversation.
 
 question how do you pick person to handle the stuff when u are no longer capable of doing so ? some one who will make sure my last wishes are followed. who will make sure i am not put on advanced life support and make sure i am not resuscitated. i do not want to be kept alive by machines...

well  ... never an easy task.  but the dnr (do not resescitate) is pretty easy ... i believe that hospitals must respect it. never done it myself but i had a GF who's mom was end stage pretty much everything and they let her slip away.

when my body is dead and my mind is gone, i don't want some machines trying to keep me alive after i have left... and i sure as bloody hell don't want to spend the last few months, weeks or days of my life in a be-damned, jail cell of a hospital bed.
 
A lot of people think that.  obviously you have thought a lot about it.  you are an adult. it is your descision.

hell Canadian jails are more comfortable than our shit hole hospitals beds like for Gods sake they put me in a God-Damned lounge its not even meant to house the sick. it was supposed to be used for patient entertainment...

but they did away with that cause their is no money for our health system.. a system that is bankrupt... why do we reward our doctors and nurses for a fu-ked up system... if England can manage its money and medical system and Switzerland can also... why cant we ?

from my perspective - canadaian hospitals are considerably better than chinese, mongolian and vietnamese hospitals ... never been to an indian hospital for the average joe - I'm guessing probably a lot worse - so most of the world populations hospitals suck much worse than ours!!

why do we reward our politicians for shooting us in the back. hell our own government is bent us over the couch and is Fu_king us over on a daily basis and we r laying here begging them to fu_k... us again and again . when the hell are we going to have a Canadian revolution and overthrow the incompetent bastards in government

again from my perspective the canadian gov't although FAR from perfect actually puts on a realistic impersonation of caring, and being relatively honest.  in comparison i was handing out bribes to vietnamese gov't officials who a the very same instance were complaining about gov't corruption.

they are over spending our tax dollars on useless shit like winter Olympics giving them selves pay raises and nice little retirment packages worth hundreds of thousands of dollars. mean while we have immediate problems like our health-care system that need to be fixed first.

sure but was is 300 million (or a billion or 10 billion) going to do for our healthcare, it needs to be revamped but it needs to be a structural change not a few bucks thrown it's way.
 
 well i never voted for the Olympics.. but some 3 piece suit and tie monkey fudge packing ass-hat did. sighs.. can u tell i am a bit perturbed about the upcoming farce of a winter Olympics we should not be having ?

so what are you really trying to say??? - don't hold back - just say it ; )
 
in the past 7 months i have spent over nearly 57 days in hospital beds or in a delirium on my bad days and i don't will not return to another one. the only decent compensation is that they do keep a person nicely dosed and sedated on dilauded. so at least i have no pain.

yeah a lot of people are in constant pain - with no possibilty of relief.  I've never been in constant pain for more than a few days  - so it's hard for me to relate - but i truly hope things get better for you.

a additional side effect of that medication is i tend to love people and be a bit nicer than normal. now if only they could cure me of my horrible case of the horns... [img style="font-style: italic;" src="vny!://www.discovervancouver.com/forum/public/style_emoticons/default/laugh.gif" class="bbc_emoticon" alt=":laugh:"] perhaps i should take a page out of fornicators book of incredibly idiotic things to say to a woman nurse and ask her for a hand job [img style="font-style: italic;" src="/forums/richedit/smileys/7.gif[/img]

there's an expression "you don't get what you don't ask for"
 
as for retuning to a hospital i will arrange a accident of my own... before i will let myself die in a hospital bed from the toxins and poisons that will kill me... if my liver goes tits up again... right now i am just waiting to see another liver spetgwpdt for a second opinion (apparently this guy also specializes in transplants) and to find out what my odds are of getting a matching donor for liver transplantation.

best of luck - probably not a great chance soon - but you have to keep hoping.
 
So until they know why my liver has failed and what the unknown entomology behind my hepatitis is they wont give me another liver i am to much of a risk in giving me a new one so they will give a liver to a younger man with better odds of survival... , if they cant stop my body form killing this one.

why give me a new liver? if it is just gonna get killed off, just like the one i have now... for medical reasons not yet diagnosed. sighs. or if i was Steve jobs... anyone want to bet he paid for his liver and paid big bucks while quite possibly even arranged for the matching liver to have a convenient accident .. but hey that's just crazy talk or is it..

well there is no doubt that there is a 2 tiered system - if you play for nhl or nba you get a different level of treatment than a "joe" like you or me.
 
 and  911 was a inside job. the German Nazis blew up their own buildings .. and use dit as a excuse to take away legal rights... history is repeating itself ...

Obama is he even a natural born american.. i have not yet seen proof he was born a american..
Weapons of mass destruction did they ever find any ?

I'm with you!!  Not sure about Obama - but he seems a bit brighter than the last dude!

am i forgetting any new conspiracys .. other than the cloud seeding and experiments on weather control ?
 
 time take some more[a href="vny!://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hydromorphone" class="bbc_url" title="External link" rel="nofollow"] Hydromorphone[/a] and escape into lala land and pretend everything is just fine.. maybe next time i will lie and say i am just fine instead...

Best of luck Orick - keep up the fight ...

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Orik

[font style="font-family: Arial Narrow;" size="4"]I am Gonna go take a  nap hopefully I will feel better when I wake up, I took a full dose of  maximum pain medication thats 4 x 1 MG of Dilauded and 2 X 400 MG of   Advil and if this pain does not ease up by tomorrow morning. I'm gonna  be a grumpy patient cause needless to say I will have to go back to the  flaming dentist.
   
 for those who do not know what Dilaudid or hydromorphone is this[a href="vny!://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hydromorphone"] wiki page [/a]has  some good info on it.
   
 My favourite quote when some one once described it to me [a href="vny!://www.ncpainmanagement.com/Dilaudid.htm"]Dilaudid[/a] is  approximately 8 times more potent on a per milligram basis than  morphine. It is often called drug store heroin on the streets. the other  web site goes on to say that it is worth 50 to 60 bucks a pop on the  street. I don't know about that...
   
 But I doubt my 6 mg 12 hour dose caplets are worth 50 dollars. I do know  they cost me 2 dollars each at the pharmacist and that since I switched  over to these, the pain I used to be in is now manageable. So much so, I  barely notice that I hurt' Sometimes I even walk with out a limp, I  only wish that was all the time.
   
  I still hurt at times but thankfully because of a simple change in  medications, it is not anywhere like it used to be. I do not think  anyone here can really relate what it is like to go to sleep at night  whimpering & wanting to cry because the pain is so bad you can  barely move. There was many a time I thought how easy it would be if I  took my own life at least then I would finally be pain free.  
   
 Or those mornings one did not want to get out of bed cause the pain was  so bad the light from the lamp is blinding you. because your eyes hurt  and your head hurts, it all goes with the throbbing headache that you  have, which is caused by the stress of your knotted muscles... which are  caused from the pain your in... a never ending, rotating spiral of  pain, on pain, on top of pain.
 [/font] [h3 style="font-family: Arial Narrow; font-weight: normal; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);" class="r"] I was taken off of morphine and  codeine back in 2008 when my liver went to hell. The dilauded is a  little bit better and seems to have less side effect problems for me  than the morphine. the morphine makes my skin itch something awful and  then there is the nausea and many times i actually spent vomiting. but  that vomiting might have been because of the liver problems and so might  have been the itching. but some benadryl stopped the itching and  switching to dilauded stopped the vomiting.
   [/h3] [h3 style="font-family: Arial Narrow; font-weight: normal; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);" class="r"]Though there were a couple more  instances after wards possibly proof it was not the morphine making me  sick but the liver troubles I was undergoing at the time instead. I also  take much less of this than some of the ones I used to use before they  switched me over. I am now on 6 MG  x 2 per day hydromorphone Contin (It  lasts 8 to 12 hrs) a good day it lasts 12 hours However a bad day it  lasts for as little as 6 hours
   [/h3] [h3 style="font-family: Arial Narrow; font-weight: normal; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);" class="r"]I also take 1 mg X 4 per day of  dilaudid combined with 200 mg X 4 per day of Advil this helps keep me  relatively pain free when used in combination with the 2 x 12 hour  dosage. Sometimes I can go with out the need to take the dilauded but  that can lead to pain levels that get to be to much I end up in bed  whimpering again.
   [/h3] [h3 style="font-family: Arial Narrow; font-weight: normal; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);" class="r"]I have learned it is better to stick  to a  Time Schedule for taking these medications  in order to keep my  pain levels at a bare minimum. Normally the medications I take keeps my  pain at a manageable level but every now and then on a day like today  with my flaming tooth.
   [/h3] [h3 style="font-family: Arial Narrow; font-weight: normal; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);" class="r"]I might have to take a full dose which  is 4 MG and 2 X 400 MG of Advil which is hard on the stomach but I will  take it with a chicken pot pie, my supper, so after that I will go to  bed and have a nap.
   [/h3] Side not My cold seems to be gone and my lungs are not as congested as  before I have a appetite agauin and the spewtum is a nice clear healthy  colour it is no longer green gunk. The cough seems to be completely  gone... Now the bad news my Liver is still swollen on my right side and  is rather painful to me  however the surgical liver spetgwpdt I saw on  the 12 was not, he just wants to run some more blood tests and confab  with the other GI (gastrointestinal) spetgwpdt...

oh and my anaemia is  not to high or to low. anaemia and factor 8 well its not really factor 8 it is something different something which causes my blood to thin I forgot what they called it. anyways they are a bit worse is to much of a chemical which prevents my blood from clotting and makes my blood to thin the other means I don't have enough iron

so basically I have to worry about  bleeding to death if I get injured cause I take an extended length of time to clot properly and I don't  know what the risks are with anaemia... =(  well rent is paid for march. the bills are fully paid the credit card is paid off. and i have a little bit of cash, now if i can manage to stay  out of debt and find a desk concierge job soon I should be all right
 
 and that is my major updates for me. perhaps I should;d have put this in  the I have nothing to say thread.. it's were I have done most of my  writing. Maybe I should ask teh borken if it is possible to move some of my discombobulated multi thread ramblings oover to this one it's where I should of put it in the first place.  Take for example many of the things I  wrote on this [a href="vny!://discoverseattle.net/forums/index.php/topic,3983.0.html"]thread   [/a]Could actually have been written here instead.... lol but oyu do have to agree I do know how to ramble about and say nothing interesting

peace time for medication supper and a early bed time
 
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Never give up Never surrender Fight with ur last breath Fight 2 live & Fight 2 survive. Never say never & never say die. There comes a time when all will die A time we transcend & attain our place afterlife. My Fight is not yet done, I'm tired & I'd like to go home, But I'm not ready to go just yet.

Gopher

A fool's paradise is better than none.

Orik

Thanks Gopher I will settle return to even half health ... or healthy enough to have at least 1 pint a week health... =( I do miss going out for a couple of pints at times.

 
Never give up Never surrender Fight with ur last breath Fight 2 live & Fight 2 survive. Never say never & never say die. There comes a time when all will die A time we transcend & attain our place afterlife. My Fight is not yet done, I'm tired & I'd like to go home, But I'm not ready to go just yet.

former datw user

Orik wrote:
Thanks Gopher I will settle return to even half health ... or healthy enough to have at least 1 pint a week health... =( I do miss going out for a couple of pints at times.

 
 No beer...............Better at least be getting BJ'S..................FFS  

Little Fish

LOL there is some money well spent, a blow job and a chocolate bar eah...ahahaha  

Orik

 I am not sure how many read these or even care but I post them anyways.

Sadly this is not a good morning. It is good that I awoke so I am at   least not dead. It is bad that I am awake, I went to bed just before   midnight and have slept approximately a total between 70 to 90 minutes   in 5  to 15 minute intervals. After nearly 4.5 hours of this I got out   of bed and said to hell with this. I came here to write this as I have a   glass of water.
 
  This is about day 22 of my failure to sleep  well. (meaning less than 4  hours per night or per day.) I think it is  time for medical  intervention, I will go see a doctor today and ask for  some kind of  medical sleep aid. 1 minor problem with this is sleeping  pills are toxic  and very hard on the liver, they are fully processed by  it, just like  acetaminophen and Codeine.  
 
 I can not keep  this up much longer, I am starting to visually and some  times audibly  hallucinate and that is never a good sign. I feel  disjointed and at  times separated from my flesh.  My eyes are swollen  and puffy, blood  shot through out the whites in to the cornea and big  saggy black bags  under them.
 
 My skin is pale and I have had a migraine that has  come and gone for  nearly a month. It comes and goes and at times it is  so bad I get Nausea  and my vision blurs occasionally when this happens  I throw up.. If I do  not go out right blind for a few minutes at a  time...
 
 My stomach feels like there is a giant crab trying to  chew its way out.  My ankles are swollen and walking is excruciating  painful not to mention  it is difficult to do, I feel like I am seasick  and trying to walk  across the deck in rough weather. At times my bowel  feels bloated,  distended and cramped.. All in all I feel like hell...  I  am just so  tired, so very very tired...
 
 Time to try and  sleep some more.  I shall now return to bed and pray I get some more  sleep. Good Night once more, hopefully I can sleep until at least noon    
Never give up Never surrender Fight with ur last breath Fight 2 live & Fight 2 survive. Never say never & never say die. There comes a time when all will die A time we transcend & attain our place afterlife. My Fight is not yet done, I'm tired & I'd like to go home, But I'm not ready to go just yet.

DDD

Little Fish wrote:
LOL there is some money well spent, a blow job and a chocolate bar eah...ahahaha  
       Sounds like cash well spent to me.......................... is that not called buying her dinner 1st...............[img border=0 src="vny!://discoverseattle.net/forums/richedit/smileys/Word_Negative/2.gif"]
God is great, beer is good and people are crazy!

Orik

Never give up Never surrender Fight with ur last breath Fight 2 live & Fight 2 survive. Never say never & never say die. There comes a time when all will die A time we transcend & attain our place afterlife. My Fight is not yet done, I'm tired & I'd like to go home, But I'm not ready to go just yet.

DDD

Well think I need to go buy dinner        [img border=0 src="vny!://discoverseattle.net/forums/richedit/smileys/Teasing/12.gif"]
God is great, beer is good and people are crazy!

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