Yup, the job black mails yeah, you want to get out because your around shady people at night, and you have in my case been doing this since you were 18. Instead of working with people your own age, making friends, hanging around kids my age group; I'm around people who are poor, been in jail, or are barely surviving, and frauds.
But then the job pays well, but the downsides are starting to out weigh the negatives. I've seen so many people leave this job, new people come in every couple of months. Its so bad I'm now one of the longest working people at work. And I'm only 20!
ugh the job gets to you but then the pay is good, hence why my dad has never been able to let it go, a lot of people are like that doing this job.