Lost In the shadows of my mind

Started by Orik, Jul 04 07 10:59

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Sycamore

I thought it's time to post something encouraging....

Do Not Go Gentle Into That Good Night by Dylan Thomas

Do not go gentle into that good night,
Old age should burn and rave at close of day;
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Though wise men at their end know dark is right,
Because their words had forked no lightning they
Do not go gentle into that good night.

Good men, the last wave by, crying how bright
Their frail deeds might have danced in a green bay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Wild men who caught and sang the sun in flight,
And learn, too late, they grieved it on its way,
Do not go gentle into that good night.

Grave men, near death, who see with blinding sight
Blind eyes could blaze like meteors and be gay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

And you, my father, there on the sad height,
Curse, bless, me now with your fierce tears, I pray.
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Sycamore

One of those nights I'd read poems until I fall asleep...

Let Me Begin Again by Philip Levine

Let me begin again as a speck
of dust caught in the night winds
sweeping out to sea.  Let me begin
this time knowing the world is
salt water and dark clouds, the world
is grinding and sighing all night, and dawn
comes slowly and changes nothing.  Let
me go back to land after a lifetime
of going nowhere.  This time lodged
in the feathers of some scavenging gull
white above the black ship that docks
and broods upon the oily waters of
your harbour.  This leaking freighter
has brought a hold full of hayforks
from Spain, great jeroboams of dark
Algerian wine and quill pens that can't
write English.  The sailors have stumbled
off toward the bars or the bright houses.
The captian closes his log and falls asleep.
1/10/28.  Tonight I shall enter my life
after being at sea for ages, quietly,
in a hospital named for an automobile.
The one child of millions of children
who has flown alone by the stars
above the black wastes of moonless waters
that stretched forever, who has turned
golden in the full sun of a new day.
A tiny wise child who this time will love
his life because it is like no other.


Sycamore

Although this poem does not directly define what love is, there are actually lots to look at if you pay attention to details and its real depth:

The Third Eye by Jay Macpherson

Of three eyes I would still give two for one.
The third eye clouds:  its light is nearly gone.
The two saw green, saw sky, saw people pass:
The third eye saw through order like a glass
To concentrate, refine and rarify
And make a Cosmos of miscellany.
Sight, world and all to save alive that one
Fading so fast!  Ah love, its light is done.

Sycamore

Last two.  This one's the one I've been looking for:

Sonnet 43 - How Do I Love Thee by Elizabeth Barrett Browning

How do I love thee?  Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.
I love thee to the level of every day's
Most quiet need, by sun and candlelight.
I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;
I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.
I love thee with a passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints, --I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life!  -- and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.

Last one:  

Sonnet 17 from One hundred love sonnets by Pablo Neruda (Patch Adam version sounds prettier though.  Mine's a direction translation)

I don't love you as if you were a rose of salt, topaz,
or arrow of carnations that propagate fire:
I love you as one loves certain dark things,
secretly, between the shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that doesn't bloom and carries
the light of those flowers, hidden, within itself,
and thanks to your love the tight aroma that rose
from the earth lives in my body in darkness.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where
I love you directly without problems or pride:
I love you like this because I don't know any other way to love

except in this form in which I am not nor are you,
so close that your hand upon my chest is mine,
so close that your eyes close with my dreams.



For Orik

For Orik

I won't chase your breath away.
We have changed.

Let these
words fly to where you are.  Touch you where
you are hurt.  Warm you where and when you
feel cold.  Hug you when you can't feel my love.
Give you the space when you tug these words
away.  Pull them out when you miss me.

I would love you to the end

Through my words that were
untidy, naughty, crowded, untimely, tentative,
tenacious, resigned, passive, inarticulate, cold.
I hurt you.  

Through your thoughts, you retaliated.
Competence.
I am shattered and frightened.

Through silence we punished us.

Let these words hold you in your hand.
Wrap you at the nape of your neck.
Kiss you on the lips.
Love you forever for me.

Ace

Sycamore wrote:
But if a person's in a marriage/long term relationship, should he/she still keep track of what he/she can/can't lose?  Where's love?  Is it really just a feeling or yearn for pleasure?  It sounds sad if I have to think of what I can/can't afford to lose when I am supposed to be in love.....

Ace, do you consider yourself ever fallen in love before?

To answer your question, no, I don't think I've ever actually 'fallen in love.'  I've come close, but I tend to shy away from commitment.  That could be why...
 
The bitterness of poor quality is remembered long after the sweetness of low price has faded from memory

once sycamore

Ace,  guess for some people they just don't really fall in love while some people they can fall madly in love.  I remember a time when I look into a guy's eyes, all I saw was practicality.

Oh, maybe you just have your ideals.  Some people believe that people need to "deserve love" in order to be loved.  Maybe you are one of them?  

I think, when you meet this one ideal girl, if you ever will, then you probably will not be afraid of commitment..... anymore.  And once you love, you won't think like what you can/cannot afford to lose.  My experience anyway.

Summerish

He

I sat in the front row, one seat in front of you
Chatty around me.
I turned, looked at you, and smiled.  You
were different.  You eyes told me so.
You played that stupid song so many times and
I hated it so much.  I wanted to smack you,
instead I threw those runners out the doors.  
You went frantic and ordered me to take them
back to you.  Did I?

I was felt so cold one night.  You told me to
run.  I didn't.  I didn't want to.

I don't want to, yet we were already running
at opposite directions when we met again.  
I caught a glimpse of you.  You caught a
glimpse of me.  People around us kept
running, 360 and 5. We were quickly pushed
apart.  I kept running, running.  It must be you.
You looked like the white eye of a wave.  
You went.  I cried.

summerish

*I felt so cold one night
somehow "was" crept in.  hm..

Wintery

Winter

If I cannot be there for you
If you will never love me,
If someday you want to dance
If someday I try to give up waiting
Let these words love you for me

I would love you to the end

Let them touch your face
when you are sad.  Company you
when you are lonely.  Soothe
you when you are angry (with
me.)  Cheer with you when you are
happy.  Congratulate you when
you succeed.  Gaze at you the
way I would.  Advise you
when you hate.....

I would love you to the end.

Timer

Our Arson

My love did not extinguish the
arson which burnt all the
way to our memories and dreams
that frightened friends and strangers.  
Charred those old poems I gave you.
Smoked your whole place when
the curious came.  My love was
a few drops of tears that quickly
evaporated.  My love was the
wind that spread that fire.  My
love was you before the fire.
I made so many mistakes too.
This time we scorched a boundary.
Too hot.  Too scorched.
You left.  I right.  
You right.  I left.
I miss holding your hand.

Sycamore

all those unknown poems were from me.  not a good writer, just wrote from bottom of my heart.

Sycamore

Love only

illogically makes my heart pound pound
pound until phone doorbell rings.  wasn't
for me.  then wait wait wait gazing out that
idyllic street children scream and run round
cherry trees.  i dream.  illogically i hold onto
dreams dreams dreams that we smashed
smashed smashed and mended mended
mended.  dreamers are we.  dreams of us
passing hills and shooting stars and fireworks
and homework and kitty and ducks and ponds
and highways and quarrels and squirrels and
borders and ages and tests and stop in front
of our tree, the coolest spot in a summer
afternoon to admire the view of our dream we
admitted to share and implement.

Sycamore

Romance by Edgar Allan Poe

Romance, who loves to nod and sing,
With drowsy head and folded wing,
Among the green leaves as they shake
Far down within some shadowy lake,
To me a painted paroquet
Hath been--a most familiar bird--
Taught me my alphabet to say--
To lisp my very earliest word
While in the wild wood I did lie,
A child--with a most knowing eye.

Of late, eternal Condor years
So shake the very Heaven on high
With tumult as they thunder by,
I have no time for idle cares
Through gazing on the unquiet sky.
And when an hour with calmer wings
Its down upon my spirit flings--
That little time with lyre and rhyme
To while away--forbidden things!
My heart would feel to be a crime
Unless it trembled with the strings.

Sycamore

from As You Like It by Shakespeare

(II 7:138-165)

All the world's stage,
And all the men and women merely players;
They have their exits and their entrances,
And one man in his time plays many parts,
His acts being seven ages.  At first the infant,
Mewling and puking in the nurse's arms.
Then the whining schoolboy, with his satchel
And shining morning face, creeping like snail
Unwillingly to school.  And then the lover,
Sighing like furnace, with a woeful ballad
Made to his mistress' eyebrow.  Then a soldier,
Full of strange oaths, and bearded like the pard,
Jealous in honour, sudden, and quick in quarrel,
Seeking the bubble reputation
Even in the cannon's mouth.  And then the justice,
In fair round belly with good capon lin'd,
With eyes severe and beard of formal cut,
Full of wise saws and modern instances;
And so he plays his part.  The sixth age shifts
Into the lean and slipper'd pantaloon,
with spectacles on nose, and pouch on side,
His youthful hose, well sav'd, a world too wide
For his shrunk shank, and his big manly voice,
Turning again toward childish treble, pipes
And whistles in his sound.  Last scene of all,
That ends this strange eventful history,
Is second childishness, and mere oblivion,
Sans teeth, sans eyes, sans taste, sans every thing.

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