I know how you're feeling sparkleface.
I miss someone who was close in my life but after what this person did, I find it difficult to trust again. I miss how things were years ago, but I know, it's never going to be the same again. Sometimes, you just have to let it go and maybe one day, that person will hear me and turn around and see things differently. It would hurt me too much to bring what we had back into life. I'd rather protect myself than to go through sadness again.