okay there are other ways that connect me to my grandparents I have their outlook on life and so on. If I were to blame it on anything I just have to look at my uncles and my dad, they all married into big huge families. my hungarian side is very fractured. I ignore that part and just mainly focus on what my grandparents were about. So I do feel connected in that way, but that connection more has to do with politics and way of life. But if I look at it that way then yeah I'm pretty much a carbon copy of them.
I don't know anymore, I think this is just a family thing everyone goes through until they start their own family, but I've just always wondered.
But it really goes further then just oh I'd like to know my second cousins. I've lived my life expierencing other things. Like I've said before I've shopped in places and gone to places that the average thinking person wouldn't do. I've been to a mosque, a hindu temple, jewish synagogue, I've done all these things to experience something different.
Its more about culture then heritage I guess, those things fascinate me, drive me.