Hi Natasha, =)
I am proud of quitting smoking that was a difficult one I was a real arsehole and I had a horrible hair trigger temper for well over a year. It took a very long time to get over the urge to smoke and a bit longer to stop losing my temper so easily. I still get the urge to smoke at times but if it gets really bad I go out and pick up a packet of gum or some mentos.
Quiting drugs so long ago was easy compared to quitting smoking, I had no real withdrawals and no hair trigger temper, my mood swings combined with depression was a real roller coaster, but I lived through the first couple of years and I eventually learned to live my life Marijuana & Cocaine free.
This August I celebrate 17 year Cocaine free. Cocaine was my drug of choice I used or experimented with many others but it always came down to marijuana and cocaine for me. I could easily go through an eighth of each every day.
I would say I am marijuana or drug free completely but I used medicinal marijuana for a time in 2000 to 2002 after my back injury. The marijuana helped some but it was much to strong so much more portent than the earth grows I used to smoke in the early 90's
That I eventually gave up marijuana for Codeine which provided better painkilling effect but was worse for my body. I still use prescribed pain killer for pain management. I have my good days where I am in no pain and my bad days where even using maximum doses of my painkillers I am still in agony =(
There are few medication on the market I can use to treat my pain levels because of how hard they are on the liver. I am deeply considering trying some edible marijuana or edible hash as a form of pain management treatment.
However I have a large problem with most pain medications, the problem is this.
I want to treat the pain, not get stoned. Most medication work well, they treat the pain but they leave you slightly stoned. This is noticeably significant when one switches over to a new kind of pain medication or has another one added to a list of a few they already take.
In some ways I am a addict and will always remain one, but I have my addiction under control. I am drug free but I am not at the same time. some Narcotics Anonymous meetings state a drug is a drug is a drug, even if one is prescribed it for a legitimate reason. N.A says I have no clean time at all. I do not see it that way. I have years of clean time because I am not using my drugs of choice.
As for the alcohol thing I was never a big drinker even before my liver went tits up I rarely drank more than 12 beers in a month , so it giving up drinking was not a big deal to me. it was something I did very rarely... I can live with out beer.
The problem is I can not live without using my pain medications at least once a day Not unless I want to be restricted to my bed for most of that day, on my good days I do not need to take as much of my pain medications sometimes I can even skip a dose or 2 but those days happen so rarely =( ... Then there are my days where the pain levels are so high it is agony just to get out of bed and stand-up.
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Sorry a great big rambling response.. I definitely take after my foster uncles side of the family he is the shyster after all. (lawyer)
