Lost In the shadows of my mind

[Orik]

Seloso Selosa
               

               

               

                                       

                                         

I have tired my self out trying to make it right i have tried to see my way clear tried to put a end to this fight i love her and hold her dear respect and trust are gone what is done can not be undone can i forget, what i saw with my own 2 eyes you in bed with some other guy move on move on easier said than done how does one give up 6 months of a love and hate relationship sadly i have lost my way this jealousy it is here to stay the woman i loved is gone the one that stays is the one who makes me cry i die a little more everyday the contempt i see in her eyes the no nonsense sighs i am dead to her just trash to be thrown away i love her yet i see no reason to stay our intimate times are long past done and gone like dust to the wind nothing left but to dig this grave craven man am i i wish to crawl inside layer the soil on top of me end this turmoil this pain inside of me rip out my heart and be done with me you tell me you love me so show me you love me before i leave and forever go what happens next is up to you i love you but i fear you do not love me leonard, rich, tom or steve which of us, is it to be it is me ! or them! like the highlander their can be only one chose the path u walk and what u wish my beloved one lead me on no more if you want me come get me if i don't hear from you paalam forever more Devan S Peace

               

[Orik]

what is past is done.
 what was is gone
the love in my heart remains
but our relationship can never be the same.

single again.

for sale everything.

free to a good home.
one used and abused heart
 slightly broken

bigo ang puso...

turns out the lights and closes the door.

silence



 

[Orik_Basher]

hear i sit in the hospital once more wondering just what to do buy a tv for the night untill they dope me to sleep about 10 pm pay my 15 bucks for crap telly shows and even worse movies. nurses some r sure cute but they wont look at a sick inmate twice and i feel more like a inmate than i do a patient at times... dont get me wrong the nurses and doctors work pretty damned hard and take a lot of shit in more than one way... i feel for these folks toiliong away with the spewtum and sludge the god aeful drudgery... doctors and nurses volenteers and nurses aids thank fully they r nice most days and they r hear to make us well but sadly the lonelyness sets in and the same old same boredom and routine is enough to drive a man bleeding mad if he isnt all ready... every 3 minutes i have to copy and save what i write cause im disconected from the nurses station definetly not so nice but this i can understand its the hospital pc and not supposed to be typed on by patiant hands haha :) ingat take care and god bless them all another day abocve ground is very damned nice breathing let it not be my last vice i could use a beer ior 2 or 3 but no more drinking my kliver said to me now its wait and see i wonder if im all ready on the waiting list for a transpalnt would they even tell me ?

[Orik]

interesting question i have


prisoners have laundry services

hospital patients do not

prisoners have free tv

hospital patients do not

prisoners and hospitals patients 3 squares a day

some times the food is better in prison ? mmmm dont know but i can vouch for hospital food some times im not very hungry,,, and im always hungry  except right now :(




prisoners get time off for good behavior

hospital patients rarely if ever get time off for much of anything


sighs

our system is seriously screwed up :(

so who is really the inmate someways and some-days i feel it is me


 

[Gopher]

Great to know you're well enough to beaware of these things - it's a good sign