Dee now knows.

[Alec BALD one]

        I may not  have been blessed in the looks dept. but I guess, to compensate I WAS blessed with a bit of an acting talent. Knowing I was gonna have to tell D sooner-or-later about my latest shit-canning, I called him up this morning, & told him the reason why he didn't hear from me (He gets very panicky when he doesn't hear from his precious little 38 yr old boy at least once a week) was that I was fired. What I DIDN'T tell him tho, was the exact reason I got fired, the inflammatory email, but I told him everything else. Carefully constructing my alibi, so as to make me look like not only the clear victim in this episode, but actually a classy guy.  Just to think. If I was to add that 1 little detail to my story, about my Ill-advised email, he'd receive me in a completely different light. Oh what a tangled web we weave...
      So, I hopped the Davie bus & waited for the 210 at my usual stop.
 I had a girl about half my age come up to me & ask me if I was waiting for thge 210. Of course, my desperately mal-nourished ego likes to think that she was hitting on me, but then, my self-doubting cynicism tells me "no" she really only wanted to know if she had missed her bus. I've heard somewhere, that women can sense when a man is confident & I was wearing a differrent shirt today, which I have to admit - DID give me a little boost, so who knows?  Bottom line tho is: as I have done countless times in my life, I did nothing to follow up on the possibillity that she might have been interested in me & of course, my best rationalization being: she couldn't have been more than 21 - TOPS. & me, a nearly 40 yr old? Ahh neaho.
     So I arrived at Dee's & he quickly indicated he would like to go out for lunch today & who could blame him?  It was a surprisingly sunny day, so we seized upon the moment & took a cab down to White spot & had a very fulfilling lunch.
 **Also of note** today was the 1st day I went from 113mg down to my long term dose of 75mg Effexor. I have to admit, I did feel a little more edgy today, but at least it wasn't anything I couldn't handle. We'll see how it goes in the comming days. So, after I babysat Dee at the Gatorfarm for the day, I bummed $20.00 from him & hit the road, just before the Home Healthcare nurse showed up at 4pm.
     I don't mean to speak derrogatorially of my own father, because I do love him so. & I know he has done so much for me. It's just hard sometimes, listening to his woes of aging & his various aches & pains. I mean I feel for the guy, I really do. & it's frustrating for me, his son to not be able to protect him from the ravages of old age. I mean, talk about a bum deal. Here's a guy, who has the youthful outlook of a 20 yr old, but is betrayed by the rapidly decaying body of an 83 yr old. I love him so much I could cry.  

[Lil Me]

may I suggest that you post all new episodes under the same thread.  That way, there's a single thread with Alec BALD One stories.  Just a thought.  

[Alec BALD One]

I see your point. & you're quite right.
My apologies.
Please feel free to delete any previous posts under my name.

Cheers!  

[P.C.]

You're OK Alec  [img style="CURSOR: pointer" onclick=url(this.src); src="http://www.cheesebuerger.de/images/smilie/froehlich/c020.gif" border=0]

[Alec BALD One]

        So, here it is. Sunday night, nearing 10 pm. What did I do today?
 Got up around 7:30, stumbled around until I had enough wits about me to go to Blenz for my morning j-ava, where I took my usual seat at the window & witnessed life passing down Davie.on a typical grey Vancouver morning.
     After, I went back to my place & wolfed down 8, yes that's right ( pieces of Raisin Toast - all dripping with butter. I can't kill myself quick enough. & of course, after downing that much starch in such a quick time, my body shut down & I fell asleep & when I next woke up it was 7:30 p.m. Great way to kill a day off. AND economical too. I mean here it is 10pm & I still feel full from all that Raisin toast. There. I just yawned again, so obviously, today's a write-off. Not that I had sny elaborate itinerary to accomplish anyway.  
    Another day in the life of a valuable member of society.  

[P.C.]

lol, Alec.  You have good perspective sometimes.  That was pretty good.

[Lise]

Alec, good stuff. Looking forward to reading your saga. It's sometimes sad, sometimes sweet and brilliantly honest-down-to-earth. Keep chin up, dude.  

[Marik]

Kind of sad, but really nice story - the DS version of Schizohindu!  

[Alec BALD one]

         I've developed this strange habit lately, of surfing the net, while listening - that's right, LISTENING & NOT watching movie files. As it turns out, I'm listening to Silence Of The Lambs.  It makes surfing the net an entirely new experience, not to mention put me in a strange frame of mood.  I'll bet it's not everyone who blogs their thoughts & feelings while listening to: "PUT THE ^@#$! LOTION IN THE BASKET!" comming from their speakers.
     So. another busy day in the life of an unemployed bum.  One way you can definately tell you're unemployed, is when you wake up to the sound of the Garbage Truck, banging the bin repeatedly. Almost like it's knocking on your door from outside saying: "Hey! Get up ya lazy bum!  There's Coffee to be drank. Ah yes. The 2 top activitiies of the Unemployed.
     Actually, when I went for my morning Coffee at Blenz this morning, I decided to start writing my Autobiography. & that's just what I started texting on my phone, as I was sitting there drinking my coffee. I have to admit, I think I got off to a good start. I can't wait to see how it ends up. There's nothing like starting a new project. Especially if you're unemployed. It gives you sense of purpose. Hey! Kind of the way a job does!
     So, of course, after I was finished my cup, I went back to my suite & had another 4 pieces of Raisin Toast & despite my best efforts to stay awake, I just couldn't & was asleep by about 2 pm. Fortunately I didn't sleep too long this time. I got up around 3:30, craving - wouldn't you know it? a coffee. So, for variety sake, I ventured on down to the 7-11 on Burrard (Yes, I do like the high-end stuff).
    Oh & for historical reference. Today was the official unveiling of the Countdown to 2010 Clock. & in typical media fashion, the hype far outweighed the product, for when they did the "Big Dramatic Unveiling" all they had to show for it was a big clock shaped like a shoe-heel, with a giant popsickle stick jammed down the middle. Really captures the spirit of Vancouver & Canada.
      Oh well. I'm sure the much hyped new Canucks logo & jerseys next season will be just as much of a dissapointment. Then again, almost anything's better than the Free Willy jersey they have now.  

[P.C.]

'Listening' to Silence of the Lambs'.  That's VERY good Alec.  Perhaps you've found your niche.......writing.   [img style="CURSOR: pointer" onclick=url(this.src); src="http://www.cheesebuerger.de/images/more/bigs/c014.gif" border=0]

[Alec BALD One]

    Glory. As in, that's the movie I'm  listening to today. One of the few NOT Cheesy Mathew Broderick films from the 80's
     So let's see now. What miracles have I performed in the last 24 hrs? Well, as always I awoke to the sounds of Garbage Trucks & Crows & once again tapped in more entries to my highly anticipated Autobiography at Blenz & am happy to report that today I was able to resist the temptation to take a nap!
    It's time to admit the truth. There's very little interesting in the life of an unemployed  man. Hell, there was very little interesting about my life BEFORE I got fired.  At least, I haven't sunken to the level of watching daytime soap operas. Did you know, there ARE actually guys, MEN - who watch those things? & what's more, they're not even gay! Anyways, if ever I sink to such depths, then I'll know there's no hope. In the meantime, I'll stick with my routine of coffee, breakfast, nap (Optional) lunch, coffee, dinner & sleep. Repeating daily, until something happens to break the cycle.Something like, oh, say...a job!
      Oh, on another note. I've begun correspondance with this mature woman. She initiated contact & I've been trying to keep it flowing, without LOOKING like I'm trying. On a strictly primitive level, I'd stick it into her, of course I don't want to let HER know that. Herein lies the great conflict. Do I go for the quick screw & try to bed her by turning on the charm & saying what it is I think she wants to hear, in order to achieve this end?  Pretty pointless, since I haven't a CLUE what a woman wants. OR. Do I just sit back & let it play out & possibly germinate into something more?  I DO know that having sex with someone you actually have an emotional bond with can be the most rewarding. God, I tell you, sometimes it SUCKS to be a man. I mean, we want to conquer as much babeage as we can in our lifetime, but thore more women you sleep with, I guess the more meaningless sex becomes. Like Pornstars. Well at least they get paid for it. Which is I guess every guys dream.
    Back to reality (Gives his head a shake) So, here I am typing away as the sun's making a valliant effort to poke through the clouds. I guess life's not all that bad.  

[Lise]

Ah, Alec. Such eloquence. *sniff*

[Date]

       Well the highlight of today has to be my Date. I mean, I didn't even expect to be going out on one, but the girl I had been in correspondance with, well we started MSN'g & next thing you know, we're meeting for coffee on Robson. Thank god for the dope, because it sure helped take some of the edge off off not only the Anxietey of anticipation, but the whole date as well.
     We agreed to meet at 6 & of course, I made sure I got there nice & early & she was just a couple of minutes late Fashionably late, I believe is the correct term. First off let me tell you, she has the cutest smile & she flashed me that smile all evening.  After it was clear that we were clicking, I suggested we go for  a walk down to the waterfront & she let me take her hand. God, it felt good to hold someone's hand. To actually be connecting with someone. She is self assured, but not cocky & she made it very easy to be with her.  We had a nice romantic walk along the waterfront, amidst the backdrop of the night lights of the city. I never felt so alive!  To be out on the town, sharing the company of a woman, whom what's more I didn't have to put on any kind of an act for, she was letting me be myself & that just attracted me more to her. By the time we got to her building, we kissed goodnight. I can still taste her lips & I left feeling more alive than I have felt in a long time. Now I need to sort through some feelings.  As I am tragically inexperienced in the Dating game, for a man of my age, I dodn't quite know where to go from here. On a physical level, I want to sleep with her, but I don't know if that's just because it's been so long since I've had any & I'm desperate to bump uglies with anything with a pulse?  Or that I genuinely want to make LOVE to her. What a connundrum. On the one hand, if we were to jump into bed this early, I would have one need fulfilled, the need to get laid - but would it be at the expense of sacraficing a greater need. The neeed to be LOVED.
    Boy, for a man of 38, I sure am emotionally immature.  

[Alec BALD One]

Well, I can relax about taking the next step.

Witness this email I just got.

 Hello Alec
>
>I hope you had a nice night!
>It was so nice to meet you yesterday and to spend time with you.
>You are truly an amazing person!! You have a wicked sense of humour,
>you are handsome, intelligent and you have good head on your
>shoulders.
>We had a very nice time, [span style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"]but[/span] I don't think there was chemistry
>between us.
>But this was just one of the many dates that you will go out on, and
>believe me, you are very good at it.
>I know you will find that special someone and I wish you all the
>best!
>
>CENSORED

If anybody's gonna get dumped on Valentines - it would be me!

LONG LIVE MARC LEPINE!!!
FREE ROBERT PICTON!!!!!

[Lise]

Oh Alec. That sucks to teh max!!! Why did she let you hold her hand while walking or let you kiss her in the end? That's not right in my books.

  And to be dumped on Valentine's Day too, of all days.

  Que sera sera. Don't know what else to say but sorry to hear about that.