Uh-oh. I shouldn't be doing this. Writing before the coffee kicks in. I'm seriously tempting mediocrity here. I'll just have to hope it takes effect before I'm through with this post.
I sent this email to Tuna:
[span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"]Hi Tuna.[/span][br style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] [br style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] [span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"]F.Y.I. - I DID receive my R.O.E. in the mail yesterday. Thank you.[/span][br style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] [span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"]This now brings to conclusion my association with The Company.[/span][br style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] [span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"]Please pass along my Deepest thanks to everyone. in particular, my former co-workers. I know they all tried their best & beyond & I will[/span][br style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] [span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"]always[/span][br style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] [span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"]be thankful for their efforts. I'm only sorry they couldn't get value for[/span][br style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] [span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"]their[/span][br style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] [span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"]investment.[/span][br style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] [span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] They are the most intelligent & brightest people I have ever had the[/span][br style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] [span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"]privilege of working with.[/span][br style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] [span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"]& I know they all will do well in their careers.[/span][br style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] [br style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] [span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"]Tuna,[/span][br style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] [br style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] [span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] I know you really stuck your neck out for me on this. I give you credit[/span][br style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] [span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"]for not saying it, but I would imagine you're quite disappointed I didn't[/span][br style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] [span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"]pan out. I am truly sorry that I wasn't of material. All I can tell you is[/span][br style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] [span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"]I[/span][br style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] [span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"]tried my best & I take that knowledge with me.[/span][br style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] [span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] I'm the 1st to admit, I have alot of growing up to do & alot of[/span][br style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] [span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"]problems.[/span][br style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] [span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"]But, one thing I DID learn from you, during my time is the courage to start[/span][br style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] [span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"]to tackle those problems. I grew more this past year, than at any other[/span][br style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] [span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"]time[/span][br style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] [span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"]in my life. As you recall, at the start, I couldn't even envision myself[/span][br style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] [span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"]working downtown, the stuff we did on the company picnic - are you KIDDING me? &[/span][br style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] [span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"]the trip to Vegas. All significant milestones in my life - all thanks to[/span][br style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] [span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"]you. Again, I WISH I had been able to measure up. Maybe someday I might be[/span][br style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] [span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"]of such account, but unfortunately as we both found out. I'm not there just[/span][br style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] [span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"]yet. I'm sure Russ said to you many times: "What's WITH that guy?" & I[/span][br style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] [span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"]don't[/span][br style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] [span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"]even want to imagine the number of times you had to defend me to him.[/span][br style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] [span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"]Again,[/span][br style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] [span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"]I certainly never intended you to look bad because of me.[/span][br style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] [span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] We now both have our separate lifepaths to go down. & while they may[/span][br style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] [span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"]not be intertwined professionally, I hope I still can call you my friend.[/span][br style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] [span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"]Regardless, I will always consider you mine.[/span][br style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] [span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] Ok, before I well up here I'll close this off. I'm gonna send a[/span][br style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] [span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"]separate email to Lee, as I have some things I need to say to her too.[/span][br style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] [br style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] [span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"]Take care, Tuna.[/span][br style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] [br style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"] [span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"]Alec.[/span]
I got the following response:
[span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"]Hi Alec.,[/span][br style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"] [br style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"] [span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"]Glad to hear the ROE arrived - hope that helps you with the next steps on[/span][br style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"] [span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"]your path.[/span][br style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"] [br style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"] [span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"]No need to worry about the impact on me of you Company experience, and as[/span][br style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"] [span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"]for Russ, I never once had to defend you to him. He was always looking for[/span][br style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"] [span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"]ways to help you, even more than I, and he's a very decent man. Just last[/span][br style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"] [span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"]Fri he was asking about you and how you're doing and if there are ways[/span][br style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"] [span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"]the Company could still help.[/span][br style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"] [br style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"] [span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"]I'm also not disappointed at all - we both tried our best and that's all[/span][br style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"] [span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"]one can do. At the end of the day, it wasn't the right fit, that's all.[/span][br style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"] [span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"]There is somewhere out there that is the right fit for you, but as you[/span][br style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"] [span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"]mention, it'll probably require a change in perspective on your part and[/span][br style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"] [span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"]some growth - it's all part of the journey and we all go thru it in our own[/span][br style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"] [span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"]ways.[/span][br style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"] [br style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"] [span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"]As for our friendship, I never considered you anything but a friend.[/span][br style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"] [span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"]However, I do feel that for the moment, you need to sort out the path of[/span][br style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"] [span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"]your life and I think that's something you need to do on your own, which is[/span][br style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"] [span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"]why I haven't been in contact. I know in my journey, things didn't start[/span][br style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"] [span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"]going right until I had no other option (and no one left to lean on) but to[/span][br style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"] [span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"]make sure it went right. Tough love, I guess, and I worry about you often,[/span][br style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"] [span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"]but I think in the long run I'm doing the right thing.[/span][br style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"] [br style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"] [span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"]Hope things go well for you Alec and keep in touch. And keep your chin up[/span][br style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"] [span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"]- it's all about learning and moving forward.[/span][br style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"] [br style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"] [span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"]Take care, old friend![/span][br style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"] [br style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"] [br style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"] [span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"]Best regards,[/span][br style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"] [br style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"] [span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"]Tuna.
[span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"]While the temptation is to react emotionally to the part in his response that stands out for me in this & say to myself: "So, he's washing his hands of me then. Fine. Screw him!" I know deep in my heart that, in fact is not his intention at all.
In fact, here is an opportunnity for me to learn from a previous mistake, for it was my reacting emotionally on an email that got me fired from this job in the 1st place. The healing has begun.
So at least we part, temporarily hopefully - on good terms.
As for D, of course I went to visit him in the hospital & also visited Mother. How many people can say they have BOTH their parfents in the hospital?
I read to each of them my latest entries in my book & got the much welcomed enthusiastic support. I have to remember to take their reactions in perspective too, though - for the book is largely about them too, & of course they are going to be biased towards me. What I really need is some detatched, professional input.
I also got a bit of a scare in the news, when I found out that my brand of Dope, Effexor has been known to cause fatalities in large doses. Well no SH*T!
I remember back 2 years ago, when I was up to 300 mg. & was experiencing an irregular heartbeat, my Doc just said: "That's normal" Well, given my family's history of heart attacks, I'm lucky I didn't have a Coronary back then.
Doctors & their pill pushing cures for Depression! Now I wonder just how many Doctors / Shrinks have blindly prescribed Antidepressants without knowing their side effects?[/span][/span]